Poor Folk Fyodor Dostoevsky (old books to read .txt) š
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June 11th.
How I thank you for our walk to the Islands yesterday, Makar Alexievitch! How fresh and pleasant, how full of verdure, was everything! And I had not seen anything green for such a long time! During my illness I used to think that I should never get better, that I was certainly going to die. Judge, then, how I felt yesterday! True, I may have seemed to you a little sad, and you must not be angry with me for that. Happy and lighthearted though I was, there were moments, even at the height of my felicity, when, for some unknown reason, depression came sweeping over my soul. I kept weeping about trifles, yet could not say why I was grieved. The truth is that I am unwellā āso much so, that I look at everything from the gloomy point of view. The pale, clear sky, the setting sun, the evening stillnessā āah, somehow I felt disposed to grieve and feel hurt at these things; my heart seemed to be overcharged, and to be calling for tears to relieve it. But why should I write this to you? It is difficult for my heart to express itself; still more difficult for it to forego self-expression. Yet possibly you may understand me. Tears and laughter!ā āā ā¦ How good you are, Makar Alexievitch! Yesterday you looked into my eyes as though you could read in them all that I was feelingā āas though you were rejoicing at my happiness. Whether it were a group of shrubs or an alleyway or a vista of water that we were passing, you would halt before me, and stand gazing at my face as though you were showing me possessions of your own. It told me how kind is your nature, and I love you for it. Today I am again unwell, for yesterday I wetted my feet, and took a chill. Thedora also is unwell; both of us are ailing. Do not forget me. Come and see me as often as you can.ā āYour own,
Barbara Alexievna.
June 12th: My Dearest Barbara AlexievnaJune 12th.
My dearest Barbara Alexievnaā āI had supposed that you meant to describe our doings of the other day in verse; yet from you there has arrived only a single sheet of writing. Nevertheless, I must say that, little though you have put into your letter, that little is not expressed with rare beauty and grace. Nature, your descriptions of rural scenes, your analysis of your own feelingsā āthe whole is beautifully written. Alas, I have no such talent! Though I may fill a score of pages, nothing comes of itā āI might as well never have put pen to paper. Yes, this I know from experience.
You say, my darling, that I am kind and good, that I could not harm my fellow-men, that I have power to comprehend the goodness of God (as expressed in natureās handiwork), and so on. It may all be so, my dearest oneā āit may all be exactly as you say. Indeed, I think that you
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