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knows more than I do of the facts of the whole affair. And her
reading of them and of the Lady of the Shroud, round whom they
circle, may not be the same as mine. Well, that will be all right
too. Aunt Janet loves me—God knows I have good reason to know that
all through these years—and whatever view she may take, her acts
will be all I could wish. But I shall come in for a good lot of
scolding, I am sure. By the way, I ought to think of that; if Aunt
Janet scolds me, it is a pretty good proof that I ought to be
scolded. I wonder if I dare tell her all. No! It is too strange.
She is only a woman, after all: and if she knew I loved … I wish
I knew her name, and thought—as I might myself do, only that I
resist it—that she is not alive at all. Well, what she would either
think or do beats me. I suppose she would want to slipper me as she
used to do when I was a wee kiddie—in a different way, of course.
May 3, 1907.
I really could not go on seriously last night. The idea of Aunt
Janet giving me a licking as in the dear old days made me laugh so
much that nothing in the world seemed serious then. Oh, Aunt Janet
is all right whatever comes. That I am sure of, so I needn’t worry
over it. A good thing too; there will be plenty to worry about
without that. I shall not check her telling me of her visions,
however; I may learn something from them.
For the last four-and-twenty hours I have, whilst awake, been looking
over Aunt Janet’s books, of which I brought a wheen down here. Gee
whizz! No wonder the old dear is superstitious, when she is filled
up to the back teeth with that sort of stuff! There may be some
truth in some of those yarns; those who wrote them may believe in
them, or some of them, at all events. But as to coherence or logic,
or any sort of reasonable or instructive deduction, they might as
well have been written by so many hens! These occult book-makers
seem to gather only a lot of bare, bald facts, which they put down in
the most uninteresting way possible. They go by quantity only. One
story of the kind, well examined and with logical comments, would be
more convincing to a third party than a whole hecatomb of them.
RUPERT’S JOURNAL—Continued.
May 4, 1907.
There is evidently something up in the country. The mountaineers are
more uneasy than they have been as yet. There is constant going to
and fro amongst them, mostly at night and in the grey of the morning.
I spend many hours in my room in the eastern tower, from which I can
watch the woods, and gather from signs the passing to and fro. But
with all this activity no one has said to me a word on the subject.
It is undoubtedly a disappointment to me. I had hoped that the
mountaineers had come to trust me; that gathering at which they
wanted to fire their guns for me gave me strong hopes. But now it is
apparent that they do not trust me in full—as yet, at all events.
Well, I must not complain. It is all only right and just. As yet I
have done nothing to prove to them the love and devotion that I feel
to the country. I know that such individuals as I have met trust me,
and I believe like me. But the trust of a nation is different. That
has to be won and tested; he who would win it must justify, and in a
way that only troublous times can allow. No nation will—can—give
full meed of honour to a stranger in times of peace. Why should it?
I must not forget that I am here a stranger in the land, and that to
the great mass of people even my name is unknown. Perhaps they will
know me better when Rooke comes back with that store of arms and
ammunition that he has bought, and the little warship he has got from
South America. When they see that I hand over the whole lot to the
nation without a string on them, they may begin to believe. In the
meantime all I can do is to wait. It will all come right in time, I
have no doubt. And if it doesn’t come right, well, we can only die
once!
Is that so? What about my Lady of the Shroud? I must not think of
that or of her in this gallery. Love and war are separate, and may
not mix—cannot mix, if it comes to that. I must be wise in the
matter; and if I have got the hump in any degree whatever, must not
show it.
But one thing is certain: something is up, and it must be the Turks.
From what the Vladika said at that meeting they have some intention
of an attack on the Blue Mountains. If that be so, we must be ready;
and perhaps I can help there. The forces must be organized; we must
have some method of communication. In this country, where are
neither roads nor railways nor telegraphs, we must establish a
signalling system of some sort. THAT I can begin at once. I can
make a code, or adapt one that I have used elsewhere already. I
shall rig up a semaphore on the top of the Castle which can be seen
for an enormous distance around. I shall train a number of men to be
facile in signalling. And then, should need come, I may be able to
show the mountaineers that I am fit to live in their hearts …
And all this work may prove an anodyne to pain of another kind. It
will help, at any rate, to keep my mind occupied whilst I am waiting
for another visit from my Lady of the Shroud.
RUPERT’S JOURNAL—Continued.
May 18, 1907.
The two weeks that have passed have been busy, and may, as time goes
on, prove eventful. I really think they have placed me in a
different position with the Blue Mountaineers—certainly so far as
those in this part of the country are concerned. They are no longer
suspicious of me—which is much; though they have not yet received me
into their confidence. I suppose this will come in time, but I must
not try to hustle them. Already they are willing, so far as I can
see, to use me to their own ends. They accepted the signalling idea
very readily, and are quite willing to drill as much as I like. This
can be (and I think is, in its way) a pleasure to them. They are
born soldiers, every man of them; and practice together is only a
realization of their own wishes and a further development of their
powers. I think I can understand the trend of their thoughts, and
what ideas of public policy lie behind them. In all that we have
attempted together as yet they are themselves in absolute power. It
rests with them to carry out any ideas I may suggest, so they do not
fear any assumption of power or governance on my part. Thus, so long
as they keep secret from me both their ideas of high policy and their
immediate intentions, I am powerless to do them ill, and I MAY be of
service should occasion arise. Well, all told, this is much.
Already they accept me as an individual, not merely one of the mass.
I am pretty sure that they are satisfied of my personal bona fides.
It is policy and not mistrust that hedges me in. Well, policy is a
matter of time. They are a splendid people, but if they knew a
little more than they do they would understand that the wisest of all
policies is trust—when it can be given. I must hold myself in
check, and never be betrayed into a harsh thought towards them. Poor
souls! with a thousand years behind them of Turkish aggression,
strenuously attempted by both force and fraud, no wonder they are
suspicious. Likewise every other nation with whom they have ever
come in contact—except one, my own—has deceived or betrayed them.
Anyhow, they are fine soldiers, and before long we shall have an army
that cannot be ignored. If I can get so that they trust me, I shall
ask Sir Colin to come out here. He would be a splendid head for
their army. His great military knowledge and tactical skill would
come in well. It makes me glow to think of what an army he would
turn out of this splendid material, and one especially adapted for
the style of fighting which would be necessary in this country.
If a mere amateur like myself, who has only had experience of
organizing the wildest kind of savages, has been able to advance or
compact their individual style of fighting into systematic effort, a
great soldier like MacKelpie will bring them to perfection as a
fighting machine. Our Highlanders, when they come out, will
foregather with them, as mountaineers always do with each other.
Then we shall have a force which can hold its own against any odds.
I only hope that Rooke will be returning soon. I want to see those
Ingis-Malbron rifles either safely stored in the Castle or, what is
better, divided up amongst the mountaineers—a thing which will be
done at the very earliest moment that I can accomplish it. I have a
conviction that when these men have received their arms and
ammunition from me they will understand me better, and not keep any
secrets from me.
All this fortnight when I was not drilling or going about amongst the
mountaineers, and teaching them the code which I have now got
perfected, I was exploring the side of the mountain nearest to here.
I could not bear to be still. It is torture to me to be idle in my
present condition of mind regarding my Lady of the Shroud …
Strange I do not mind mentioning the word to myself now. I used to
at first; but that bitterness has all gone away.
RUPERT’S JOURNAL—Continued.
May 19, 1907.
I was so restless early this morning that before daylight I was out
exploring on the mountain-side. By chance I came across a secret
place just as the day was breaking. Indeed, it was by the change of
light as the first sun-rays seemed to fall down the mountain-side
that my attention was called to an opening shown by a light behind
it. It was, indeed, a secret place—so secret that I thought at
first I should keep it to myself. In such a place as this either to
hide in or to be able to prevent anyone else hiding in might on
occasion be an asset of safety.
When, however, I saw indications rather than traces that someone had
already used it to camp in, I changed my mind, and thought that
whenever I should get an opportunity I would tell the Vladika of it,
as he is a man on whose discretion I can rely. If we ever have a war
here or any sort of invasion, it is just such places that may be
dangerous. Even in my own case it is much too near the Castle to be
neglected.
The indications were meagre—only where a fire had been on a little
shelf of rock; and it was not possible, through the results of
burning vegetation or scorched grass, to tell how
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