CHASING LIGHT IN DARKNESS by Shkumbin Gashi (sad books to read .TXT) 📖

return to me.

Bruce: Look I’m sorry man I know that have you done for me. You were the only one near me when Nick and Joan died. It’s just this case is entering in my mind. Forgive me

Steven: Just get out of my office please.

A moment of silence after that happened. Bruce sometimes lost control. Steven didn’t deserve to experience that wrath. He treated him like a little brother he never had. Brother from another mother.

Sometime demons within gain control on Bruce s mind and make him do actions that he latter regret. How far they will go?

Next three days passed with high stress on the office looking for evidences. The police was getting hopeless. A consolation was that at least the killer didn’t appear on the surface and killed anyone.

For Bruce nothing happened until one day

Chapter VII

   Live or Die

 

-          It was a quiet morning in the office. Bruce was there looking on the window and thinking about his life and other things.

 

He started talking to himself but it looked like he was trying to say something to all criminals and people who have forgotten what is to be a human bean.

 

Why are things like this? We are getting in self destruction with our actions. Killing, lying, destroying lives, everything is the same. I know people have problems. I do have issues to.

 

 I’m living with my demons to. I have no wife no son no family not even a dog. And I know sometimes I even think of doing bad things but I don’t do that. I fight with my evil. You are getting fired from job, or getting divorced and all the sudden there are other people to blame, to kill because you couldn’t do things right. Well this is sending us in bad path, one that we will regret when reach the end of it.

 

You hate rejection well I’m not a big fan of them either. I experienced them since I was alive. My own father didn’t like me. He abandoned me just like that. That doesn’t give me permission to destroy others lives.

Lonely, alienated, forgotten, rejected and much more oh man I experienced them all. They are my pain…

 

Bruce is about to experience a travel back to a painful moment on his life all this thanks to its memory who is really not helping him by reminding him all he had to go on live.

 

It’s the Richmond High school. Bruce was in the last semester of it. Everybody was preparing for prom night. It’s a big moment for those guys. There were remaining only two days before the big night.

 

School s yard was full of students talking and making jokes. But like every school even this one had its own social rules. Very rarely you could see mixture of students in one group.

 

 Most of them stayed in their own group, the place they thought they belonged, or they don’t but they don’t have other choice.

 

In one side you could see geeks who were some weird guys whose live was possessed by science. They were talking about a documentary on National Geographic that told how to evacuate earth. It was impressive how those guys destroyed that documentary with their arguments.

 

Just a few matters below them there were other group. Some young teens with tattoos and skates belonged there. They looked like rebels of the school and this way of live and the way they were living it was a protest for a society who is not accepting them as they are but tries to change them with all it costs.

 

There were a lot of groups like Punks, artists, even emigrants, the rich ones who looked that they had anything they wanted but deep inside they also understood that just living today for today without thinking about who they really are  is not the real purpose of their live.

 

Well he wasn’t in none of the groups. He was standing alone near a wall and watching Melanie a girl he wanted to invite on prom night but he was having doubts. What if she is refusing him? But finally after few minutes debating with his mind he decided to take a stand. She was staying few meters away from him with her two friends.

Bruce: Hey Melanie how are you, can I talk to you for a second

Melanie: Yes sure, wait here girls I ll be back fast. What s up Bruce?

Bruce: You know I have been thinking lately for ee you know

Melanie: No what

Bruce:  You know prom night and I I wanted to ask you if you will be my partner for the night.

Melanie: Yes why not you are sweet. We will see than with you after tomorrow. See you

Bruce: Thank you very much Melanie.

Prom night came and Bruce was wearing the best clothes he had, Edit his mother had to work a lot for those clothes but she know it s her son special night.

 

This night was going to be remembered for long from him but not the way he thought. Bruce was waiting in front of prom place door because he didn’t have car to take Melanie from home.

 

 She appeared but with Jake Thompson they actually looked quite happy together. Bruce was furious for that. He was the only person there who didn’t have partner all night passed with people laughing with him, he was so embarrassed.

 

 In one moment a guy with microphone on the stage was joking with Bruce and his event. He felt so bad that night, alienated, rejected and felt worthless.

 

There have passed more than twenty years from his prom night and he still remembers that moment. I have to quit thinking about my past its killing me. I better sit this view of people its making me think deeper and I don’t want that.

 

Mrs. Norris knocked on the door in that moment she was left without breath Bruce knew that something had happened.

You have to go fast..

Bruce: Where I should go, calm down what happened?

Mrs. Norris: There is a person who is trying to commit suicide. But he said he wanted to talk with you.

Bruce: People are getting out of control, where is he?

Mrs. Norris: He is here in that building of W company.

Bruce: Ill be there (he took his jacket and went there running)

The building was 15 minutes from police department. Like always there were a lot of people there, journalists and cops. Bruce said to one officer: I ll talk to him.

He was in 5th floor of the building and he was Pitter the guy who was witness in the first murder.

Pitter I’m coming up. Let’s talk together. Don’t do anything stupid.

Bruce entered on the building and went fast in the roof when Pitter was.

Bruce: Pitter don’t do anything stupid. Let’s talk.

Pitter: You promised me that you will help me but you didn’t.

Bruce: But I told you to come on the department and we will talk right?

Pitter: You did and I came. I searched for you but they said that you cant accept me because you are very busy.

Bruce: Boy I told you to come in my office, I didn’t tell them for you because if they will know you would be in big trouble. What are you doing up here?

Pitter: Everything is over now, my scholarship is canceled. The person who was blackmailing me showed the picture to the professor and they did what they did. My father is not talking to me. I’m destroyed I don’t deserve to live.

 

Bruce: Can I get closer and talk better?

Pitter: No no don’t come or I jump.

Bruce: Okay okay we will talk like this. So you think this is the solution to your problems, committing suicide and making your parents suffer as long as they lived, you want that.

Pitter: I’m not making them happy even now. My degree on molecular biology was my only hope to get things right but that it’s gone.

Bruce: You know what listen to me and then decide what to do, it’s up to you but first jut help me. My live was hell.

My father left me when I was just a little kid, I had to live on street with my mother, My son and wife were killed with a bomb, I have nobody, no social live and there is much more believe me.

You know how many times I thought of suicide. Million times but I didn’t do. There is always some reason to keep you alive. If you choice to suicide you will be a coward but if you try to fight you will be big man. So you decide. I’m not stopping you.

Pitter: But how to handle all this. I have lost everything.

Bruce: No you don’t, you have lost your scholarship but you have a family, a live, you are young, you have your future before. You have anything someone can have. I wish I was in your place. You see down there is your mother with your father waiting to go home .Don’t make them suffer more.

Pitter: I’m sorry I didn’t know what I was doing (he starts crying and come to Bruce down people were cheering for his action)

Bruce: You are doing the right thing son; you will be convinced by yourself.

 

This made Bruce happy because he saved that young man s life. Long time since he didn’t felt like that.

People down there all looked him like a hero. Everybody was looking him with admiration. A news reporter came to him: Sir how you feel about what you did?

I was just doing my job. Please don’t make it big deal. That is a young boy there who was thinking wrong for a moment; don’t make his life worse by talking for it and everybody will know him like a weak person. In the end everybody would do what I did (he didn’t believe that at all, he things that people are getting less caring for others) Thank you very much.

 He was so tired; it was long but good day. Saving that boy s live did good to Bruce. It was afternoon and he was going in his home when he sees Bob staying in the park and just watching his dog while he was doing his maneuvers.

Hey Bob can I join to you, am I interrupting you?

Bob: Yes sure I’m glad that you ask my friend.

Bruce: I’m living on this place for years and never noticed how beautiful this park is.

Bob: I always asked you but you refused

Bruce: I was busy fighting bad guys to think of my live.

Bob: My friend I saw your pain and I know how you suffered that is why I always tried to approach to you. I lost my wife to. So I understood you. I came to your door every morning not that I like to hang out much with people but I wanted to make sure that you didn’t do anything stupid.

You know where I was young man I saw evil in the world but newer thought it will catch me. It was so illusive for me. But just when I found my love and I was living my dream god took it from me.

Bruce: Do you want to talk for it. I Will b..

Bob: No please I don’t think its good idea. Can I give you