I GUESS THIS AIN'T WHAT YOU WANT by Mario Kresnadi (ebooks that read to you .TXT) 📖

I GUESS THIS AIN'T WHAT YOU WANT

You have ventured a big ordeal with big expectation, big hope, only to be defeated. You did everything you could at your best, but finally accepted the defeat. You learned valuable lessons and gained wisdom, but you ran out of everything and lost the drive. You long for the peace you had at home.

 

As the Prodigal Son parable in the Bible is a study about the father, there is no record on why rationally the prodigal decided to leave, what the actual goal, and what he reasonably did out there. This song attempts to fill the gap from the prodigal’s point of view.   

 

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Bored of the life in the house of gold

She left

brought a pot of gold

Let everyone down

Gone were the oak tree she had known from a child

Along with the dream of a life

She travelled the wide-open road

To a life of freedom

Where friends are easy to find

Where lovers are easy to get

Where dreams are reality

 

But soon, she was is a catch 22

She couldn’t find a way to grow her depleting gold

She ventured everything all that she had

She climbed every mountain

to reach the star

But the star got distanced

But things went south, destroyed

She cried as her lovers left

She wept as her friends left

As when she lost all her gold

She had nothing, nothing at all

 

Am I wrong to believe in the house of gold?

That lies in the long distance

Where everybody cares

Where father is always available

For her

 

Blurring blubber

Rumble

 

 

Lays long ahead of me an open road

These weary eyes travelling  all  the night

Blurring blubber ………..  rumble

Feeling despair      to get back home

 

The star was in my reach… but got… distanced

This  drowning soul been chasing  all  out life

Build up boost up ……… high up

Pumped up but then …..knocked down again

 

I guess this ain’t

What you want… me to do

I guess this ain’t

What you want… me to be   

Please my Lord, Show me your way, Lift me up

Lift me up, Show me your way, Lift me up

 

I climbed soaring mountains….to prove…..the world

I  ventured everything all….all….I have

But things went wrong……destroyed

I have nothing ……..nothing at all

 

Wisdom under the skin, packed for the future

They said things didn’t kill you, will make you stronger

But now I want nothing, just get me back home

just get me back home

to paradise

 

I guess this ain’t

What you want… me to do

I guess this ain’t

What you want… me to be   

Please my Lord, Show me your way, Lift me up

Lift me up, Show me your way, Lift me up

 

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Publication Date: 05-13-2019

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Dedication:
Inspired by the prodigal son parable.