SZNS SERIES 1: Summer Maria Writes (ebook pc reader .txt) 📖

That's weird. He's cold as a freezer. He laid out his hand and she gladly reached it. He put one of her arms over his shoulder and he placed his hand on her waist, while the others are intertwined. She never been this close to him for a week.

Well, that's because she's hiding in her parents' house. "Really? Ms. King? What happened to ginger now? Oh, wait don't tell me, that's nothing, right?"

Okay, that's so bitchy of her. But she needs answers. Up until now her heart is still aching after what Jesse said last weekend. It felt like he humiliated her in front of their friends. She needs to know if he's just joking. Whatever his answer is, she'll respect it. And just move forward. She will not confine herself in thoughts that will surely destroy her.

"I thought you don't like it when I call you Ginger? If you're uncomfortable with Ms. King, then Chloe. And look what I said last week, it wasn't meant to hurt you. I just said that because I was scared."

He looked at her straight in the eyes. And he's right, his eyes say it all, he's terrified. But of what? Is this what he said to Rebeca? That she's too good for him? That I'm better off without him? If that's what he's thinking, then maybe his right, she was never enough for anyone.

She bit her lip and think of anything to say. When she had nothing, she stood away from his hold and went to the balcony. She needs air. She needs to breathe. Is this what she gets for trying? For risking? She knows from the very beginning that these feelings can hurt her. And she's goddamn right. Now she's paying for it.

The chilly air wraps her and since her gown is off the shoulder, she can't help but shiver. She held on the railing and lean on it while looking at the garden below her. She can still remember how she run around that garden being chased by her parents.

She's carefree, thinking of nothing else but her Barbie dolls. But now, she's suffering from her first heartbreak with a man who was never hers to begin with. Chloe can feel tears running down her cheeks. Her chest is aching and she's having a hard time breathing. She tried her best not to make a sound, just letting at her tears escape her eyes.

Chloe felt a presence beside her but she didn't bother to know who was that. She's sure it was Jesse because she felt him followed her earlier. She wiped her eyes and stayed silent. There's nothing left to say. When he told her that he was afraid, she knew exactly what that is trying to convey.

Worry that her parents must be looking for her, she turned around to go inside, but she was stopped when Jesse held on her arm. She stilled and didn't say anything. She's waiting for him to say something. Hoping that he will take back everything he said. He went in front of her and held both of your cheeks.

"Do you want to know what I'm so afraid of? The fact that you won't like me back. When I first saw you, your ginger hair is the first thing that caught my attention. I'll always remember that day, August 13, 2014. I will always love that day. On that day I met a girl who was so fun to be with but feisty at the same time. The first time you held my hand in the school cafeteria, I know you did that to make the other girls jealous. But it doesn't mean anything to you.”

“When we first kissed, I thought there was something between us. I was so happy that night and thought 'Finally, I can court her.' I was happy that you didn't kicked me out of your room when I slept in your bed. But you slapped me the next morning. Every time you cling your arms with mine, my heart races uncontrollably, but I tried to keep my cool. And when you kissed me last week, that held me off guard. But then I saw you smirk after that, I immediately thought you're just playing. That you're just proving that you're not scared to kiss any guy you just met. You scared me."

Her throat hurts because she's doing her best not to cry. She should know better than to trust this guy. Her mind is telling her to pull her face off him told and walk away, but her heart and body is telling her otherwise. She doesn't know what to believe anymore. She's feeling a bit happy because of what he said, but there's still doubt inside of her.

"You're lying. Last week, on the resort. You told Rebeca you don't like me. I heard you. And do you know what that made me feel? I wanted to drown myself that time because the man I like doesn't like me back. I know it’s stupid but that’s what I want to do. And now you have the nerve to lie in my face, saying all these things just to erase my anger. If that's your motive, stop it because it's not working." Her tears that she's been holding finally escaped her eyes. Yes, she already said she likes him. It's now or never.

"Yes, I like you. During the school fair, when I saw you, I quickly approached you even if I will look stupid. Even if Caroline said you're not what we need. I didn't listen to her. What's important to me is to get to know you. When my audition tape was lost, I didn't hesitate to check the security, only to find out you took it. I was happy, because I thought by that you're trying to get my affection. And you succeeded.”

“During the auditions,