My Savior Alpha by Jessie Marie (books you have to read TXT) 📖

the fact it made them fidgety."I don't mean to offend alpha—" he started but I cut him off, feeling my anger grow when I realized where he was going with this."Then don't!" I snapped causing them all to flinch "you have a problem with my mate and you will be dealing with me personally, is that clear?" I snarled out, watching them all nod as they replied with a 'yes Alpha.' I knew they were worried in case my mate was a spy for another pack or a threat but they should trust my judgment, there was no way in hell my mate was anything other than kind—hearted. If she was a spy my wolf would have sensed the deceit on her, my even more sensitive senses picking up on her emotions if she was being anything other than honest. Frankly the fact they thought my mate was anything other than pure pissed me the fuck off!"Sorry alpha" he mumbled causing me to nod with narrowed eyes, pleased that he had learnd his place. Sending everyone back to their previous activities I rolled my eyes as I watched Paul sweep a giggling Lily in his arms before bouncing up the stairs before freezing when he heard my warning growl. Let's just say everyone was a lot quieter afterwards.

***Holly's Pov

I never used to sleep well, always fearing that I would be violently awoken or the nightmares would cause me to wake up screaming. It was something I had gotten used to, not being able to risk closing my eyes in case horrible images flashed behind my lids when I let myself relax. Things I remembered which I wanted nothing more than to forget, it was painful for me to see them again, to re—call the unforgettable aspects of my life that my innocent—self had been forced to witness and endure as I was growing up.Surprisingly I didn't pity myself; I knew that somewhere out there someone must be worse off than I was. It was what kept me sane, trying desperately to look on the bright side of life even when I look back on it now and want nothing more than to cry my eyes out.So when I didn't normally sleep well I couldn't help but realize as soon as I started to wake from my sleep that it was the first time in my life that I have ever slept without waking up screaming. I couldn't help but tense, wondering if I had been drugged in my sleep only to relax my form slightly when I realized I was surrounded thickly in a scene which had my wolf purring in delight. I knew whose it was; I would be able to recognize it anywhere now. Adrian.I still had no idea what he wanted with me, why he was wasting his time with a broken girl who had nothing to her name. Why was he even bothering with me, it was clear he could have his choice of any females considering he was the sweetest guy I had ever met, not to mention he was far from unattractive. What with his muscular form, thick black hair and soft eyes that made me want to melt. But I knew I didn't stand a chance, I mean what would he want with a skinny and unhealthy—looking girl who could probably break with the gentlest of touches. No, it was better if I didn't get my hopes up for something which I knew would never happen; even if the thought made my wolf whine in pain.It was another reaction I was curious of, why my wolf was acting in such an unusual way. She had always been with me over the years, talking to me to help keep me sane from the life that I was brought up in. She much like myself had never been happy though, never felt anything other than pain and shame. Now though she seemed to be alive, as if woken from a long sleep. It was when I thought of Adrian I noticed, how she would purr in comfort as if she had fallen for his wolf already. I had no idea what this meant, but I had a feeling that he most likely didn't feel the same way. It was probably due to the fact he was the first and only person who has ever been nice to me I thought, she simply wanted the comfort she thought he could give us. Not that I blamed her, she had a right to hope after all.Sighing softly I slowly let my eyes flutter open, not remembering where I was until I felt as if I was lying on a cloud. The soft material felt unusual but comforting against my skin, the skirt he had obviously given me leaving my legs bare and I was thankful he had spared a pair of his boxers, even if the thought of him seeing me so intimately made meat flush a hundred shades of red. I didn't know why he was still hanging around; it was clear that now he had seen all of me that I wasn't anything special to look at. I was a broken, fragile girl who was now alone in the world completely.That thought should have affected me really, I mean I should have felt a sense of loss over losing my family or regret for running away but I found it impossible to do so. When I thought back to how they treated me I realized that they had never actually considered me family as I had never considered them mine. A pack is there to protect each other, but they had never protected me since they were the main and only cause of the pain to begin with.So with that I couldn't help but frown, realizing right there and then that they meant nothing to me, at all. I felt more for strangers then I did for them and while I thought myself as a positive person I realized that I didn't just loath them, I hated them with everything in me as did my wolf. Her pack had betrayed her, abused her in ways which brought tears to my eyes; she didn't deserve that.

Chapter 15

 Breathing in deeply I pressed my face into the plush pillow beneath me, feeling a strange sense of loss as if something was missing. The scent helped I realized, but I couldn't help but take note of how my wolf seemed to crave more. More of what exactly I didn't know, but whatever it was she seemed to have become addicted to it instantly. Whether that was a good thing or a bad thing I will never know, but I'm holding out that it's positive.Really I knew that I shouldn't be letting my guard down so easily, I mean anything could happen but I found my wolf too at ease here to find myself worked up like I would have expected. I felt almost comforted here; a feeling which was while new to me was one that I found myself liking. I wasn't foolish enough to try and get used to it, but I was grateful enough for the feeling to soak up as much as I could get before Adrian grew bored with me and threw me aside as I expected; my wolf cried out at the thought but I knew it was inevitable.Sighing I slowly, cautiously pushed myself up from the bed as I kept the sheets around me as if they could protect me. I didn't know what to expect, but I needed the bathroom badly and had no idea where it was. I was surprised that I hadn't needed it before, but then again I hadn't eaten much for days or drunk anything so it didn't shock me as much as it would others. I was used to it after all, unfortunately.Letting my eyes scan the room I couldn't help but stiffen as I saw the back of someone's head as I looked towards the black sofa which sat at the edge of the room, it was directed towards a large open window and I could only imagine how beautiful the sight must be but I couldn't see from the angle I was at. What I did know though was who it was, Adrian.Strangely I found I didn't mind it, my frown deepening when I realized that I actually liked him being here, as if his presence brought me comfort which I couldn't understand. I tried to shake it off but before I knew what I was doing I was gently moving myself to the edge of the bed, throwing my legs gently over the side before I froze. What was I doing? Would he mind?Shaking my head softly, my curls knotted horribly I quietly lowered my feet to the ground. I wasn't prepared for the soft carpet underneath my feet that was for sure, it was nice. It was thick and felt like heaven against my toes, my battered and bruised body appreciating the softness of it as I couldn't help but let a ghost of a smile grace my lips as I gently walked over to the couch on the opposite side of the room, my eyes still tired with sleep as I found myself walking as quietly as I could before I could even think of stopping myself.Reaching him I couldn't help but stare as I stood in front of him, my eyes taking in how unguarded he seemed in his sleep as his large muscular form seemed to be crammed uncomfortably on the couch. I didn't know why he let me have his bed for the night when he clearly needed it, I wouldn't have minded sleeping on the sofa since it would have been a luxury compared to the blanket I had at home. I wanted to scoff at the thought, that place was never my home.I suddenly found myself having to fight the urge to run my fingers through his hair, taking note that while I had thought it was pitch black before it was actually a very dark brown. I couldn't help but let my gaze soften as I simply stood in front of him, letting my eyes take in the pair of silk pajama bottoms he had on and a shirt. Why did being near him seem to bring me so much comfort? It was as if just being around him gave me a purpose for life, made my wolf purr in delight and I found myself wanting to know what was bringing it all on. Did he feel the same or was he disgusted with me? The thought that he was, pained me more than I would have liked to admit.Not daring to even sigh I quickly looked around the room only to spot a bathroom attached to the far side, my feet still quietly heading in that direction as I kept looking over my shoulder as if I was waiting for him to snap at me for making too much noise. I couldn't bear the thought of taking the time to escape from here, knowing that my wolf wouldn't be able to take it. I didn't want to