Love Grows In The Dark Eli Lowe (love story novels in english TXT) 📖

his side carefully and did not forget to pull the cover up on our body, making sure that I was okay as my body was still shaking a bit. He pulled me into his chest in an instant so that I could stay warm all night.

We kept lying for long but it seemed that sleep had no intention to come to any of us tonight. His hands kept traversing on my bare back the whole time, letting me feel all those tingles even after we just made love like some insane.

He was happy and so was I at this moment.

I wanted to talk to him, I wanted to know more about him, I wanted to feel everything that he was feeling right now. I wanted to know how he grew up, how he became an alpha at such a young age and so many things.

But little did I know that I was about to make his nightmare alive once again, unknowingly.

Cause I asked the very question which was always connected to all his miseries somehow, which I was yet to know.

“Kazan?” I called him out.

“Hmm?” His deep voice caused another shiver ran down my spine once again, declaring the fact that I could be hungry again right after a grand feast.

But I tried to avoid any such idea right now and asked,

“If you and Markus are brothers then why don't you both belong to the same pack?” As soon as he heard me, his hands stopped caressing my back like before only to halt for some moment. I felt that Kazan became a bit stiff after what I had asked, due to some unknown reason. Seeing him like this, I was about to say that he should never force himself to say something which he does not feel like he could ever say. But even before I could say all that to him, Kazan began to answer me,

“Well, Blood Bay Pack belonged to my father while Rose Bay was my mother's. But after mom left her pack to come to live with dad, Rose Bay was left with no next in line alpha after grandpa. And when Markus and I were born, mom promised grandpa that one of us would take the responsibility of the alpha of Rose Bay Pack after grandpa retires. And that was how from the beginning, Markus was chosen as the next in line alpha of Rose Bay Pack while Blood Bay Pack was left for me to look after.

Even so, we were still together, cause back then when the decision was taken, we were too young to be separated. So grandpa agreed to have Markus when we grow up enough to take such responsibility.

But I guess, that was never meant to happen.

Cause, the time made both of us stay separated from a really young age, against everyone's will.” Kazan paused to think something which must be something terrible as I felt his grip tighten on me without much of his consciousness.

“What happened?” I asked.

“Mom and dad died when we were young enough to understand what actually happened. Grandpa wanted to take us both with him to his pack as he wanted to give us a safe childhood. But then again, if he had done that, the Blood Bay could have collapsed which was not acceptable at all. So, my dad's beta, Jacob, made me stay back here in the Blood Bay, and Markus went to Rose Bay.” A menacing silence overtook after whatever Kazan just said, raising so many questions in my head all over again.

Episode 39

Kazan's P.O.V

Last night I dreamt of that piece of memory from my childhood once again. Even though I was very young back then to recall everything or to even understand what had happened that day years ago, that particular memory was the only thing I could never forget, even after all these years. Rather the horror in them never let me forget about that time from the past.

Since then, as I kept growing up, the sight which I had witnessed at such a young age did not fail to haunt me in my sleep every night. And soon it turned into my nightmare which kept becoming more and more vicious in my dreams as days passed by, leaving me no other choice except keeping the truth inside me all this time.

No, it was not that I did not want to tell anyone.

Cause, I tried.

Actually, I did tell once, in the very beginning, when I was entirely traumatized and when once all the limit of my endurance overflowed with the horrifying nightmares which kept coming only to force me to stay awake all night for years. And when I told everything about it to the only one who was really close to me back then, he did ensure me to get me out of this haunted memories by doing the justice for sure. But little did I know that it would make me lose him as well, proving the very fact to me ever so clearly that I just can not ask for anyone to help me out of my misery.

And that was why I never found the courage to open myself to anyone ever since. Not even to Markus. Cause, he does not know anything about this. And I was afraid that if I had told him, I might have lost him too, which I could never afford. Just as I was afraid to tell Summer as well about all those things which I had gone through since my childhood.

Yes, last night whatever I had told her was the truth indeed but I could not tell her that there was more to it. Cause I could never afford to lose her. Never ever.

****flashback****

Even though I liked that Summer, at last, wanted to know more about me instead of running away like before,