Toxic love by Shikha Mishra (top fiction books of all time .txt) 📖

Disha's POV

"Thankyou for helping me." I say.

"Your welcome." She replies. I want to give her a smile but it doesn't comes. From yesterday only I am calm not even a tear dropped from my eyes after leaving the mansion. I still can't believe I left vihaan. The thought came in a blink and without thinking much I left. But as soon as I came out of the mansion I started panicking. I didn't knew where to go and how to go where I want. I never had the use to roam alone. Vihaan was their with me everytime to guide me. He was there in each and every thing of my life's important days.

I was roaming in the dark roads without any destination. It told me that without vihaan I have no destination. In the middle of the road I found some bad boys. Seeing them my heartbeat razed and going back became more tempting. But being busy in whatever they were talking they didn't say me. At one point I did turned back to go back but before I can reach the mansion a light flashed infront of my eyes making me close my eyes.

"Mrs Malhotra what are you doing here?" I hear someone say. After the light of the car switches off I open my eyes.

"What are you doing here?" I ask instead of answering. I was fiddling with my hands.

"I-I had a very important thing to di-discuss with vihaan." Oh well she doesn't know that I have come to know.

"I know about what you are here to talk about." I answer awkwardly.

"Um then I think I will go back."

"Wait." I shout before I can think. She turned and gave me a questioning look.

"Um can you help me to go back to India?" I ask hesitantly. I regret not doing anything on my own. I wish I was independent.

"Yes. Hope on." A huge smile come over on my face. I take a last look towards the mansion reminiscing the beautiful memories which we made. With a deep breath I get in her car.

"If you don't mind can I ask you something?" I nod her to go on. My gaze fix on the mansion. Did I do the right thing? And before I can regret it I get remember what he did and immediately I remove my gaze from the mansion.

"Are you running away?" I again nod not in the mood to talk. At morning I was so happy but now it seems that all that was just a dream.

"I just booked a ticket which is in 2 hours so I am taking you straight to the airport." I nod. A lump forms in my throat.

"Can I...." I gulp down the lump " can I get a pen and paper."

"Sure." She says. With one hand on steering wheel she turns and takes her hand bag from backside. She takes out a diary and paper from the bag and hands it to me.

I write a letter to vihaan. While writing the letter I gulp down the lumps which are forming every second. I didn't wanted to disappear without telling him but meeting him would have made my resolve crumble so I am writing him a letter. In this way he can come to know and I don't have to see his.....broken face. A face which I brocked by breaking the promise.

"Are you okay." I again nod. As soon as I write 'Please don't cry vihaan' an crying vihaan's face came infront of me. My hold on pen tightens. Can I really leave my vihaan? Can I really leave him knowing that he will cry when he will realise I left?

'No no Disha. Don't forget he is the only one who took your baby away.'

'But I can try to make him understand instead of leaving him. I am sure he will understand. He always listens to me.' I retort back to my conscience.

'But his toxic for you. Who in a right mind will take their own baby.....'

"....Malhotra. Dishaaa." I jerk out of my mind.

"What?"

"What happened to you? I was calling you for like hours." Lisa says. I gulp as I was thinking of forgiving him....again.

"Nothing. I just...spaced out." I mumble embarrassed. What was I thinking? I have to leave him. Toxic love can't be good for life.

"You know sometimes you can love someone and still choose to say 'goodbye' to them. You can miss a person everyday but still be glad that they are no longer in your life." Suddenly I mumble. I don't know from where these words came.

"Yeah you are right but....if your heart still wants that person don't leave them. If your heart can't bear to be away from them then be with them." I hear her say.

"Heart always desires toxic things." I find myself counter back.

"But babe there is a difference between love and desire." That made me shut up.

The whole ride we both remain quite. Not saying anything. I fold the paper.

"Can you keep this letter somewhere he can find it?"

"Yeah."

"Hey." I come out of my thoughts.

"Yeah?"

"You spaced out..... again" I don't say anything.

"Thanks again." I say. I am really grateful of her. If she wouldn't have come at that time I would have been in that mansion.

"Don't mention it. But are you sure you can be alright being alone as I feel like you don't travel alone."

"No. I can manage." I again try to give her a smile but fail.

"One last thing." And suddenly she puts something in my hands. I lower my gaze to my hands to see a 200$ and before I can protest she leaves.

Being really grateful I turn and gaze at the airport entrance. My hands become wet in nervousness. Can I really reach India alone?

I can do it. Just go inside, check in and board my plane. I give myself a ted talk and take a first step then next. My gaze was down the whole time gradually checking so that I don't bump into anyone.

As soon as I was seated on my seat a breath of relief escaped me but it was short lived as a man came and sat beside me. My whole posture became uptight.

"Excuse me that's my seat." I hear a women's voice. When I look up I came face to face with a Indian face.

Her irritation increases after few seconds and I realised that she was talking to me. Getting embarrassed I instantly shift. When she gets settled my gaze shifts to the number plate and I face palmed myself when I see that I really was seating on the wrong seat.