Out of the Darkness by rose1699 (read people like a book TXT) š
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We got to his house and I was so cold I couldnāt move and Mamoru had to help me out of my wet cold clothes and I just couldnāt move and I was naked but I didnāt care I was just so cold and I fell over and Mamoru caught and he had a worried face and he helped me to the bathroom and he turned the shower on and he took his clothes off and got in the shower with me and he wrapped his arms around my waist and started to pour the water over my cold body and it felt good and he felt me up to my stomach down to my legs and it felt wonderful and when I was with him it felt like nothing I ever loved.
He shut the water off and I was warm again and when I looked up at him he was beautiful and had a six pack he looked so much like a model and he just smiled at me and I turned around and when I did he was behind me and wrapped his arms around me and I felt safe for the first time in years. He was Emo like me and he was just wonderful.
I have a feeling I might get a chance to have a boyfriend again because after me and my ex Josh broke up I fell apart and I never loved since I was thirteen and now Iām sixteen and I never felt like this way for three years now. He made me feel complete; almost complete I was always afraid to love again because I didnāt want to get hurt again. I couldnāt resist getting hurt again. He pulled me closer because I was crying again and I fell to my knees and cried because I was hurt too much in my past and I canāt hold it in anymore I had to cry. I turned around and buried my face in his chest crying as he held me tighter and closer, I never cried this much since last year.
Mamoru said holding me tightly, āWe need to put clothes on. And I never found out your name what is it?ā He looked down on me and he wraps my tears away and I was frozen he was so close to me and I stuttered, āIā¦..Iāmā¦ā¦..Auraā¦ā¦.Dawnā¦ā¦Wā¦.Wā¦Wā¦.Walker.ā We were so close to each other I could hear him breathe and I could feel his breath and I was so close to his lips and we stayed like this for a while now and then he said, āWe should get into some clothes and go to bed because you have to go home tomorrow.ā
He got up but I grabbed his arm and I donāt know why I did and I pulled him towards me and before we knew it we were kissing and I just couldnāt stop and I could tell he couldnāt either and he put me on the floor and we started to make out and when he put me in his embrace the kisses got intense and we were naked already and I could tell he was trying to control himself as I was. But he started to feel me up and I couldnāt help but moan and I heard him moan as well and then I touch it by accident and he moans louder and so do I. He picked me up and put me on the bed making out with me and it felt so good then I could feel him rubbing it on me and I kissed deeper and then we stopped.
I said out of breath,ā Iām soā¦..soā¦..sorry Mamoruā¦..āI looked down but he grabbed my chin and kissed me softer and I kissed back and it felt great and he said, āWhy you saying sorry for Aura itās not your fault itās justā¦ I havenāt done that since I was fourteen after my ex girlfriend killed herself because of me. I donāt know why she did it I tried to stop her because I was right there her last words were, āGoodbye Mamoru āI tried my hardest to save her but she was gone because she lost so much blood, I tried and tried to save her I really did because she was my best friend I had nobody else and I felt so bad that I almost killed myself, but God stopped me for some reason.ā
I looked at him and I saw tears in his eyes and I wrapped them away because I knew how he felt I said,āI know what your going through , because I lost my twin sister/best friend because she killed herself. I found her in her bathroom with blood all over her wrist was cut but she was still alive but barely, so I grabbed her and held her tight, her name was Aurora she was my best friend and sister she killed herself because when we were twelve our mother and father died in a car accident and we were sent to foster homes many times and she was tired of it so we were with our foster family and when I got home from school that day Aurora was in the bathroom all bloody and I went to her and held her tightly, I tried to save her more then anything.
She looked at me and smiled and she held my hand and she was crying and I couldnāt help her I didnāt know what to do. When she smiled at me it made me tear up and I laid my head on her chest and she said weakly, āAura sister Iām so sorry I did this to you I just couldnāt handle it anymore I was tired ofā¦ā¦.ā She coughs,ā all the moving from family to family because they couldnāt handle us this is the only way Iāll be with him and you know who I am talking about. I loved him since I was in middle school and he died saving me from getting shot by that man I want to go and be with him for the rest of my life and Iāll even be in good hands Iāll have God up there with meā¦ā¦Auraā¦..pleaseā¦ā¦beā¦strongā¦.for meā¦.
āshe coughed again,ā Aura I can see God and Matthew waiting for me in the light they are waiting for meā¦ā¦this is my last wish to you Auraā¦ā¦never give upā¦.onā¦.loveā¦.because if you doā¦.then you wonāt find happiness at allā¦.remember this Auraā¦Iāll alwaysā¦be withā¦youā¦in yourā¦.heart and soulā¦.even when I passā¦ā¦onā¦.youāll feel me leave and your heart will dropā¦..a littleā¦but remember this Iāll always love you no matter whatā¦ā¦I
Loveā¦..youā¦.Aā¦.Auraā¦ā¦ā then she was gone just like that. I didnāt want to lose my twin sister but I guess it was her time to go and I know now that she is in good hands now and watching over me. Iāll always love my sister always.ā
I was crying now because talking about my sisterās death hurts me so badly and now he knows some of my life why Iām like I am now, I could never tell anyone about this kind of stuff but talking to him about it I felt like I belonged with him I really like this guy I really do and Matthew was my sisterās boyfriend they were going out for two year back then and now I know they have each other and God and I know by now that Josh is suffering because of me he said he wanted me back but I said no Iām done with your fucking bullshit you can die for all I care. But just being here with Mamoru and in his embrace I felt safer then I ever been. We got up and we put our clothes on and he likes everything I like and that makes this better I really do like him. So we got dress and I went into his bed and he went to the couch and I could tell that wouldnāt be good for his back.
I said lying down, āMamoru you can sleep up here with me so you donāt have to sleep on the couch there still space for one more person.ā I smiled and he smiled back and came toward me and lay right beside me and I laid my head on his chest.
He said putting his arms around me, āThank you for this wonderful night Aura and I promise I will not hurt you so will you go out with me?ā I looked at him and I nodded my head yes and I smiled. āGoodnight my Aura and sleep tight my angel.ā
I laid my head on his chest again and he held me close to him and he was so warm and soft that I fell asleep on him and I smiled and went to sleep and so did he. That was the night I love most about us. I knew in my heart and mind I love him, it was love at first sight.
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When I woke up I was laying on his chest still and he still had his arms around me. When he is sleeping he sounded so peaceful and relaxed and I looked at his bare chest and I saw scars over his chest like he was cut all over. I felt really bad for him. Who would hurt him like this? How could anyone hurt this boy? These are questions I asked myself. I laid in his embrace and just thinking about if his parents abused him like my foster mother and father does even my sister and brother but they are not my real brother and sister.
The only sister I have, well used to have been my twin sister Aurora Lee Walker and she will be my only sister until I die nobody else. Nobody can replace the love I have for her, nobody can take her place nobody will ever be my sister because I only have one sister and she died because of this fucking family.
I donāt want to go home because I was safer here then my house. I miss her so much; I miss my real mother and father; I miss my real family but none of them would take me in I was sent from foster home to foster home but they never wanted me and all I could do was kill myself to be with my mom and dad and my loving sisters arms, but I couldnāt leave this world because I would hurt my best friend Amanda sheās been my best friend for three years now, Iāve never stayed in one place for a year but
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