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On the other hand, no doubt if he were sent to the chair now in the face of his firstâ âand yet so clear manifestation of contritionâ âwhen now, for the first time he was beginning to grasp the enormity of his offenseâ âit would be but to compound crime with crimeâ âthe state in this instance being the aggressor. For, like the warden and many others, McMillan was against capital punishmentâ âpreferring to compel the wrongdoer to serve the state in some way. But, none-the-less, he felt himself compelled to acknowledge, Clyde was far from innocent. Think as he wouldâ âand however much spiritually he desired to absolve him, was he not actually guilty?
In vain it was that McMillan now pointed out to Clyde that his awakened moral and spiritual understanding more perfectly and beautifully fitted him for life and action than ever before. He was alone. He had no one who believed in him. No one. He had no one, whom, in any of his troubled and tortured actions before that crime saw anything but the darkest guilt apparently. And yetâ âand yetâ â(and this despite Sondra and the Reverend McMillan and all the world for that matter, Mason, the jury at Bridgeburg, the Court of Appeals at Albany, if it should decide to confirm the jury at Bridgeburg), he had a feeling in his heart that he was not as guilty as they all seemed to think. After all they had not been tortured as he had by Roberta with her determination that he marry her and thus ruin his whole life. They had not burned with that unquenchable passion for the Sondra of his beautiful dream as he had. They had not been harassed, tortured, mocked by the ill-fate of his early life and training, forced to sing and pray on the streets as he had in such a degrading way, when his whole heart and soul cried out for better things. How could they judge him, these people, all or any one of them, even his own mother, when they did not know what his own mental, physical and spiritual suffering had been? And as he lived through it again in his thoughts at this moment the sting and mental poison of it was as real to him as ever. Even in the face of all the facts and as much as everyone felt him to be guilty, there was something so deep within him that seemed to cry out against it that, even now, at times, it startled him. Stillâ âthere was the Reverend McMillanâ âhe was a very fair and just and merciful man. Surely he saw all this from a higher light and better viewpoint than his own. While at times he felt strongly that he was innocent, at others he felt that he must be guilty.
Oh, these evasive and tangled and torturesome thoughts!! Would he never be ableâ âquiteâ âto get the whole thing straightened out in his own mind?
So Clyde not being able to take advantage truly of either the tenderness and faith and devotion of so good and pure a soul as the Reverend McMillan or the all merciful and all powerful God of whom here he stood as the ambassador. What was he to do, really? How pray, resignedly, unreservedly, faithfully? And in that moodâ âand because of the urge of the Reverend Duncan, who was convinced by Clydeâs confession that he must have been completely infused with the spirit of God, once more thumbing through the various passages and chapters pointed out to himâ âreading and rereading the Psalms most familiar to him, seeking from their inspiration to catch the necessary contritionâ âwhich once caught would give him that peace and strength which in those long and dreary hours he so much desired. Yet never quite catching it.
Parallel with all this, four more months passed. And at the end of that timeâ âin January, 19â â, the Court of Appeals finding (Fulham, Jr., reviewing the evidence as offered by Belknap and Jephson)â âwith Kincaid, Briggs, Truman and Dobshutter concurring, that Clyde was guilty as decided by the Cataraqui County jury and sentencing him to die at some time within the week beginning February 28th or six weeks laterâ âand saying in conclusion:
âWe are mindful that this is a case of circumstantial evidence and that the only eyewitness denies that death was the result of crime. But in obedience to the most exacting requirements of that manner of proof, the counsel for the people, with very unusual thoroughness and ability has investigated and presented evidence of a great number of circumstances for the purpose of truly solving the question of the defendantâs guilt or innocence.
âWe might think that the proof of some of these facts standing by themselves was subject to doubt by reason of unsatisfactory or contradictory evidence, and that other occurrences might be so explained or interpreted as to be reconcilable with innocence. The defenseâ âand very ablyâ âsought to enforce this view.
âBut taken all together and considered as a connected whole, they make such convincing proof of guilt that we are not able to escape from its force by any justifiable process of reasoning and we are compelled to say that not only is the verdict not opposed to the weight of evidence, and to the proper inference to be drawn from it, but that it is abundantly justified thereby. Decision of the lower court unanimously confirmed.â
On hearing this, McMillan, who was in Syracuse at the time, hurrying to Clyde in the hope that before the news was conveyed officially, he should be there to encourage him spiritually, since, only with the aid of the Lord, as he saw itâ âthe eternal and ever present help in troubleâ âwould Clyde be able to endure so heavy a blow. And finding himâ âfor which he was most deeply gratefulâ âwholly unaware of what had occurred, since no news of any kind was conveyed to any condemned man until the warrant for his execution had arrived.
After a most tender and spiritual conversationâ âin which he quoted from Matthew,
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