Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

“Kazan!!!” I called his name desperately hoping that he would answer but it seemed that it was not going to happen now. I was not that fortunate that I would get to hear his voice this soon, even though I was dying to hear his voice just for one time.

I never realised before that this day would come, or I would have never pushed him away from me ever.

Tears started running down on my cheeks once again without my approval while my heart kept shattering into a million pieces, seeing my mate lying unconscious before my eyes. His dusky skin that I had liked very much had now turned pale. His eyes were still closed, and no matter how much I wished, I could not see those captivating ocean blue eyes and all the warmth in them which was always for me only.

Unconsciously I lifted up my arms only to touch his face, so that the warmth of his body could show me how badly he was fighting still now...for us.

I leaned down a kissed his cold lips but he did not respond this time like he always used to do. My heart ached while again the warm stream flooded in my eyes and ran down on my cheeks all the way and fell on his cheeks in the end.

“I love you, Kazan. Please wake up.” I pleaded but nothing changed as he was still lying on the bed without any consciousness.

I moved my hands only to trail down to his neck, his chest and every other place on his body where the flesh was brutally slashed by the wolves last night, leaving him innumerable deep mark on his skin. And among all the cuts, one was still there and yet to heal completely.

I could not help anymore and let the tears flow down from my eyes till the last drop, while I kept regretting about last night when I did not hesitate to say all those cruel words to Kazan, willingly.

The air around me started to feel a bit stuffy while I could see nothing else except throne who was now lying in front of me. I did not at all realise when the room became absolutely silent all of sudden and when the rest of the people who were here a while ago, were now gone somewhere, leaving the two of us alone for the time being.

All I know that in the next moment, I carefully pushed Kazan a little bit to the other side of the bed only to make space for me to fit in. And then without being able to hold on to the sudden wish to hug him tightly, I climbed on the bed slowly, making sure that none of my movements could bother Kazan in any kind of way.

I lied down just beside him and did not waste any time to pull him close to me, wrapping my arms around his body as much as I could.

His face was so close to mine, but still, he felt so distant from me right now. I could not help but lift up my hand only to put it on his cheek and kept caressing him slowly and softly.

“You know what, Kazan. I had a dream. It was the most beautiful dream that I have ever seen. Do you want to know what I saw?” I whispered, keeping my hopes high, thinking that he might ask me in return, revealing the fact that he was all awake. But it did not happen.

I did not mind though, cause I knew very well that if not now, he will have to wake up later, for me, for his pup, for us.

You will do that, right Kazan?

Anyway,

Even though he was not going to ask me, I was going to tell him anyway,

“I saw you. No, I mean, I saw all of us. And you know what, we were four. You, me, this little one and there was another one on the way. Can you ever imagine?” I said, even though I knew that I was not going to get any answers back, this time as well.

“And you know, where we were? We were at the most beautiful sea beach ever. But unfortunately, I do not know what was the place exactly.

I saw the most amazing sunrise with you.

Kazan? Will you do that with me after you recover fully? I want to see the sunrise with you, not just in my dreams but also in the reality. Will you promise me, that you would take me one day? “ I asked, but still I got no reply as usual. My heart kept sinking but no matter what, I was not at all intended to stop trying, never ever.

I must not lose hope.

The beeping sound of the machines overtook the treacherous silence in the room in no time. There was still no change in Kazan's unconscious state, neither did he showed any sign of any kind of movement even when so much time had passed already.

And I kept going on. I wanted to tell him all of it what I saw in my dream.

“What if, this little one inside me right now, turns out to be a boy? Will you love him the same way as you would if it were a girl?

Cause in my dreams, I saw a quite little boy, with the same ocean blue eyes like you. Not only the eyes, in fact, he was the tiny little version of my Kazan. Cause he had the same hair just like you do, his skin was the same as yours, his nose, his lips, his chin and everything were exactly like you but much cuter than yours. Except for his cheeks. His cheeks were totally chubby, you know. I wonder if you used to look the same when you were a kid, Kazan.”