Bloody But Beautiful by Za'Quealia B. (little bear else holmelund minarik txt) 📖

“Maybe they needed to be wanted! Blame the family, blame the bully, blame it on me, maybe they needed to be wanted!” loud music sounded from Zoiy’s bedroom as she lay in her bed staring up at her wall. Within about 10-seconds Zoiy’s mother busted into Zoiy’s room nearly pulling the door off of its hinges. “Turn that non-sense off now!” Zoiy’s mom said with a liquor bottle in one hand and a cigarette in the other. Zoiy nearly had a heart attack when her mother invaded her space. “Yes, Mama.” Zoiy said turning down her black oval shaped radio. “What’s wrong with you girl?” Zoiy’s mom said pausing for a second to look at Zoiy. “Didn’t I tell you that I was having company?” Zoiy’s mom said walking over to her daughter’s dresser, leaning on it as if her life depended on it. “I’m sorry mom I won’t do it again.” Zoiy said bowing her head as she sat on her plush, purple bed. “Sure you won’t.” Zoiy’s mom said closing the door behind her. Zoiy began to quietly sob into her tear stained pillow once she had realized that her mother had left her room. She laid there for at least an hour tossing and turning gnawing on the thought that her mom was having “Company” quite often.

Zoiy didn't know her father, and he grandparents lived in Minnesota, and she didn't know anyone else. Suddenly her door bell began to ring; she rolled her eyes at the thought of her mom's "company". Zoiy hesitated to get out of the bed as she slowly walked towards the front door. She opened the door only a crack to see a Caucasian man she never seen. He had black hair smoothed to the black. He had hazel eyes, and pale lips. He wore a black suit; Zoiy began to wonder why he would want her mother. Her mother was an alcoholic who had 6 kids and couldn't take care of them or herself. She was sucked out of her thoughts when the man said "Is your mom here?" "Yes, who are you?" Zoiy said looking this strange man up and down. "You’re not one of her normal 'visitors'." looking at him suspiciously.

“I’m Michael, and what do you mean not one of her normal visitors?” Michael said raising an eyebrow. “You should know if you know my mom.” She said pausing for a second “My mom...” “Zoiy, are you harassing Michael?!” Zoiy’s mom said running down the stairs in her dingy pink robe. She rudely shoved me out of the way and opened up the door with a wide smile. “Hello, Michael.” She said walking close to him pulling his tie. “Please do come in.” She said pulling him into the living closing the door being him. She walked into to the kitchen “Would you like something to drink?” She said reaching for a cup. “Yes, thank you.” He said fixing his tie. She stamped into her room not wanting to hear a thing from her. She jumped onto her bed hitting the play power button on her radio. She began to play drowning pool tear away and she turned it up until everything in her room began to shake. She stared at the ceiling wondering what was wrong with her and why didn’t her dad want her or why her mom didn’t like her. She could hear her mom screaming for her to turn down her music but now she could care less what her mom said. It was around 11:00 p.m. and Zoiy began to fall asleep.

Zoiy woke up with a massive headache; she looked down at her arm where there were several cuts. She couldn’t remember a thing all she remembered was walking into the bathroom pissed off and the she blacked out. As she tried to recap her night she pulled out her clothes for school. She grabbed some black ripped jeans, a red and black plaid shirt and a white tank top. She laid her clothes on her bed and found her black converse. She took her clothes into the bathroom and took a shower and dressed, Zoiy then teased her hair and put a tiara in it. She went into her room, grabbed her backpack and phone. Zoiy quietly tried to leave the apartment without her mom hearing her. She slowly opened the door and walked out closing it softly behind her.

Publication Date: 12-18-2012

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Dedication:
I dedicate this book to my dearest frind Emily who tragically died R.I.P Emily.