Someone Like you by stephanie lyon (large ebook reader TXT) 📖

where I would be numb to the pain of reality. The pain that I caused myself.

 

 

 

 

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful

 Stop me and steal my breath

 And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky

 Never revealing their depth

 

 

 

Edwin McCain sung waking me up. My eyelids still to heavy to open them so I keep them shut and just lay there listening to the song. What use to be our song the song that I use to believe brought amazing memories back now it just brought back memories good and bad.

 

 

And tell me that we belong together

 Dress it up with the trappings of love

 I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips

 Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

 

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder

 I'll be love suicide

And I'll be better when I'm older

 I'll be the greatest fan of your life

 

And rain falls angry on the tin roof

 As we lie awake in my bed

 And you're my survival, you're my living proof

 My love is alive, and not dead

 

And tell me that we belong together

 Dress it up with the trappings of love.

 I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips

 Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

 

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder

 I`ll be love suicide

 And I'll be better when I'm older

 I'll be the greatest fan of your life

 

And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,

I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.

 

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder

 I'll be love suicide

 And I'll be better when I'm older

 I'll be the greatest fan of your life

 The greatest fan of your life

 

 

I kept my eyes shut because I knew the minute I opened them I’d have to face reality once again and I was already falling apart I had no clue how much more I could take before I completely broke.

 

“nice song choice I didn’t know you still listened to that” dakotah’s voice faintly said as I feel back into sleep. I pictured Dakotah standing there in his jeans and a nice fitting t-shirt.  I smiled at him.

 

“why wouldn’t I?” I ask.

 

“well why would you” dakotah’s voice says, this time louder and closer. I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up straight. My eyes shot open and I saw Dakotah standing at the edge of the bed in jeans and a flannel his arms crossed, hia expression blank. I scream before it registers that it was Dakotah standing there.

 

“jesus Dakotah, you scared the crap out of me!” I snap picking up and throwing the pillow on the bed at him. He dodges it, unfortunately crappy coffee maker sitting on the table wasn’t as lucky.

 

The coffee maker lands on the carpet with a large thud, and in that instant my heart stops expecting everything to be shattered or broke. I release a relieved breath when I look and see nothing broken.

 

“way to go sleeping beauty” Dakotah says sarcastically picking it up and placing it back in its spot on the table.

 

“shut up dokatah” I groan flopping back down on the bed and looking at the ceiling the way half the room was lit up while the other half was dark because the angle of the sun.

 

“you ready for your meds fay” Dakotah asks sendind shivers down my body. God how I missed him calling me that. I shake my head and flip back over so I’m laying on my stomach. I feel the bed dip down then his hand rubbing my back. “you ready to head out?”

 

I answer with a shake of my head and go back to enjoying the tingling sensation as he rubs my back. “ I saw the picture of Bentley on your phone last night, he has your eyes” he blurts out. I sit up and look at Dakotah giving him a “what about it”  shake of head and shrug .

 

“he has your lips and nose and the birthmark on  his side” I say staring down at the sheets, playing with them as an attempt to keep me busy. To keep me from having to look at dakotahs face. “he looks more like- more like his dad then he does me”

 

“ yeah he’s a handsome devil, I bet he’s a heartbreaker at the playground” Dakotah jokes nudging me. I laugh my keep my eyes looking down at the sheets.” Especially with those stunning blue eyes, I bet they put all the girls under his spell just like you-“ he says pausing.

 

“like I did to you” I finish. He answers with a nod before standing up. My heart sunk as i continued to stare at him. I wanted what we use to have back so bad.

 

“do you want to take a shower, I have clothes you can borrow so you don’t have to change back into those”

 

“yeah” I say getting up and walking to the bathroom. Before going in I look at Dakotah and smile at him, my heart skipped a beat when he smiled back at me. i go into the bathroom and smile like an idiot. I look at myself in the mirror, my hair all tangled and my make up smudged.

 

 

 

You never stop loving someone, You either love someone forever, or you never loved them at all.

 

          

  Even today my moms words had their ways of helping me, her physical body might not be here any longer but even today I could feel her heart and soul right where I needed it to be, with me. I didn’t even notice I was crying until I felt a tear drop on my hand. I wiped the tears and turned the shower on thinking about my mom, she always knew before I even met Dakotah he’d be the love of my life. When I met Dakotah he was everything my mom described as the guy id spend my life with. At first it scared the hell out of me I guess it was just a mothers intuiton but I stayed clear of Dakotah, but he still managed to win my heart.

          

  She loved him, the last couple months we had left with her she kept telling him to take care of her little princess a love that we had was a one in a billion possibility. She would be so disssapointed in me to find out I left him. I broke his heart and mine and I took his son away from him. I peeled my nasty clothes off and got in the shower letting the hot water run down my body making sure my cast was covered like the doctor instructed me.

           

As the water ran down me I stared at the wall thinking back to my mom.

          

  ‘I’m so sorry mom’ I saod to myself.

           

I really messed this up, my mom would be so disappointed in me. I let down my mom, my son, and Dakotah and I really screwed up running away and letting Dakotah slip away from me.

           

I had to fix this, I had to try.

           

Even if it was to late.

Chapter Six

 

 

My heart sank as he handed me a pair of jeans and a black tshirt that had the words COUNTRY BOY’S LOVE G.R.I.T.S. on the front. I  grabbed them from him and went back to the bathroom before he caught me tearing up. Why would ha give me some girls clothes although they were really cute to wear, some girl he probably had sex with at one of the many partys during the fourteen months I was gone. I couldn’t look at anyother guy sense I left and here he was hooking up with girls. It hurt worse then my broken arm.

 

I balled the shirt I was still holding up into a fist and threw it at the wall. Then backed up against another wall and let myself slide down.

 

The worst pain I ever felt consumed me as I sat there in the bathroom trying to hold myself together while trying to figure out why he’d do something like this. Yesterday he was so sweet and he pretended like he cared was that an act? Was he just being nice because we had a son together?

           

There’s one thing I knew for sure, I had to keep my distance from Dakotah from this point on, I was still as in love with him as I ever had been but it doesn’t look like it was the same for Dakotah, I’d be civil for Bentley but  as for dakotahs’ and I relationship we were just parents to a beautiful baby boy . from this point on I wouldn’t let my feels involve in it.

        

    I put the close on feeling disgusted that I was probably wearing some hoe’s clothes but I needed clothes and these were cute. I hope he at least had the decentsy to watch these before he gave them to me. I felt something poked my side, reaching down I pulled it and saw a tag. What the hell? If these ain’t some girls clothes then why the hell did he have em’.

          

  “Dakotah!” I yell struggling to button the pants with the cast. Seconds later Dakotah was in the bathroom. “I need I can’t button these stupid jeans with this cast on.”

        

    “no need to say more” he laughed reaching down and  buttoning them for me burning my skin when he brushed against me. I sucked in a breath causing him to look up at me. he looked confused then I saw aa fondness in his eyes that made my knees weak, I forced myself to look away. No I promised not to let my emotions get involved again, so far all its done is make it hurt.

         

   “fay” he whisphers, I could tell I was hurting him by the way he spoke, and for a southern boy lik him I knew it was hard when it came to showing people when you’re in pain. I felt his hand caress my cheek  making my heart skip a beat. I closed my eyes tighter and bit my lip hoping he wouldn’t make me look at him. “please” he adds moving my face so I was facing him. My eyes were squeezed so tightly shut I could see black and white.

       

     “go Dakotah” I tell him still keeping my eyes shut.

      

      “ no I don’t run away that’s always been your thing. please faith I’m sorry I can feel you sliping away from me and I won’t let you do it again.”

       

     “ go” I say more stubron this time. I feel his hand alide down my arm unti he got to my hand and squeezed it.

       

     “open your eyes first”

        

    “no”

     

       “faith” he pleads. I wait a couple seconds before I feel my eyelids getting looser and looser, I guess my heart knew what it wanted, even though my head said no. I looked at him his eyes glassy.i wanted to wipe them away and tell him I was there, I was right in front of him. But all I could do was replay the last year and a half run through my head and I held myself back.

          

  “you don’t love me Dakotah, you thought I cheated on you, if you loved me you wouldn’t have cared weather I did or not, which I