Dombey and Son by Charles Dickens (ebook reader 7 inch .txt) 📖

Wickam having clinked sufficiently among the bottles, now produced the mixture. Mrs Wickam looked hard at her patient in the act of drinking, screwed her mouth up tight, her eyebrows also, and shook her head, expressing that tortures shouldn’t make her say it was a hopeless case. Mrs Wickam then sprinkled a little cooling-stuff about the room, with the air of a female grave-digger, who was strewing ashes on ashes, dust on dust—for she was a serious character—and withdrew to partake of certain funeral baked meats downstairs.

‘How long is it,’ asked Alice, ‘since I went to you and told you what I had done, and when you were advised it was too late for anyone to follow?’

‘It is a year and more,’ said Harriet.

‘A year and more,’ said Alice, thoughtfully intent upon her face. ‘Months upon months since you brought me here!’

Harriet answered ‘Yes.’

‘Brought me here, by force of gentleness and kindness. Me!’ said Alice, shrinking with her face behind her hand, ‘and made me human by woman’s looks and words, and angel’s deeds!’

Harriet bending over her, composed and soothed her. By and bye, Alice lying as before, with the hand against her face, asked to have her mother called.

Harriet called to her more than once, but the old woman was so absorbed looking out at the open window on the darkness, that she did not hear. It was not until Harriet went to her and touched her, that she rose up, and came.

‘Mother,’ said Alice, taking the hand again, and fixing her lustrous eyes lovingly upon her visitor, while she merely addressed a motion of her finger to the old woman, ‘tell her what you know.’

‘To-night, my deary?’

‘Ay, mother,’ answered Alice, faintly and solemnly, ‘to-night!’

The old woman, whose wits appeared disorderly by alarm, remorse, or grief, came creeping along the side of the bed, opposite to that on which Harriet sat; and kneeling down, so as to bring her withered face upon a level with the coverlet, and stretching out her hand, so as to touch her daughter’s arm, began:

‘My handsome gal—’

Heaven, what a cry was that, with which she stopped there, gazing at the poor form lying on the bed!

‘Changed, long ago, mother! Withered, long ago,’ said Alice, without looking at her. ‘Don’t grieve for that now.’

‘—My daughter,’ faltered the old woman, ‘my gal who’ll soon get better, and shame ‘em all with her good looks.’

Alice smiled mournfully at Harriet, and fondled her hand a little closer, but said nothing.

‘Who’ll soon get better, I say,’ repeated the old woman, menacing the vacant air with her shrivelled fist, ‘and who’ll shame ‘em all with her good looks—she will. I say she will! she shall!’—as if she were in passionate contention with some unseen opponent at the bedside, who contradicted her—‘my daughter has been turned away from, and cast out, but she could boast relationship to proud folks too, if she chose. Ah! To proud folks! There’s relationship without your clergy and your wedding rings—they may make it, but they can’t break it—and my daughter’s well related. Show me Mrs Dombey, and I’ll show you my Alice’s first cousin.’

Harriet glanced from the old woman to the lustrous eyes intent upon her face, and derived corroboration from them.

‘What!’ cried the old woman, her nodding head bridling with a ghastly vanity. ‘Though I am old and ugly now,—much older by life and habit than years though,—I was once as young as any. Ah! as pretty too, as many! I was a fresh country wench in my time, darling,’ stretching out her arm to Harriet, across the bed, ‘and looked it, too. Down in my country, Mrs Dombey’s father and his brother were the gayest gentlemen and the best-liked that came a visiting from London—they have long been dead, though! Lord, Lord, this long while! The brother, who was my Ally’s father, longest of the two.’

She raised her head a little, and peered at her daughter’s face; as if from the remembrance of her own youth, she had flown to the remembrance of her child’s. Then, suddenly, she laid her face down on the bed, and shut her head up in her hands and arms.

‘They were as like,’ said the old woman, without looking up, as you could see two brothers, so near an age—there wasn’t much more than a year between them, as I recollect—and if you could have seen my gal, as I have seen her once, side by side with the other’s daughter, you’d have seen, for all the difference of dress and life, that they were like each other. Oh! is the likeness gone, and is it my gal—only my gal—that’s to change so!’

‘We shall all change, mother, in our turn,’ said Alice.

‘Turn!’ cried the old woman, ‘but why not hers as soon as my gal’s! The mother must have changed—she looked as old as me, and full as wrinkled through her paint—but she was handsome. What have I done, I, what have I done worse than her, that only my gal is to lie there fading!’

With another of those wild cries, she went running out into the room from which she had come; but immediately, in her uncertain mood, returned, and creeping up to Harriet, said:

‘That’s what Alice bade me tell you, deary. That’s all. I found it out when I began to ask who she was, and all about her, away in Warwickshire there, one summer-time. Such relations was no good to me, then. They wouldn’t have owned me, and had nothing to give me. I should have asked ‘em, maybe, for a little money, afterwards, if it hadn’t been for my Alice; she’d a’most have killed me, if I had, I think. She was as proud as t’other in her way,’ said the old woman, touching the face of her daughter fearfully, and withdrawing her hand, ‘for all she’s so quiet now; but she’ll shame ‘em with her good looks yet. Ha, ha! She’ll shame ‘em, will my handsome daughter!’

Her laugh, as she retreated, was worse than her cry; worse than the burst of imbecile lamentation in which it ended; worse than the doting air with which she sat down in her old seat, and stared out at the darkness.

The eyes of Alice had all this time been fixed on Harriet, whose hand she had never released. She said now:

‘I have felt, lying here, that I should like you to know this. It might explain, I have thought, something that used to help to harden me. I had heard so much, in my wrongdoing, of my neglected duty, that I took up with the belief that duty had not been done to me, and that as the seed was sown, the harvest grew. I somehow made it out that when ladies had bad homes and mothers, they went wrong in their way, too; but that their way was not so foul a one as mine, and they had need to bless God for it. That is all past. It is like a dream, now, which I cannot quite remember or understand. It has been more and more like a dream, every day, since you began to sit here, and to read to me. I only tell it you, as I can recollect it. Will you read to me a little more?’

Harriet was withdrawing her hand to open the book, when Alice detained it for a moment.

‘You will not forget my mother? I forgive her, if I have any cause. I know that she forgives me, and is sorry in her heart. You will not forget her?’

‘Never, Alice!’

‘A moment yet. Lay your head so, dear, that as you read I may see the words in your kind face.’

Harriet complied and read—read the eternal book for all the weary, and the heavy-laden; for all the wretched, fallen, and neglected of this earth—read the blessed history, in which the blind lame palsied beggar, the criminal, the woman stained with shame, the shunned of all our dainty clay, has each a portion, that no human pride, indifference, or sophistry, through all the ages that this world shall last, can take away, or by the thousandth atom of a grain reduce—read the ministry of Him who, through the round of human life, and all its hopes and griefs, from birth to death, from infancy to age, had sweet compassion for, and interest in, its every scene and stage, its every suffering and sorrow.

‘I shall come,’ said Harriet, when she shut the book, ‘very early in the morning.’

The lustrous eyes, yet fixed upon her face, closed for a moment, then opened; and Alice kissed and blest her.

The same eyes followed her to the door; and in their light, and on the tranquil face, there was a smile when it was closed.

They never turned away. She laid her hand upon her breast, murmuring the sacred name that had been read to her; and life passed from her face, like light removed.

Nothing lay there, any longer, but the ruin of the mortal house on which the rain had beaten, and the black hair that had fluttered in the wintry wind.