In Her Dreams Bolryder, Terry (top 10 motivational books TXT) 📖

flatly. My heart feels like it’s being crushed very slowly by something very large. I thought, naively, maybe she’d just agree to at least talking about the dream realm.

But instead, she’s all about Mark’s brother.

And she wants me to go away.

“It’s just for a day or two,” she says. “Because I need space to think. This has been amazing. A dream come true.” She smiles softly. “Many dreams come true, actually.” Her eyes meet mine, searing them. “I do love being with you, Reve. And if it was only me, maybe I could let you sweep me away to another world and fix everything. But I’m not the number one in my world, Reve. My son comes first. And I have to think carefully about taking him to another world.”

I sit there for a few seconds, dumbfounded. “You still don’t trust me, do you?”

She blinks, but I see the truth of it on her face. “Not enough to go to another world right now.”

“Don’t punish me for Mark,” I say softly.

“I’m not trying to,” she says. “I’m just trying to stay safe.”

“Love is never safe,” I say. “We always have to take a leap of faith.”

“Not to another planet—”

“Dimension—”

“That’s not better!” She sighs. “Reve, just give me some time alone to think. I don’t feel like going out tonight or fighting with you. I have too much on my mind, and I need to consider so many things.”

“Joey doesn’t need another male figure or father figure,” I say, feeling my heart pinch just thinking about it. “He has me and Jerrek and Lorien once he gets to know him. We can teach him—”

“How to whip people?” She looks at me, exasperated.

“How to protect himself and others!” I say. “Look, we both know this isn’t really about me being a fae. You’re just afraid.”

“Of what?”

“That you’ll lose control,” I say. “That someone might just be able to give you more than you thought possible, but it means things won’t go exactly as you want, and you can’t stand that.”

“What?” She straightens, ruffling. “How dare you? You’re the one who broke the rules and fixed my car and who is telling me I need to go to another planet—”

“Dimension—”

“Don’t correct me!” She snorts. “Anyway, I have the right to have control over my life. If I want to stay in the so-called shitty human world, that’s my choice!”

“So as your partner and someone who loves you, I’m not allowed to say anything at all, even about decisions that are dangerous for you?”

She pauses, considering it for a moment, then shakes her head. “I’m the only one I could depend on when things were at their worst. I have to trust myself.”

“But sometimes we need others,” I say urgently. “To help us whether we like it or not.”

“No.” Her expression hardens. “No. No one will ever take control of my life again. This is why I wanted to just keep seeing you in dreams. In real life, things are so complicated.”

“I know,” I say. “But it’s also really simple. I just love you, and I want the best for you. You’ve been doing as well as you can on your own, but—”

“Are you saying I haven’t been doing well enough by Joey?”

“No,” I say.

“Then what are you saying?”

“That you both could have more if you would just trust me.”

“I’ll never wholeheartedly trust a man again,” she snaps at me. Then she looks shocked at her own words. She exhales roughly, sagging against the seat. “I don’t mean that. I just… I need things to be in my own timeframe. I don’t want to ever let myself get swept away again.”

“Even if it means losing me?” I ask because I truly don’t know what will happen if the dream council calls me back and she won’t go with me.

Would I even be able to come back to her? Would I get arrested? I have no idea.

I knew this issue was tough between us but nowhere near this tough.

I let out a sigh. “How much time do you need?”

Jerrek’s beacon will at least still be active.

“I don’t know,” she says. “I’ll let you know. How long until the council comes?”

I shrug. “I don’t know.”

Heavy silence falls between us, and I realize this is truly what she wants even if it separates us.

“I’m sorry, Reve,” she says, looking despondent. “But I don’t see how it can work.” She shakes her head. “I’ll think about it, but taking Joey to another world… I can’t imagine it.”

“And I can’t imagine living without you,” I say, my heart feeling like it’s burning on a funeral pyre.

I snap my fingers, and the car around us changes completely.

New paint, new metal, new upholstery. It took a lot of my energy, but it’s now fully restored.

At least she’ll be safe while driving.

“What?” She looks around the car. “Reve.”

“Just something to make me feel slightly better.” I smile sadly. “I know. It’s still selfish. Call me if you ever need me, soul bond.”

“Will you tell me if you have to leave?”

I nod. “You want me to come say good-bye even if you decided we can’t work together?”

She puts a hand to my arm. “We could try to be together until they send you home, but… I’m not sure if that would just hurt us all more.”

I hang my head. “I wish you’d been born in my world.”

But the pain is too much for me right now. And I dematerialize.

Headed for Jerrek to tell him how everything just went wrong.

20

Jen

“I can’t believe you.” Sandra’s voice through the phone is stern, not at all the comforting tone I thought I would be hearing.

“What do you mean? He fixed my car without me asking, he showed up to my house to meet Joey before I was ready, and now he’s insisting we move back to his world when he knows we want to stay here.”

“I don’t see anything wrong with any of that, honestly,” Sandra says. “Perhaps all of us have been protecting your pride