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âAnswer me, Thurstan. Do you feel any bad effect from that fall?â
âNo, hardly any. Donât sit up, Faith, to-night!â
âThurstan, itâs no use talking, for I shall; and, if you go on opposing me, I dare say I shall attack your back, and, put a blister on it. Do tell me what that âhardly anyâ means. Besides, to set you quite at ease, you know I have never seen mountains before, and they fill me and oppress me so much that I could not sleep; I must keep awake this first night, and see that they donât fall on the earth and overwhelm it. And now answer my questions about yourself.â
Miss Benson had the power, which some people have, of carrying her wishes through to their fulfilment; her will was strong, her sense was excellent, and people yielded to herâthey did not know why. Before ten oâclock she reigned sole power and potentate in Ruthâs little chamber. Nothing could have been better devised for giving her an interest in the invalid. The very dependence of one so helpless upon her care inclined her heart towards her. She thought she perceived a slight improvement in the symptoms during the night, and she was a little pleased that this progress should have been made while she reigned monarch of the sick-room. Yes, certainly there was an improvement. There was more consciousness in the look of the eyes, although the whole countenance still retained its painful traces of acute suffering, manifested in an anxious, startled uneasy aspect. It was broad morning light, though barely five oâclock, when Miss Benson caught the sight of Ruthâs lips moving, as if in speech. Miss Benson stooped down to listen.
âWho are you?â asked Ruth, in the faintest of whispers.
âMiss BensonâMr. Bensonâs sister,â she replied.
The words conveyed no knowledge to Ruth; on the contrary, weak as a babe in mind and body as she was, her lips began to quiver, and her eyes to show a terror similar to that of any little child who wakens in the presence of a stranger, and sees no dear, familiar face of mother or nurse to reassure its trembling heart.
Miss Benson took her hand in hers, and began to stroke it caressingly.
âDonât be afraid, dear; Iâm a friend come to take care of you. Would you like some tea now, my love ?â
The very utterance of these gentle words was unlocking Miss Bensonâs heart. Her brother was surprised to see her so full of interest when he came to inquire later on in the morning. It required Mrs. Hughesâs persuasions, as well as his own, to induce her to go to bed for an hour or two after breakfast; and, before she went, she made them promise that she should be called when the doctor came. He did not come until late in the afternoon. The invalid was rallying fast, though rallying to a consciousness of sorrow, as was evinced by the tears which came slowly rolling down her pale sad cheeksâtears which she had not the power to wipe away.
Mr. Benson had remained in the house all day to hear the doctorâs opinion; and, now that he was relieved from the charge of Ruth by his sisterâs presence, he had the more time to dwell upon the circumstances of her caseâso far as they were known to him. He remembered his first sight of her; her lithe figure swaying to and fro as she balanced herself on the slippery stones, half smiling at her own dilemma, with a bright, happy light in the eyes, that seemed like a reflection from the glancing waters sparkling below. Then he recalled the changed, affrighted look of those eyes as they met his, after the childâs rebuff of her advances; how that little incident filled up the tale at which Mrs. Hughes had hinted, in a kind of sorrowful way, as if loath (as a Christian should be) to believe evil. Then that fearful evening, when he had only just saved her from committing suicide, and that nightmare sleep! And nowâlost, forsaken, and but just delivered from the jaws of death, she lay dependent for everything on his sister and himâutter strangers a few weeks ago. Where was her lover? Could he be easy and happy? Could he grow into perfect health, with these great sins pressing on his conscience with a strong and hard pain? Or had he a conscience?
Into whole labyrinths of social ethics Mr. Bensonâs thoughts wandered, when his sister entered suddenly and abruptly.
âWhat does the doctor say? Is she better?â
âOh, yes! sheâs better,â answered Miss Benson, sharp and short. Her brother looked at her in dismay. She bumped down into a chair in a cross, disconcerted manner. They were both silent for a few minutes, only Miss Benson whistled and clucked alternately.
âWhat is the matter, Faith? You say she is better.â
âWhy, Thurstan, there is something so shocking the matter, that I cannot tell you.â
Mr. Benson changed colour with affright. All things possible and impossible crossed his mind but the right one. I said, âall things possibleâ; I made a mistake. He never believed Ruth to be more guilty than she seemed.
âFaith, I wish you would tell me, and not bewilder me with those noises of yours,â said he nervously.
âI beg your pardon; but something so shocking has just been discoveredâI donât know how to word itâshe will have a child. The doctor says so.â She was allowed to make noises unnoticed for a few minutes. Her brother did not speak. At last she wanted his sympathy.
âIsnât it shocking, Thurstan? You might have knocked me down with a straw when he told me.â
âDoes she know?â
âYes; and I am not sure that that isnât the worst part of all.â
âHow?âwhat do you mean?â
âOh, I was just beginning to have a good opinion of her; but Iâm afraid she is very depraved. After the doctor was gone, she pulled the bed-curtain aside, and looked as if she wanted to speak to me. (I canât think how she heard, for we were close to the window, and spoke very low.) Well, I went to her, though I really had taken quite a turn against her. And she whispered, quite eagerly, âDid he say I should have a baby?â Of course I could not keep it from her; but I thought it my duty to look as cold and severe as I could. She did not seem to understand how it ought to be viewed, but took it just as if she had a right to have a baby. She said, âOh, my God, I thank Thee! Oh, I will be so good!â I had no patience with her then, so I left the room.â
âWho is with her?â
âMrs. Hughes. She is not seeing the thing in a moral light, as I should have expected.â
Mr. Benson was silent again. After some time he beganâ
âFaith, I donât see this affair quite as you do. I believe I am right.â
âYou surprise me, brother! I donât understand you.â
âWait awhile! I want to make my feelings very clear to you, but I donât know where to begin, or how to express myself.â
âIt is, indeed, an extraordinary subject for us to have to talk about; but, if once I get clear of this girl, Iâll wash my hands of all such cases again.â Her brother was not attending to her; he was reducing his own ideas to form. âFaith, do you know I rejoice in this childâs advent?â
âMay God forgive you, Thurstan!âif you know what you are saying. But, surely, it is a temptation, dear Thurstan.â
âI do not think it is a delusion. The sin appears to me to be quite distinct from its consequences.â
âSophistryâand a temptation,â said Miss Benson decidedly.
âNo, it is not,â said her brother, with equal decision. âIn the eye of God, she is exactly the same as if the life she has led had left no trace behind. We knew her errors before, Faith.â
âYes, but not this disgraceâthis badge of her shame!â
âFaith, Faith! let me beg of you not to speak so of the little innocent babe, who may be Godâs messenger to lead her back to Him. Think again of her first wordsâthe burst of nature from her heart! Did she not turn to God, and enter into a covenant with HimââI will be so goodâ? Why, it draws her out of herself! If her life has hitherto been self-seeking and wickedly thoughtless, here is the very instrument to make her forget herself, and be thoughtful for another. Teach her (and God will teach her, if man does not come between) to reverence her child; and this reverence will shut out sin,âwill be purification.â
He was very much excited; he was even surprised at his own excitement; but his thoughts and meditations through the long afternoon had prepared his mind for this manner of viewing the subject.
âThese are quite new ideas to me,â said Miss Benson coldly. âI think you, Thurstan, are the first person I ever heard rejoicing over the birth of an illegitimate child. It appears to me, I must own, rather questionable morality.â
âI do not rejoice. I have been all this afternoon mourning over the sin which has blighted this young creature; I have been dreading lest, as she recovered consciousness, there should be a return of her despair. I have been thinking of every holy word, every promise to the penitentâof the tenderness which led the Magdalen aright. I have been feeling, severely and reproachfully, the timidity which has hitherto made me blink all encounter with evils of this particular kind. O Faith! once for all, do not accuse me of questionable morality, when I am trying more than ever I did in my life to act as my blessed Lord would have done.â
He was very much agitated. His sister hesitated, and then she spoke more softly than beforeâ
âBut, Thurstan, everything might have been done to âlead her rightâ (as you call it), without this child, this miserable offspring of sin.â
âThe world has, indeed, made such children miserable, innocent as they are; but I doubt if this be according to the will of God, unless it be His punishment for the parentsâ guilt; and even then the worldâs way of treatment is too apt to harden the motherâs natural love into something like hatred. Shame, and the terror of friendsâ displeasure, turn her madâdefile her holiest instincts; and, as for the fathersâGod forgive them! I cannotâat least, not just now.â Miss Benson thought on what her brother said. At length she asked, âThurstan (remember Iâm not convinced), how would you have this girl treated according to your theory?â
âIt will require some time, and much Christian love, to find out the best way. I know Iâm not very wise; but the way I think it would be right to act in, would be thisâ-â He thought for some time before he spoke, and then saidâ
âShe has incurred a responsibilityâthat we both acknowledge. She is about to become a mother, and have the direction and guidance of a little tender life. I fancy such a responsibility must be serious and solemn enough, without making it into a heavy and oppressive burden, so that human nature recoils from bearing it. While we do all we can to strengthen her sense of responsibility, I would likewise do all we can to make her feel that it is responsibility for what may become a blessing.â
âWhether the children are legitimate or illegitimate?â asked Miss Benson dryly.
âYes!â said her brother firmly. âThe more I think, the more I believe I am right. No one,â said he, blushing faintly as he spoke, âcan have a greater recoil from profligacy than I
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