Signs for Lost Children Sarah Moss (best way to read books .TXT) 📖
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He stands at the rail again, staring at the horizon which is still empty. He woke early and lay sweating under the sheets until the weight of inactivity became impossible. The brief flurry of dressing over, he paced the deck until he could no longer pretend not to know every knot in every plank. He toyed with breakfast, the eggs now pallid and tasteless, the sun already too hot for coffee to have any appeal and Louisa Davis as usual absent from the table. There is nothing to do. The women, he thinks, are accustomed to it; they sew, read, walk the deck, write letters, attend the meals served with the regularity and ceremony of monastic offices. They dress for dinner, spend time arranging their hair. It does not appear very different from their routines on land, Ally’s Aunt Mary and Mrs. Senhouse and doubtless English gentlewomen across India all keeping to the same timetable. Or perhaps more of them than one thinks are like Louisa, bored and angry and prowling. Their eyes have not met, they have scarcely spoken at the table, for the last two days.
Waves slap lazily against the hull below his feet. There must be life down there, something happening, a submarine world of fish and weed, a landscape of rock and valley. But for a man used to working, to looking back on a day or an hour and seeing what he has done, a passenger’s life is vexatious. To sit, to be served, to read books that would be pleasurable as an evening’s recreation but cannot substitute for the satisfactions of hard work done well: he is no fine gentleman to tolerate such weeks. To reflect on what has been done, and what should not have been done. It is not as if he planned what has happened, not as if he intended to do wrong. He paces. He tries not to count the days until they will probably reach harbour, wind and weather permitting. He wonders why he, who passed the voyage out contentedly enough in reading about Japan, watching the sea and conversing with others eastward bound for similar reasons, should suffer such discontent now. Perhaps the presences that dogged his final days in Kyoto are with him still, provoking unease and a state of pointless yearning. For the marriage he left, for Japan, for birds and flowers and fruit more beautiful than the real thing, for things he can barely name and certainly cannot have. For Louisa, or for Ally. He shakes his head, as if yearning were an insect whining around his ears, and then he hears whimpering and snuffling, a sound that reminds him of puppies. There is no dog on board, surely.
He turns around and squints along the ship, up into the sun. Not a dog, but on the deck above, up under the mast, a sailor—a boy scarcely old enough to be a sailor—sits rocking with his head on his knees.
‘Hey,’ Tom calls. ‘Hey, are you ill? You need help?’
He remembers the stories the sailors in Scotland used to tell about young boys on ships, the acts they must suffer. The boy rocks and keens. There is no passenger access to that deck. Tom glances around, gets a foot onto the handle of the door into the corridor and pulls himself up by the railing above. Sweat pulses as he catches his breath. It is the most exercise he has had in days. The boy looks up as Tom moves towards him. Dark hair, too long and falling into his eyes, pale face. He rubs his nose from side to side on the back of his hand.
‘What? What do you want?’
At least he speaks English. An accent Tom hasn’t heard before, southern.
‘Are you hurt?’ Tom asks. ‘Can I help you?’
The boy grins. There are still tears on his face. He pushes back his hair and then holds out his other arm for Tom to see.
‘Knew it’d hurt. See?’
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