The First Wolf's Moon by Savannah Turberville (latest books to read TXT) 📖

even under water I could still hear conversations that were being held at different ends of the house. One of which was of how hot I was. Another was how I would handle the pressure of being the One. And the last one, the one that struck me to my core, was of the topic of me finding my mate and soon.

     "My mate. I haven't been a werewolf for a day and their already discussing me finding a mate?! No absolutely not and it's none of their business."

    "It kind of is." Terra said. I groaned.

   "You know, I was hoping i could have a bath without anyone or 'thing' in my head."

   "Sorry, I could feel your emotions becoming unstable."

   "Unstable? I'm perfectly fine."

   "Tell that to the side of the tub."

   "What?" I opened my eyes and saw where my hand was gripping the side of the tub so hard it left dents where my fingers were. I sat up and took a breath. I then went through the process of washing my body and hair. When I was done I sat there trying to drown out all the conversations and all the noises. For the first time in my life all I wanted was silence. I don't know how long I sat there until I heard someone enter Nathan's room.

   "April?" Nathan said on the other side of the door. He knocked. "April, you okay?"

   "Yeah, I'm fine." I said a little too bitterly. " I'm just getting a bath. I'll be out in a min-" Nathan entered. Looking at him now the same feeling that consumed me when I first saw him today came over me again. It was blissful and amazing but unlike the last time this feeling was destroyed when I remembered the cold truth. His job. I'm his jo-

   "Quit that!" Nathan demanded through gritted teeth. He then took a deep breath. "I'm sorry." Nathan grabbed my towel and handed it to me. When he turned his back I got out and wrapped it around me.

   "Sorry, I forgot you can hear my thoughts now."

   "Everyone can." I groaned.

   "Great it wasn't enough that you, my mother, Clara, and Simon are in my head but now a bunch of strangers are too." Usually at this point I would be frustrated but now that I'm different I'm full out fuming.

   "Don't worry I'll teach you how to block them out."

   "Okay you can do that when I'm not completely naked now leave!"

   "Look I know you are mad but that doesn't give you the right to snap at me."

      "The right? The Right?! Does any one in this DAMN house have the right to talk about me? Talk about how I'm expose to find my MATE ? I may be new to this whole werewolf thing but I know what a FUCKING mate is and no one has the right to talk about my love life and I hope every one of them MOTHER FUCKERS hear me!!!!" I yelled.

     "That's enough, April. They just want you to be protected."

     "Don't even. I can take care of myself."

     "No you can't. Not with your enemy out there planning and waiting for the time to strike. You're not strong enough to face them alone."

    "You don't know anything about me." I said getting mere inches away from his face. The house fell silent. Everyone listened to my words and my screaming.

    "Looks like that's the only way they can hear you." Terra said. I knew she was grinning but I couldn't bring myself to join her. "Listen, Kid, you should know we have already found our mate."

   "What?! Where?!"

   "Right in front of you." I gasped. Hoping beyond hope that Nathan didn't hear her. He studied me for a moment. I stepped away and turned my back to him.

   "What's wrong?" Nathan asked confused. I hesitated before answering.

    "Everything." I whispered. I knew he heard me. "Please leave, Nathan. I need sometime to myself." He stood there silent for a few brief moments and then sighed.

      "Very well." Nathan said. I heard the door shut behind him as he left. I don't know how long I stood there staring at the white tile. I don't even know the moment I sunk down to my knees and began to sob. Time alluded me until I got too cold and the sun disappeared, going to rest until dawn comes again. Feeling numb I stood, dressed myself and fell on Nathan's bed. That night I couldn't sleep. The shock of seeing my father set in and so did the thought that I am forever changed. I laid on my side, staring at the wall watching shadows pass on it and watching it go from light to dark. I stayed like that until my stomach grumble. Slowly, I stood and made my way down the hall. When I entered the living room my mom was on the coach asleep her cover on the floor. I was still mad at her but she was still my mother. I grabbed the fallen blanket and secured it on her. I gave her a peck on the cheek and made my way to the kitchen. I went straight to the fridge, which was also stainless steel, and opened it. Inside I found a pack of bologna and sliced cheese so I decided to make a sandwich. 

     "Make two please." Clara said as I began to set things on the island. Her arms were folded and she was leaning on the counter. 

   "Sure." I said not skipping a beat. I could feel her watching me. "Anything else I can do for you?"

   "Yeah..... You can tell me what's wrong."

    "What you mean?"

    "Don't play stupid. I heard you yesterday along with everyone else. I also heard you crying. So, tell me." 

     "Clara, I really don't want to." 

     "Too bad. Spill." I knew I wasn't going to get rid of her unless I told her the truth. I sighed. 

     "I over heard a few conversations talking about how I need to find a mate. It made me mad that they think they have the right to talk about my love life. Not only that the shock of the change and the shock of me hearing from Terra that I've already found my mate. It's just-"

      "Wait. Whose Terra?"

    "My wolf."

    "You can communicate with your wolf?" Clara asked her voice filled with awe. Her eyes widen and I nearly laughed. She reminded me of a little child being offered a cookie or candy. It was adorable. 

      "Yeah, can't you?"  

     "No. It's been said that only the descendent of the Primo Luna is able to talk to their wolf."

     "The Primo Luna?"

     "It means the First Luna in Latin. Anyway, you being able to talk to your wolf is truly amazing and a gift. The only time others can talk to theirs is when they find their mate but you.... you can talk to someone that really knows you. It's terribilis ."

    "Terribilis?"

     "Another Latin word meaning awesome." Clara said smiling from ear to ear. I chuckled a little as I began to make my and her sandwiches. 

    "First, you need to stop with the whole Latin thing you got going on because it's just confusing me more and more, okay. And, second there's nothing really great about communication with Terra. Especially, when she only tells me things that I DO NOT want to hear."

    "Like what?" 

     "Nothing." I said handing Clara her two sandwiches. 

    "Oh, come on, April, tell me." 

    "No!"

    "Why not?"

     "Because she's wrong and that's the end of it." 

     "How are you so sure?"

      "Because there is no way in HELL that I will be a mate to an jackass like Nathan!" I said my voice getting louder. The house went still until I heard two doors open from the hall way and the squeak of leather as my mother sat up. I sighed. My secret was out now and there is nothing I can do to take it back. "Clara can you put all the stuff away? And if you're still hungry then eat me sandwiches. I'm not hungry anymore." 

      "April,-"

       "Is it true?" My mother said in the doorway. I stared at the island. 

       "That's what Terra says."

       "Who?"

       "Her wolf." Clara said as she squeezed my shoulder. We shared a glance and she went on to clean up the mess I made. I walked past my mom trying to avoid a subject I didn't want to talk about but it seems fate had other plans. Because in the living room stood Rick and... Nathan. 

        "Mate!"  Terra said. Her voice was so fill with a sort of girlie excitement that made me hesitate a minute.

         "Shut up!" The room was silent and you could feel the tension in the air.

          "Is it true?" Nathan asked taking a step toward me. His voice was filled with hope and excitement. It took all my will power not to throw my arms around him and feel his embrace again. To feel the warmth of his body, to smell his scent and get intoxicated with it, to once again feel that special tingle go through my body, when his skin touch mine, one last time. I knew if I spoke my will would break so I just simple nodded. Nathan smiled and took another stepped forward. I took two back. A flash of hurt went across his face. Rick put his hand on Nathan's shoulder and spoke.

            "April, if you and Nathan are truly mates then that's great. We-"

            "We're not mates." I said eyeing Rick. The anger inside me was still there and I knew that I shouldn't dwell on it forever. So, I had to say one last thing before I'd let this matter rest. " I am the one who chooses who I am with. Understand? And I can't be with someone who only approached me because I was his -"

             "I told you to stop saying that."

             "I can't Nathan. Do you know how hard it is to hear from a guy you deeply care about that you are his job? You don't. So, let me tell you how it feels. It feels like a numbing void. It consumes your every thought. Every time you think that maybe... maybe y'all can be together. It's destroyed by that one thought. That one little thought that says you are nothing to him but a job."

              "That's not true!" Nathan snapped. "Look you've said your peace now it's my turn, okay. Now shut up and listen...... I do care about you. I mean, yes in the beginning I was told to approach you but I didn't know it was going to be you. I didn't know who it was going to be. All I knew was that someone from my past was coming back. And when I saw you, I knew you were meant to be mine. Not because my wolf told me but because when I saw you it's like everything disappeared and it was just you and me. When I'm close to you I feel like the luckiest guy in the world and I... I love you, April." I didn't know what to do or what to say. I just stood there staring at him, not believing what I just heard.

            "What did you just say?" My voice wasn't my own.  It was small and soft like it came from a child.

            "I said I love you." Before I knew it I was lost once again in that intoxicating feeling where warmth began to spread starting from my chest. It was amazing. Terra was doing a little happy girl dance.