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Maria and Zo had been left in Scotlandâas perfectly happy as girls could be, in the society of their cousins, and under the affectionate care of their aunt. Mr. Gallilee remained in London; but he was not left alone in the deserted house. The good lawyer had a spare room at his disposal; and Mrs. Mool and her daughters received him with true sympathy. Coming events helped to steady his mind. He was comforted in the anticipation of Ovidâs return, and interested in hearing of the generous motive which had led Miss Minerva to meet his stepson.
âI never agreed with the others when they used to abuse our governess,â he said. âShe might have been quick-tempered, and she might have been uglyâI suppose I saw her in some other light myself.â He had truly seen her under another light. In his simple affectionate nature, there had been instinctive recognition of that great heart.
He was allowed to see Carmina, in the hope that pleasant associations connected with him might have a favourable influence. She smiled faintly, and gave him her hand when she saw him at the bedsideâbut that was all.
Too deeply distressed to ask to see her again, he made his inquiries for the future at the door. Day after day, the answer was always the same.
Before she left London, Miss Minerva had taken it on herself to engage the vacant rooms, on the ground floor of the lodging-house, for Ovid. She knew his heart, as she knew her own heart. Once under the same roof with Carmina, he would leave it no moreâuntil life gave her back to him, or death took her away. Hearing of what had been done, Mr. Gallilee removed to Ovidâs rooms the writing-desk and the books, the favourite music and the faded flowers, left by Carmina at Fairfield Gardens. âAnything that belongs to her,â he thought, âwill surely be welcome to the poor fellow when he comes back.â
On one afternoonânever afterwards to be forgottenâhe had only begun to make his daily inquiry, when the door on the ground floor was opened, and Miss Minerva beckoned to him.
Her face daunted Mr. Gallilee: he asked in a whisper, if Ovid had returned.
She pointed upwards, and answered, âHe is with her now.â
âHow did he bear it?â
âWe donât know; we were afraid to follow him into the room.â
She turned towards the window as she spoke. Teresa was sitting thereâvacantly looking out. Mr. Gallilee spoke to her kindly: she made no answer; she never even moved. âWorn out!â Miss Minerva whispered to him. âWhen she thinks of Carmina now, she thinks without hope.â
He shuddered. The expression of his own fear was in those wordsâand he shrank from it. Miss Minerva took his hand, and led him to a chair. âOvid will know best,â she reminded him; âlet us wait for what Ovid will say.â
âDid you meet him on board the vessel?â Mr. Gallilee asked.
âYes.â
âHow did he look?â
âSo well and so strong that you would hardly have known him againâtill he asked about Carmina. Then he turned pale. I knew that I must tell him the truthâbut I was afraid to take it entirely on myself. Something Mr. Null said to me, before I left London, suggested that I might help Ovid to understand me if I took the prescriptions to Queenstown. I had not noticed that they were signed by Doctor Benjulia, as well as by Mr. Null. Donât ask me what effect the discovery had on him! I bore it at the timeâI canât speak of it now.â
âYou good creature! you dear good creature! Forgive me if I have distressed you; I didnât meant it.â
âYou have not distressed me. Is there anything else I can tell you?â
Mr. Gallilee hesitated. âThere is one thing more,â he said. âIt isnât about Carmina this timeââ
He hesitated again. Miss Minerva understood. âYes,â she answered; âI spoke to Ovid of his mother. In mercy to himself and to me, he would hear no details. âI know enough,â he said, âif I know that she is the person to blame. I was prepared to hear it. My motherâs silence could only be accounted for in one way, when I had read Zoâs letter.ââDonât you know, Mr. Gallilee, that the child wrote to Ovid?â
The surprise and delight of Zoâs fond old father, when he heard the story of the letter, forced a smile from Miss Minerva, even at that time of doubt and sorrow. He declared that he would have returned to his daughter by the mail train of that night, but for two considerations. He must see his stepson before he went back to Scotland; and he must search all the toy-shops in London for the most magnificent present that could be offered to a young person of ten years old. âTell Ovid, with my love, Iâll call again to-morrow,â he said, looking at his watch. âI have just time to write to Zo by to-dayâs post.â He went to his club, for the first time since he had returned to London. Miss Minerva thought of bygone days, and wondered if he would enjoy his champagne.
A little later Mr. Null calledâanxious to know if Ovid had arrived.
Other women, in the position of Miss Minerva and Teresa, might have hesitated to keep the patientâs room closed to the doctor. These two were resolved. They refused to disturb Ovid, even by sending up a message. Mr. Null took offence. âUnderstand, both of you,â he said, âwhen I call to-morrow morning, I shall insist on going upstairsâand if I find this incivility repeated, I shall throw up the case.â He left the room, triumphing in his foolâs paradise of aggressive self-conceit.
They waited for some time longerâand still no message reached them from upstairs. âWe may be wrong in staying here,â Miss Minerva suggested; âhe may want to be alone when he leaves herâlet us go.â
She rose to return to the house of her new employers. They respected her, and felt for her: while Carminaâs illness continued, she had the entire disposal of her time. The nurse accompanied her to the door; resigned to take refuge in the landladyâs room. âIâm afraid to be by myself,â Teresa said. âEven that womanâs chatter is better for me than my own thoughts.â
Before parting for the night they waited in the hall, looking towards the stairs, and listening anxiously. Not a sound disturbed the melancholy silence.
CHAPTER LVIII. Among many vain hopes, one hope had been realised: they had met again.
In the darkened room, her weary eyes could hardly have seen the betrayal of what he sufferedâeven if she had looked up in his face. She was content to rest her head on his breast, and to feel his arm round her. âI am glad, dear,â she said, âto have lived long enough for this.â
Those were her first wordsâafter the first kiss. She had trembled and sighed, when he ran to her and bent over her: it was the one expression left of all her joy and all her love. But it passed away as other lesser agitations had passed away. One last reserve of energy obeyed the gentle persuasion of love. Silent towards all other friends, she was able to speak to Ovid.
âYou used to breathe so lightly,â she said. âHow is it that I hear you now. Oh, Ovid, donât cry! I couldnât bear that.â
He answered her quietly. âDonât be afraid, darling; I wonât distress you.â
âAnd you will let me say, what I want to say?â
âOh, yes!â
This satisfied her. âI may rest a little now,â she said.
He too was silent; held down by the heavy hand of despair.
The time had been, in the days of his failing health, when the solemn shadows of evening falling over the fieldsâthe soaring song of the lark in the bright heights of the midday skyâthe dear lost remembrances that the divine touch of music finds againâbrought tears into his eyes. They were dry eyes now! Those once tremulous nerves had gathered steady strength, on the broad prairies and in the roving life. Could trembling sorrow, seeking its way to the sources of tears, overbear the robust vitality that rioted in his blood, whether she lived or whether she died? In those deep breathings that had alarmed her, she had indeed heard the struggle of grief, vainly urging its way to expression against the masterful health and strength that set moral weakness at defiance. Nature had remade this manâand Nature never pities.
It was an effort to her to collect her thoughtsâbut she did collect them. She was able to tell him what was in her mind.
âDo you think, Ovid, your mother will care much what becomes of me, when I die?â
He started at those dreadful wordsâso softly, so patiently spoken. âYou will live,â he said. âMy Carmina, what am I here for but to bring you back to life?â
She made no attempt to dispute with him. Quietly, persistently, she returned to the thought that was in her.
âSay that I forgive your mother, Ovidâand that I only ask one thing in return. I ask her to leave me to you, when the end has come. My dear, there is a feeling in me that I canât get over. Donât let me be buried in a great place all crowded with the dead! I once saw a pictureâit was at home in Italy, I thinkâan English picture of a quiet little churchyard in the country. The shadows of the trees rested on the lonely graves. And some great poet had writtenâoh, such beautiful words about it. The red-breast loves to build and warble there, And little footsteps lightly print the ground. Promise, Ovid, you will take me to some place, far from crowds and noiseâwhere children may gather the flowers on my grave.â
He promisedâand she thanked him, and rested again.
âThere was something else,â she said, when the interval had passed. âMy head is so sleepy. I wonder whether I can think of it?â
After a while, she did think of it.
âI want to make you a little farewell present. Will you undo my gold chain? Donât cry, Ovid! oh, donât cry!â
He obeyed her. The gold chain held the two locketsâthe treasured portraits of her father and her mother. âWear them for my sake,â she murmured. âLift me up; I want to put them round your neck myself.â She tried, vainly tried, to clasp the chain. Her head fell back on his breast. âToo sleepy,â she said; âalways too sleepy now! Say you love me, Ovid.â
He said it.
âKiss me, dear.â
He kissed her.
âNow lay me down on the pillow. Iâm not eighteen yetâand I feel as old as eighty! Rest; all I want is rest.â Looking at him fondly, her eyes closed little by littleâthen softly opened again. âDonât wait in this dull room, darling; I will send for you, if I wake.â
It was the only wish of hers that he disobeyed. From time to time, his fingers touched her pulse, and felt its feeble beat. From time to time, he stooped and let the faint coming and going of her breath flutter on his cheek. The twilight fell, and darkness began to gather over the room. Still, he kept his place by her, like a man entranced.
CHAPTER LIX.
The first trivial sound that broke the spell, was the sound of a match struck in the next room.
He rose, and groped his way to the door. Teresa had ventured upstairs, and had kindled a light. Some momentary doubt of him kept the nurse silent when he looked at her. He stammered, and stared about him confusedly, when he spoke.
âWhereâwhereâ?â He seemed to have lost his hold on
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