Whisper by Rebeca Night (snow like ashes series txt) 📖

It was so cold but the news was what the coldest to me. He was very cold he had nothing he had his eyes closed but I could tell that he was not happy about being here.
“Mam your husband is in really bad shape. He can not be left alone. You need to help him to not sleep more than an hour a day. If he sleeps for more than that, he could die. I am so sorry.” The doctor looked right at me as he said this news that hit me like a 10 ton boulder.
“I will take care of him. All I ask is there a way for me to get some help either with money or with someone who can take care of him when I am at work.” I was on the brink of tears.
It had been a whole year since the car wreck yet my husband was still in major shock. We lost our twin Daughters. They were my life. No they were our life. My husband loved his little girls so much. When they passed he was gone, since he has started to come back but no way near what he used to be. I love him anyways. My name is Naomi I have blonde hair and neon green eyes. I have short straight hair. My husband’s name is Chris he has straight black hair. He is very tall and if only he would stand he would dwarf me in size. We met when we were really young I mean we are only 24 now. We had our girls and when they passed it seemed as though my husband would never want any other kids. I am 8 months along with our twins one girl one boy. I am happy to be having them but I wish my husband would come back to himself fully.
“We will be able to help with both. You are pregnant so we will help with money and if you have someone close to you that you would like to help you then just send them to us and we will let them know what needs to be done for him. How have you been doing?” The doctor said as he looked from me to my husband.
"Me and the twins are fine. I hope that these next few months will be fine." I said while holding my stomach telling them to help me take care of daddy.
"Well we will call you when he is ready to go home goodnight miss."
"Thank you doctor."
Man I thought that this day would not come. My husband is still in shock but now he has to live on limited amounts of sleep. Who could even help me with this? The name seemed to just float in front of my eyes. Jarred. He has been my husbands childhood friend, and mine to. How could I not have thought of him before. Owh the kicks started. I think it may have been to much stress for me to be having while pregnant. The second kick seems to confirm my thought. I speak to my kids a lot. They seem to like it. They calm down and seem to fall asleep to my thoughts. I can tell that when they are born they will be very close to me. My girl I hope will be like the first two that sadly I had to lose. I should tell you why we were in that car reck. It pains me to talk about it but before you go through this journey with me you must know. It was a group of drunks and you could tell just by how they were driving. They swerved to the left then to the right. I was driving so I stayed a good 30 yards behind them. It was dark out and my two girls were singing to their favorite song “I’m a little tea pot.” They were only 4. I had stopped on the side of the road to let those behind me go because the drunks seemed very far ahead of all of us now. When I got back on the road it seemed to be ok again for a good ten minuets. Then all hell broke loose. It looked as if the road in front of us was on fire. My girls stopped sing and started to scream. I was just about to try to turn around when I was hit by the person behind me. We were being pushed toward the flames. By now the screams from my two little girls had stopped I did not dare look behind me for I knew that they were not there. At least not mentally there. I put on my brakes so fast that my husband hit his head on the dash. His head rolled back and his eyes closed. He had been knocked out. I was the only one that could handle all this anyways right? I had to get out of the car the back was so crunched I knew right when I stepped out and saw how bad it was that my girls were dead. So I went to the passengers side and opened my husbands door and dragged him out of the car. I went to open my girls door when the ambulance showed up. I guess some one must have seen what I was doing and called cause this ambulance pulled right up to my Van. They asked if any one else was in the car I told them yes my twin girls were in the back. They had to use the jaws of life to get them out. They looked really scratched up. They were covered in blood from their blonde hair down to their little toes. It was the worst thing for a mother to see.
“Do you want to hold them? They are gone miss but it may help ease your pain.” Said the tan strong man that had gone into the car to get my girls out.
“No it is best that they just get to the morgue in our town before their father wakes up and see’s them. I am fine I will have to be strong for them and him.” I said holding my ribs so that the feeling of me falling apart would not come true.
I still can see their bloody faces in my nightmares, even though the people that had my girls bodies did a great job making them look like before. It felt like he just knew when to walk up to me.
“Hay Naomi, You ok?” Jarred said as he ran up to catch me from falling on the concrete.
“Ya I am fine. You always have great timing.” I said.
“Ya you almost falling is fine. Whats wrong? You heard the news hu? I told them not to tell you. I mean hello you are el pregnentae.” He said as he looked from me to my stomach.
“Your point yes they told me but I am fine I was thinking about my girls and the accident when you walked up.” I hate when he uses my pregnancy against my strength. “ Even 8 months pregnant with twins I still can get your butt in a head lock.” He stepped back at this he knew I could too because I have.
“Hay want me to drive you home? I know that Brianna brought you here.” Jarred said trying to say sorry for what he said.
“Sure, why not you only hurt my pride.” I threw back at him then gave him a hug to show that I forgive him.
“You know that I am sorry right?”
“Of course Jarred.” I gave him a little smile.
Me and Jarred have know each other for some were around 18 years. He was there for me through thick and thin. He was my husbands friend only for 14 years so I have known him longer. Jarred, Chris, and me we all hung out. Everyone thought that I would marry Jarred. I liked Jarred for a while but it seemed like we were just better friends. He in fact hocked me and Chris up. I thought that me and Chris would never work but well here we are today. Ya here we are today. He is not even here but he is still the love of my life.
“You ok you have been very quite that is not like you at all. What is on your mind?”
“I am just thinking of how me and Chris met to be honest. Hay do you remember when you first told me that he liked me?”
“Ya how could I forget. That was the first time you slapped me. and not the last.” He whispered the last part as he rubbed his check as if he could still feel the pain.
“Hay I am sorry about that but I thought you were just trying to play with my emotions.” I said as I gave him a little girl smile.
I remember all that me and Chris went through. I was the total normal dating girl. Chris was a very well kept to himself guy. He never dated till me. I thought that maybe he was against dating at all and well I kinda got the feeling that he kinda looked down on me for dating. I wish that I would have not go out with anyone but hay I can’t go back.
“Hay you want me to stay with you tonight just in case something happens? I don’t really want you alone. If Chris was here it would be different but he is not.” Jarred said looking at my stomach.
“Sure. You can sleep in His room.” I said as I opened the door to my house.
“Wait are your telling me that you and Chris don’t sleep together?”
“We do but just not right now cause of his illness and my being pregnant. He came up with it don’t ask me.”
“Oh well thats good at least he is keeping you safe.”
“Why do you say that like you are not his best friend? It seems like since my girls passed you have been harder on Chris and more like my big brother.” I said turning around to look at him.
It took him a while to answer in the mean time we moved to the living room he sat down on my couch and I took my chair.
“To be honest I blame him for what happened to your girls and I don’t want it to be you next. I know he is my best friend but I have know you longer. As for the brother thing I have know you for 18 years. I am the closet thing you have to a brother since yours passed.” Jarred said turning to face me.
“Thats true but Chris was not driving I was. It is not his fault at all. You need to know that it was my fault not his.” I said as I stood to walk to my room to cry.
He stood to and walked up to me and gave me one of those teddy bear hugs.
“Naomi You must not cry. You must not worry. Let me take all this stress from you. I am sorry I