Terra by Alyssa Scott (best self help books to read txt) 📖

Chapter 9

 *again, my bad for the lateness of this chapter. Hope you all still love it though! :D <3*

*P.S. - It's finished! After like a year I have finally enough time to write again! I have reviewed previous chapters and feel that this is where I wany my story to be. Thank you to those that have stuck with me so far! I appreciate it!*

Oh my god. This pain. Its like... I'm being flayed alive and then deep fried. My body burns as if I'm inside an incinerator. In fact, I may be in one. This room, this bed, and this body have been my hell for who knows how long. I cant open my eyes, I can't eat, I can't sleep. I can't even breath really. I'm surpised that I am actually. I no longer hear voices. My chocolate eyed prince is no longer here. Or maybe he is and I'm just too far gone to feel him anymore. I'm not even fighting this anymore. Honestly? All I want to do is die.

The only time I ever feel anything other thn pain and heat is when he touches me. I may not hear him or see him, but I feel him. Its like my body yearns for his touch. Just a little bit to end my torture for a second. Not just my body, but I also yearn for it. For that one blissfull second I am at peace, and I can feel my body ceasing its spasms. The heat is still there, but its a warm heat. No pain. But then it goes away, and again its like my body is being tortured ten-fold for that one second of bliss.

If only I could die. If only...

Terra.

...What was that? 

Terra... baby, come back. Its time.

Time? Time for what? I dont want to come back. I want to die. I dont want anymore pain... no more...

Silence. 

Are they going to let me die yet? Oh god... please just-

Just then I felt pain like nothing I've ever felt before. This pain was on a whole new level. A whole new universe. I screameed. Or at least, it felt like I screamed. I felt like I was being touched. But this touch was not welcomed. This touch, I could feel the malice and pure evil behind it. It was an icy touch. This pain was completely freezing. Combine that with my scorching heat, I couldnt bear this touch. No, whoever was touching me was not here to end my pain, or even give me a reprieve like my price. This person was here to take. What I wasn't sure, but I just knew that he was going to take something from me. 

But just as suddenly as the pain and touching started, it stoped. Why? Then I felt another touch. My soothing price was back; and I could finally breath again. He held me tight. I could feel his warmth where the other had made me feel cold. I wanted to smile. I wanted to tell him thank you for making me feel better before I die. 

Terra....

Damn it! Why could't he just leave me alone! Go away! Leave me be... please...

I felt myself slip away further and further from that voice. I wanted peace. Silence.

Its hard to describe exactly how one feels when they die. It's more peacfull then I imagined though. The blackness was preferable to the pain that I have been in for... who knows how long. I'm honestly not really sure if I'm dead or... something else. This place that I am in; it's peacfull yes, but I feel that if I look closely I will see others here. Others trapped just like me. 

 I dont want to go back though. I dont want to have to live without my parents. I dont want to have to live with my brother who was never there for me. I honestly wish that I HAD died with my parents. Then I wouldnt feel like this. Like something was missing from my life.

 ...rra.

 What was that?

 ..Terra...

 Oh god. Not again! I dont want to go back! Leave me here where i dont need to feel. Where there is no time and I can just be.  

Terra!

Terra!!

There was a jolt within my body. I felt myself bend up, my eyes open, and my mouth scream.

Suddenly, my eyes are wide open and I'm staring into those chocoalte eyes again. Oh god. Those eyes are so beautiful. So hypnotic.

The room I was in was dark, but for a single candle on a dresser. Finaly, I felt myself go limp and my scream dissipate. The pain, it was still there, but I could now see and smell. I looked around and stopped when I saw him.

My body began to temble, my mouth water. I could smell chocolate and pine. 

 "Leave me dog, this one does not want the transfer."

 Transfer? what the fuck is a tranfer? And who is speaking? 

 "What do you mean? Terra, is that you?" Chocoalte man is looking worried. God he is so beautiful.

 "She will not mate. She wishes death over her destiny; and no one will force this body. I will not allow it. For I am her, in a sense. I will not tolerate any harm to this vessle."

Oh god. Is this like alien? Where some thing is going to pop out of my body? Oh fuck! I cant do this. 

"Terra, please, if you can hear me, nod your head."

I tried. Really. I did. but nothing. What is happening?

"She can hear you. But I am in control, Dog. What you wish, and those of your order wish, will not happen without her wishes. She is scared. She knows not of me. Why does she not understand her lineage?"

"But you have chosen, Tatsuo? Am I not the one with whom your vessel is most compatible with? You need me. She needs me. We need you. He's here. He's close. We don't have much time."

okay. Again with all this vessel crap. What the actual fuck?

"You are arrogant. Did you not think that without her I would not be here to help you? You forget, without her, there is no me. I am not here for anyone else but her. And she," The voice choked, "does not know who I am. What we are. You think that we want to be used? All you males. So arrogant. So prideful. That is why you are all lost now. Now leave us. I will take care of her in our afterlife. We will be born agan. You may need us, but we don't need you."

Well damn. I don't even know what is going on but I do know a strong person when I see one. Or sense. But wait, where is the voice coming from?

"Please, we cannot hope to win without you. You know that," This time it was a different voice. I knew this voice too. My body moved and I saw my brother there. What was he doing here? "Tatsuo, please. WE did not know that Devon would not train her. He was supposed to keep her safe. I guess he took his job of father too well. I am sorry."

Devon? My father? but, I dont understand. 

"He loved her. I can understand. It was not only his mission, though, was it? What is your name now? Jake?"

My brother, or Jake, gave a waery smile, "You can call me whatever you wish. You and I both know that I go by many names."

"Us being aquanted in another time means nothing now. Do you understand? My vessel. My life, is hers. I cannot explain. She does not hear me as you have. This is the first time she has heard my voice. She does not understand. She wants to die. Our pain... it hurts. She cannot take it."

"That is what Parker is here for! I know that there have been several mates within reach but it is within HIM you found something, am I right?"

Mate? Oh my God. Are the stories true? Are there wearwolves? 

"I have made my choice. She has yet to make hers. We are one in the same. I cannot do anything unless she wants to. Our kind are different. We are one. We are singular. One does not do anything without the other."

Our kind? Is she talking about me? Is this voice... me? But if they are dogs, wearwolves, what am I?

"Let me talk to her Jake. Please."

My eyes directed themselves to my soother, "Speak, dog."

"Terra, I know that you are terrified. But we need you here. I know you don't understand what is going on. I am sorry. I thought we had more time. I was getting ready to explain, but you started the transfer process early. Please, let me help you. You don't need to die. You both don't. Please, let me help you. Please!"

How can he help? I don't even know what the hell is happening. What will happen if I stay?  

"You will meld with him. We will all be one."

Oh god, but what does that MEAN? 

"We have not the time to explain. The window for the transfer is closing. There are only a few minutes yet."

How does one choose the pain and live, versus the salvation of dying?  

"You cannot. You can only choose the path that you want."

Either way, I'm fucked huh? Jesus. Okay Terra! Get yourself together! You've lived your whole life abiding by the rules. Always playing it safe. Never speaking out. Never standing up for when things get hard. Well, now you can try. For once. you can try... 

"Her decision has been made," My eyes swiveled around the room. All the boys were here. My eyes stopped at those chocolate pools. I sighed inwardly, "Make the transfer."

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter 10

 Its hard to describe exactly how one feels when they die. Its more peacfull then I imagined though. The blackness was preferable to the pain that i have been in for... who knows how long. I'm honestly not really sure if i'm dead or... something else. This place that I am in; it's peacfull yes, but I feel that if I look closely I will see others here. Others trapped just like me. 

 I dont want to go back though. I dont want to have to live without my parents. I dont want to have to live with my brother who was never there for me. I honestly wish that I HAD dies with my parents. Then I wouldnt feel like this. Like something was missing from my life.

 ...rra.

 What was that?

 ..Terra...

 Oh god. Not again! I dont want to go back! Leave me here where i dont need to feel. Where there is no time and I can just be.  

Terra!

Suddenly, my eyes are wide open and I'm staring into those chocoalte eyes again. Oh god. Those eyes are so beautiful. So hypnotic.

 "Leave me human. This one does not want the transfer."

 Transfer? what the fuck is a tranfer?

 "What do you mean? Terra? is that you?" Chocoalte man is looking worried. God he is