untitled so far by Lacey Hurwitz (books suggested by elon musk TXT) 📖

Chapter 1

BEEP…BEEP…BEEP. As the alarm of 42 year old Lilly Baker went off for the 3rd time after hitting snooze. “SHIT!” Lilly yelled as she looked at the alarm and realized it was 7:30 and she needed to be to work in 30 minutes.
Another Monday morning where she had drank to much the night before . Ever since her husband had left her she had began drinking a lot more, and coming home a lot less. Lilly quickly threw on her navy dress pants and white button up shirt and grabbed her make up bag thinking she would have time to do it in the car considering the traffic is always busy on Monday in Buxtonville, Ohio.
Lilly looked in the mirror and noticed the bags under her eyes had become bigger and her once sparkling blue eyes suddenly looked colder and more dim then they had before. Lilly had also noticed that her two or three grey hairs had become 10 gray hairs. “Make an immediate hair appointment” Lilly said to herself. “There is no way that David will be seeing me like this next week”. As she remembered that it was her final divorce meeting. Lilly tied her hair in a tight pony tail remembering that she had forgot to shower last night and sprayed on a mist of her favorite body fragrance, Sweet Pea. Sweet Pea had always been David’s favorite scent on Lilly as well, the first time they met Lilly was wearing that and she remembered David telling her how nice she had smelled. Ever since then she had been wearing that. “There that should do it” Lilly thought while sniffing her own aroma making sure she didn’t smell like alcohol from the night before.
Rachel was already downstairs sitting at the table eating breakfast. Like her mother Rachel had sparkling blue eyes and long brunette hair. In fact, Rachel was almost a spitting image of her mother except for the fact that she had her fathers smile and height standing at 5‘9 while Lilly was only a measly 5‘3. Rachel had been towering over Lilly ever since she was 14 years old. Rachel‘s good looks and bubbly personality had always made her one of the more popular girls in school but Rachel didn‘t care about popularity, the one thing she truly cared about was leaving Buxtonville and forgetting everything that happened and moving onto better things. Even if it meant leaving her mother.
Rachel blamed everything on Lilly, especially the reason her father left. It was no secret that Lilly loved working more then her family. She would always be at work or working on a new case leaving Rachel and David to fend for themselves. Often times when David was away on business he would extend his trips just so he didn’t have to come home and fight with Lilly. They fought about everything. How she was always at work and how he was away to much, about money, why they never had more kids, and sometimes even about Rachel. It was no secret to Lilly that David had been having an affair the last couple of months of there marriage but Lilly always managed to keep it a secret from Rachel, or so she thought. Rachel knew about what her father had been doing ever since she found Match.com opened on her fathers computer one day. Rachel knew what her father was doing yet she still blamed Lilly for everything.
“Rach why didn’t you wake me up!” Rachel looks at her mother with the same cold eyes that she has for the past year. “You came in at 2 a.m. I figured you’d be to gone to even go to work today” “Rachel you know I..” Rachel cuts her mom off mid sentence “Save it I don’t need anymore of your this is a hard time in my life stories or why can’t you understand what I’m going through spiels”.
Lilly just looks at her daughter with guilt. She knows how Rachel feels about the alcohol especially since her best friend Dana Jetson died in a car accident only 8 months ago due to driving under the influence.
Lilly looks at Rachel “Hey what do you say the two of us have a girls night this Friday. Watch a couple of movies do some mani, pedis order Chinese like we used to when your father was away on business.”
Rachel got sad every time she heard the word father she just stared down into her half eaten piece of toast and was quiet. “Well you get back to me on that I need to go to work have a good day at school, make good decisions” Rachel laughed when her mother left and thought to herself if anyone should be making good decisions it should be you.
On her way to work instead of cranking up the radio as loud as it goes and listening to classic rock Lilly couldn’t help but think about Rachel and how much her life has been changing. She wonders what will happen to there relationship when Rachel goes away to college in the fall. Rachel already got accepted to New York University to study journalism, and as much as Lilly wants her to stay, she knows that Rachel is planning on leaving. Ever since Rachel was 10 years old and went to New York city with her father it’s been her dream to go to school and live there. Lilly knew that it would be a selfish and cruel thing to take that away from Rachel after she’s worked so hard to get there. Lilly thought to herself what am I going to do when Rachel leaves? Who will I have? But suddenly Lilly thought to herself do I even have anyone now? Reality hit Lilly, Rachel barley talks to her anymore and she’s guarded off the rest of her family.
After Lilly’s late brother Thomas was violently murdered it’s been hard for her to connect with her parents. Lilly swore to herself that she would always be there for her children and that she would never lose contact with them like her parents did with her. But Lilly realized she isn’t keeping that promise.
Rachel turns up her stereo as loud as it goes and puts in her new Boys like Girls cd. It’s Rachel’s favorite band and she always feels like she can relate to there music. She gets out of the shower and goes to her night stand and pulls out her pills. She looks at them for a long while. She takes one out of each bottle and quickly takes them. With a small sip of water and big gulp she downs them and sighs. Rachel strolls over to her closet filled with endless amounts of clothes with brands like Abercrombie and Fitch, Hollister, and American Eagle outfitters. She picks out a plain blue shirt that has Hollister written across the chest and a pair of skinny ripped jeans. She ties her wet hair up in a messy bun and goes downstairs and waits for her boyfriend Jason.
HONK…HONK, Rachel hears the car horn of her boyfriend Jason Fargo as he’s pulling into her driveway in his red Honda Civic. They’ve been dating for almost 2 years and Rachel knows how lucky she is to have him. He’s been with her through everything that’s gone on in the past year and he’s the only person that knows about how Rachel goes to counseling and is on anti depressants. Rachel couldn’t tell anyone else about it, no one would understand she figured. The only people her friends knew of that went to counseling were there troubled parents on the verge of divorce or the typical school basket case. But oh no, not someone like Rachel Baker miss pretty, popular jock. The whole school looked up to Rachel and she knew it wouldn’t be that way if everyone found out that there homecoming queen went to see a therapist twice a week.
“Come on Rach” Rachel looks outside to see Jason sticking his head out the car window, getting impatient. Jason had always had the typical look that Rachel went for. Dark hair, green eyes clean shaven with a broad chest and arms. That‘s something Rachel always loved about Jason, when he held her she always felt safe and secure in his arms. It was almost like her tiny frame fit perfectly with his body. They really were the perfect couple and everybody was jealous, including Rachel’s best friend Dana. “Were going to be late for the 3rd time this month”. Rachel quickly grabs her old purple backpack and runs outside.
“Hey babe” Jason says as he leans in to kiss Rachel. “I thought you said were going to be late? I don’t think us kissing is going to help any.” “I just said to hurry up so I would have time to kiss you, you little smart ass.” Jason starts playfully tickling Rachel and she starts to laugh. Jason’s missed Rachel’s laugh. She’s barley cracked a smile in the past year let alone laugh. “Now we really will be late if you keep this up” Rachel scolds Jason “Come on let’s go”.
As there driving to school it’s silence between them almost the whole way, suddenly Rachel speaks. “So my mom brought up us doing one of those stupid girls nights this Friday. Like I would really want to sit there for a whole night with her. What would we even talk about we have nothing in common and I wouldn’t want to take away from her time at the bar with all the other pathetic and lonely lucky bachelors in this town.” “ You know at least she’s trying Rach. You hate when she doesn’t make an effort to be in your life and when she does all you do is criticize her. Are you ever going to forgive her?” Rachel looks over to Jason. “Who’s side are you on anyways?” “It’s not about sides, it’s about what’s right.” “Well what is right then?” “Listen I know you don’t like her but in a few months you’ll be going to New York anyways and you don’t have to deal with it anymore so just make the best of it while you are still here, OK? For me please.” Rachel sighs “It’s not like you would understand anyways, your parents are perfect. They never fight, they’ve been married for 21 years and still look at each other like it’s the day they first met.” Jason laughs and smiles at Rachel “Yeah so, and someday were going to have the same thing.” “ I know” Rachel just smiled back.
Truth is though Rachel didn’t know if that was true or not. The only thing she disliked more then her mother at the time was the fact that in just a few short months Rachel and Jason would be saying goodbye. He was going away to college down in Florida and she was going to New York. Rachel didn’t know what she was going to do. She knew she couldn’t break up with Jason but she also knew there’s no way she could keep a long distance relationship, after all they would be thousands of miles apart. It’s not that she didn’t trust Jason she was just afraid maybe even terrified of life without him. He’s always been there for her and she didn’t know if she was ready for anything different.
As they pull up to school Rachel and Jason hear the warning bell. “Shit” Jason says “Now we really will be late. Coach told me if I’m late one