How Can You know the Agony of Heart by Rida Shoukat (reading books for 4 year olds TXT) 📖

Hoor ul Ain was feeling extreme fear from him now. She doesn't find the courage to raise and look at him. That's why both hands were in her lap and she was looking outside of the window. 

With a jerk, the car stood in front of the luxurious rest house. Her astonishment was further intensified. But seeing Shanzal Ali Shah's facial expressions she still tried to remain silent. As a result, Shanzal held her by her arm, he was discussing some matters with a man at the reception, and then he took her to the upper floor of the rest house to his room. 

"It's..... where you took me, how dare you to take me here like that.....?" 

Hoor ul Ain couldn't endure it anymore then at last she shouted. In response, Shanzal Ali Shah's heavy hand was in the air and straightly landed on Hoor ul Ain while leaving its imprint on her delicate cheek. 

"What do you think of yourself, tell.... what do you think, are you some goddess or some special creature landed on earth who can't live while taking someone's favor, why do you keep troubling me everywhere.....? You humiliate me.....why you took me the right to live my life, at last, why?" 

The lava which has been buried inside him finally burst. 

"What wrong I did.....? Tell me..... what mistake I committed whose punishment isn't coming to end, I confess I did wrong with you, I wronged with you unknowingly, but you...... you are punishing me beyond my wrongdoing, you are not believing then see, see my body which I burned and bruised for you." 

Shouting loudly he also ripped his shirt apart. Hoor ul Ain was taken aback by looking at her name engraved on his chest everywhere. 

"I don't love you, have you listened, I don't love you, but still you beat in my heart like a precious being when the tears fall from your eyes, it pain me to my core, if someone gaze at you with evil intention then my breath hitches, you are not capable for my unconditional love, but still those bruises which have been on your body I feel the pain of it in my heart, you made me crazy, I don't want to see you, don't want to think about you, but still if you don't show me then my breath entangle in my chest, I feel like dying though I know that you are a stone, I will die beating myself with you, but I still I am not letting myself away from you.... how much stone hearted you are." 

If Hoor ul Ain doesn't become attentive towards him still she can clearly feel redness in his watery eyes. 

"Yes I took a wrong step, but believe me I cursed myself thousand times for taking this wrong step Hoor, you don't consider me worthy of your hatred, don't consider me, you consider me responsible for the death of your husband and your brother, fine, I accept your every blame that you put on me Hoor ul Ain, I am also tired now in running away from myself, so today listen to my this last confession, that I love you, an extreme love, the love which touches to its craziness, lunatic love, in this whole universe neither someone is visible to me other than you nor can I listen to someone else, I kept searching for taking support to stronger myself, but when I come to you I become tired and fall. I lose when it comes to you. I can't endure anymore your coldness and your pain inflicting on me, Hoor ul Ain. So before I murder you, today in front of your eyes  I will let myself die. So that at least you can believe it that I can do anything for your happiness even I will not refrain myself from taking my life." 

She was standing standstill. When Shanzal Ali Shah told her in a tiresome state gazed at her with a complaining look for the last time. And the next moment, he picked up the fruit-cutting sharp knife from the nearby table and slit his left-hand wrist. 

Blood started oozing out like a fountain. And in a moment Shanzal Ali Shah's whole hand was red in blood.  

Right at that moment, Hoor ul Ain's standstill form was moved and a loud scream came out of her lungs. On that, the whole staff of the rest house gathered there. Surrounding people were looking at her with suspicious eyes. 

While on the other side, Zoya Khan was desperately waiting for him. Her eyes were at the door. Her desperateness was touching to her lowest ebb. In the Shah palace, the absence of Hoor ul Ain and the negligence of Shanzal Ali Shah were enough to scatter her. 

On her birthday, a special occasion, he will prefer Hoor ul Ain on her, it wasn't in her thoughts. Only then her heart felt like crying.  

Her birthday was feeling more painful than her wish of getting die. All people present around were gossiping about Shanzal Ali Shah and Hoor ul Ain and that was enough to annihilate her completely. 

Tired, dishearted, and empty-handed she came back to her home after going through turmoil moments. She silently entered her home and she silently let herself to sleep for good.