Fallen Angel by Alexandra Rader (any book recommendations TXT) 📖

"Forgive you for what? Not feeling the same as I do? It's not your fault. You deserve better anyways. I know that. You know that. Everyone knows it. I love you. Oh, well. I'll make do with what I have. I'll turn myself over to Kasy. I've been thinking about that a lot lately."

He laughed under his breath at me and asked, "How in the world have you been thinking about turning yourself in when you are passing out so often?"

I could tell he was smirking. I glared in his direction and the scowl crept across my face. I couldn't stay mad at him long though. I mean, he HAD just saved my life.

"Why were you following me?" I asked.

"You wouldn't understand Misty."

"I bet if you tried to explain, I'd try to understand."

"Misty, when I lost you... I lost everything. I lost my best friend, my girl. I lost my mind. I searched for John and BEGGED him to end me. He refused, saying that to suffer was the best way out. I then went to David. He refused as well. Saying he couldn't afford to bring me into the Supernatural world and risk losing you. I even went to Ashley! She had nothing to offer me. So, I went to Kasy. Of course, once I entered his lair, there was no way of getting out unless I bartered with him. He agreed to let me keep my soul intact in the assurance that I would protect you whenever he wasn't around. He is putting me through the most suffering I have ever endured. But..." he said, his voice getting very, very quite. "But... he granted me Immortality."

I gasped. There is no way I could have POSSIBLY heard him right. Was there?

"Yes, yes. I know. That's what you went through. I thought it would bring me closer to you."

"That's why you don't love me anymore!" I said in anguish. I sank to the ground. Tears were spilling from my eyes in heavy streams.

Everything was spinning in the room. I think I might have blacked out for a few seconds, but I'm not too sure. My body was shaking in uncontrollable grief and anger.


Quietly, I stood on my shaking legs and walked to the door. I swept passed him without a second glance. He followed me down the dimly lit hallway.

"Misty, please," he begged as he grabbed my arm.

I'm not exactly sure how it happened, but the next second I had grabbed Jacob by the throat and pinned him high up on the wall.

"What. Were. You. THINKING?" I hissed into his face. Then I dropped him to the floor and began to walk away.

"I was thinking that I couldn't stand the thought of being away from you. But I didn't know that Immortality came with the cost of losing every emotion your human self had."

"Well now you know, I said icily. "Are you happy with your decisions? Did you get what you wanted, Jacob?" I walked away then.

"No, no I'm not happy. And no I did not get what I wanted. I miss you," he said.

I didn't hear him. I just kept walking. Silver Tears

As I walked away, the tears started to well up in the corners of my eyes. He didn't love me because he just didn't love me. He didn't love me because he COULDN'T love me. He didn't REMEMBER how to love me, or any of the emotions he once had for me.

How much more perfect can my life get?

I thought sarcastically.

I finally reached the end of the hall, so I took a left. I reached for the very first door to check if it was locked so that I would have a quiet, private place to shed my tears. However, before my hand even reached the door handle, I crumpled to the floor in a screaming heap.

I heard footsteps running towards me and a door being slammed, then everything went black and I was consumed in pain and blood.

Blood was running in streams down my face from my eyes. My tears,

I realized slowly. I'm crying blood!

The realization startled me into a silver haze.

Where am I?

I thought.

I tried to see through my bloody tears but I could see nothing but silver and red.

Great. NOW I'm gonna die. Right as I found a purpose to live. Right as I started figuring things out.

Misty, just hang in there. You aren't dying. I'm not sure what's happening but, you just have to bite through the pain and hang in there. We are gonna figure this out, dear,

 

 

said Gizmo. She sounded worried though. A little TOO worried.

Screams kept erupting from my mouth and blood still ran from my eyes down my face. It hurt so bad. I wanted to die. It made me wish I was never born. That I was normal. That I didn't have a dangerous war ahead of me. That my destiny wasn't already written for me. That I wasn't an angel.

As soon as I thought that, the pain went away. The blood stopped running from my eyes, but in its place I felt an even heavier liquid like substance streaming from my eyes.

I placed my hand to my face and as I drew it away, I was astonished to see a silver substance.

I glanced around me and saw that Ashley, Jacob, Gizmo, and Taylor were surrounding me, jaws dropped.

"What's goin-" I started.

Ashley gazed at me pridefully and whispered, "The Silver Tears" before passing out before me.

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Publication Date: 05-02-2012

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Dedication:
To all the people in my life who can fall into one of 4 categories: My best friends. My trouble makers. My heroes. And my loves. Thanks for all of the support guys. I love you all. And I would especially like to thank my mom. I love you :)