Disappear by Amber (books recommended by bts TXT) 📖

touch mine. Her breathe smells like beer. I can’t stop myself. My first kiss, In how long? I wanted so badly for it to be Rose. But this pretty drunk came up. I hear a pretty voice, singing free style, the earth being her music. I stop and pull away. “Forever…” I make out. I look down, and see her jump in. I panic. What the hell?!? I start to yell her name, but the drunk pulls me down. “I’m sorry.” I say, and shake my head. I hear a splash, and I look down again. Rose is swimming down the river. She is still singing. She gets put ad begins singing something different. I understand the lyrics. “I got to pee.” The girl whispers and leaves. She starts looking down the cave. Her make-up running. Her hair clinging to her. Her dress leaking water. Her shoes probably got lost when she jumped. “Rose.” I whisper, and jump down. She doesn’t hear me. She stops, and looks down the cave. “Dammit.” She whispers. I smile. I touch her shoulder. She turns. She smiles. “Hi.” She says. “Hi.” I say.

(Rose)
I stare at Ryan. His hand slowly goes to my face. He rubs something off of my face, Under my eyes-probably my make-up. He is so warm. I shiver. His hand trails down my dress. “Your wet and cold.” He says. I nod, jaw set. I look down. “Hey look, About today, I didn’t mean to do that… I mean I loved the song…” I say. I look back up at him. His hands play with the tie on my dress-no, not the back tie, the front bow. He smiles. He looks down at the bow as I look up at him. His bottom lip trembles. I love the moon. It makes his face way pretty. He looks at me. One hand slowly and gently goes to my waist. The other goes to my face. I step on my tip toes and we kiss. My hand grips his shirt by his waist. The kiss turns to a PG13 no tongue kiss.

(Ryan)
That other kiss doesn’t count. This one does. I pull her closer. Her wet lips are somewhat comforting. But her presence is what I’ve wanted. That’s when I knew.
I loved her.

My lips tremble on hers. She guides me. “Hey!” The drunk drones it out. Shit. I pull away and smile. She smiles. “Drunk people these days…” She says. I nod, and its like she’s intoxicating, This wasn’t temptation, I already am in and can’t get out.

(Rose)
Jeez, I have never done this before! Make out with a boy for a long time, its really nice. The drunk lady speaks again. Ugghhh. “Hey! Oh, Hey!?! He’s mine!” I hear. I pull away and look at her, my mouth open, but somehow I know I’m smirking. I get pushed in the water. The water is a light dark blue. I open my eyes and look around. Pretty. My eyes burn. I look up and see two figures, together. Uhh-one fell. Then I remember. Hey! Wait. He was kissing me, and that drunk-My chest starts to hurt. I shake my head under water. If I could cry under water-maybe I am-but I would be. I start to swim away. I finally have to swim up for air, and their nowhere in sight. And either is the normal rocks, or the cave. I’m lost. Crap!!!
I cough and get out of the water. I hug myself. I see lights through a couple of trees. I walk through them to the lights. It turns out, Those lights, are my house. I smile and start running. I hear my name being called. “Rose! Oh Rose!... Look what you did!” I hear Ryan. I smile. See ya’ Ryan! I reach my house and yank the door open. I go to bed, and dream of one of my biggest mistakes. The kiss, trusting Ryan, all of it, anything to do with him. “Take Time if you need it, Ryan, When tears fall you better believe it, Say what you want, I wont believe it, Take time if you need it, because I know you don’t mean it. This was just a kiss, a mistake.” I say in a singing/serious voice. I mixed up the lyrics.

(Ryan)
I watched her hit the water, I watched her swim away. Karma! I sigh and sit on the grass. Though, I can’t blame Karma for my actions. I can blame me, though. I am. The drunk laughed and wobbled off. I walk to her window and hear the song of what she was exactly feeling. It was ‘Goodbye’ by New years day. I think that she hopes I hear it. She comes to the window and spots me. I see her lips move into a word. I can even almost hear her voice, even if it was a whisper. “Mistake” I wince.
“This is me saying goodbye, But not for just tonight, This is the final exit I should of made a long time ago” The speaker in her room slows to a soft part of the song, these lyrics making sense. She waves and shuts the curtain. I smile, just a little. I needed to find the lyrics and chords to a ‘Hello’ song… I run off and get started.
(Rosabelle)
I sit on my bed, crying like the rain clouds. This was so stupid. Why did I even do that? That was so stupid. The kiss, and this! I fall asleep shortly after crying myself to sleep.

I walk towards the river, hoping Ryan isn’t there. I sit and pull out my book. The sun is really hot. Then I hear a guitar. Great. I recognize the tune. I try not to smile. It was the tune to, “Hello Goodbye” by the Beatles,
“You say yes, I say no
You say stop and I say go, go, go
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

I say high, you say low
You say why, and I say I don't know
Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello

Why, why, why, why, why, why
Do you say good bye
Goodbye, bye, bye, bye, bye

Oh, no
You say goodbye and I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
Hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye
I say hello
hello, hello
I don't know why you say goodbye I say hello
Hello

Hela, heba helloa
Hela, heba helloa”
*BEatles???*

I turn as he sings, the verse. I smile. When the song is over I shake my head. “Ryan..” I say. He shakes his head. “I’m sorry, Rosabelle, I didn’t want her to kiss me, for Christsakes!” I smile again. “I didn’t mean to kiss you either, Ryan…” I say. His eyes show sadness and anger. “N-No That’s not what I meant, Rose.” He stutters. I shrug. “I have a boyfriend, and his names chase.” I say. “Rose…” He says, getting up and grabbing my hands. “I want you.” He whispers. I look down. “I want you too.” I say. He goes to kiss me. I look away. He grabs my chin and kisses me.


It wasn't a forced kiss. Not from his perspective, or mine. I kiss back, with need. more than need, but is there such a word for that? The air gets cold. "Ryan?" I pull away. He isn't looking so well... His eyes widen. He throws te guitar and runs. I go to follow, but when I do, hes gone before I can call his name. What did I do? It starts to rain so I take his guitar with me as I run to my house.


(Ryan)
Oh, no, oh, no... What is this? What am I? "Dead...dead...dead...dead" A moaning voice answers. I wasnt..i could of sworn... the voice turns into a whispering voice now. "DeadDeadDEADDEADDEADDEADDEADDEAD!!!!" They yell. Then arms grip me to the dark ground. I scream for Rose. "Rose!" I'm in the tunnel. I am. YEah....I'm okay... but the arms are still grabing at me. I scream over and over.


(Rose)
He was in trouble. At first, I thought it was my stereo, one of the screamo bands, it did sound like that, but it wasn't. It was Ryan. I run through the trees and follow the screaming. I run into the tunnel, and see it is Ryan. Gray. He is gray. His eyes are blood shot, and he looks like a scary ghost from a movie. He grunts and screams. it sounds like the exorsist. "Eh. Eh!" He grunts, and then he looks at me. He looks normal for a second. "Rosie..." HE murmurs to me, a hand out stretched. Like a little kid. "Oh, god, Ryan. what did you do?" I run up to him and he continues to shake. "They....uh.." He grunts and goes into a seizure. Then he turns back into whatever he was. HE takes and bites me on the arm. I scream. He scratches me.

(Ryan)
I hear her screams. Something is causing it. I run through the fog and meet a door. I open it and there is a hallway. I run to the door I think the screams are coming from. I open it, and I'm there. I start shaking, shes bleeding. Where am I going? She disappears.

(Rose)
He disappears. His soul is gone. his body is disfigured. I scream, and when no one comes I try to drag him. I can't. I turn and run to my house. I yell at my parnents and lead them to the tunnel. I'm sobbing, but when I get there, I go into hysterics. Hes gone. The bodies gone. I look at my scratches. Pain still lingers. I fall. I'm so confused. I hear a thud and darkness. I'm in a hallway. Ryan is running. "Ryan!" I scream. He turns. "Rose...Oh rose!" He runs and hugs me. "Where are we?" I ask. "In the dream world, or where ever you go to dream, or maybe, have nightmares." He says. I shake my head. "What happened?" I ask. He gulps. "Lets not discuss that yet." HE says. Uh-oh. I hear, THUMP THUMP THUMP My heart beat goes faster. Uh-oh. I hear a weird scream, and then RYan pushes me somewhere.

I hear my parnets scream. "Rose!" They scream over. I open my eyes. I scream again. But I scream in pain. "RYAN!"


I wake up, wondering whats happening.

My room looks the same, the sun still is shining the same way, so was that all a dream? Did I not go see Ryan? I sit up and I feel dizzy. Whoah.I get up and look out the window, to see my mom give my dad a kiss before he leaves for work. He hugs her, and she looks sad.
They both sigh and look up at my window, looking at me, worried expressions on their face.

Ryan.

I needed to see him, feel him.I pass my mirror on my wway out and stop. I see a few scratches on my head, bandaids, and my clothes are dirty and ripped.

"What happened?"

I ask the reflection,