Window to my Soul by Samantha Panzarella (thriller book recommendations txt) 📖
- Author: Samantha Panzarella
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The Siren
You wipe away these crimson tears
Blood tainting your hands
Your lips brushed against my own
Corrupting you with this sweet kiss
Tarnishing the innocence that you carried
As I pull you into this dark hole of bliss
Wrapping arms of darkness around your soul
Love is a poison upon your heart
It seeps through your veins, tearing at your chest
But I can make the pain feel like a gentle carress
In His Back Pocket
I just don't know how to say
To describe this kind of pain
As I sit in your back pocket
Second best from the rest
A mere afterthought to you
I'm sitting there, just waiting there
As the seconds tick by
The clock of my life
Staring into space just to pass some time
I'M STILL WAITING HERE
ALWAYS WAITING HERE
JUST FOR YOU
Didn't you ever notice?
All this waiting that I do
As I sit in your back pocket
Fading away
Maybe another day.....
Run Away
I can see you killing me
Nothing left inside my chest
Wasted lives
A bitter mess
Maybe I should listen to those little voices
Inside my head
Telling me to run home
But I'm not sure where exactly that is
Cuz all I know is this confusion
Clouding all my thoughts and senses
Just trying to ease away this dread
Forgive me as I pull away
Forgive me while I run away
I'm just trying to escape
While death sits at my heels
Clutching me through distorted hands
I should have ran
Far away
Far away from here
Bitter Lonliness
The room's getting dark
I'll still be lonely
And you'll still be busy
As I fall asleep alone
Clutching at a shattered hope
That you'll be there beside me
When I'm needing you the most
We're A Forgotten Creation
God exists
We exist
His disappointment
He turned away
Leaving us to fend for ourselves
A forgotten creation
Our unanswered prayers
His minor annoyances
Waiting as we destroy ourselves
Causing our own extinction
Killing this earth
Until nothing is left
His distant memory
Insanity Screams
Your lips are moving
Nothing came out
I can't hear you
All the screaming inside my head
I'm suddenly deaf
I'm suddenly mute
All this anger running through
It's hurting
It's burning
Ripping apart my brains
My heart set to a flame
Trying to scream
Just let it all loose
Just let it all get away from you
Unanswered Prayers
I tried to find God
But I guess he don't care
He was never there
Where was he when I was scared?
Tears running down my face
My heart a crumbled mess
Groping around for the light
A light that will never shine
These aren't mere lines of disrespect
Cutting down the one from above
But whatever happened to a God of love?
FOR MY BABY
I won't ever see you're smiling face
Or hold your little hands
Your memory will be a scar
Running along my mind
Those four months wasn't supposed to be enough
Death robbed you from our time
Now I can only imagine
How nice it'd feel
Holding you in my arms
Shadowed Souls
I woke up this morning
I think the sun forgot to shine
No, today will not be fine
I'm sorry but it won't be alright
Self worth is on my mind
The mirror taunts me with my reflection
I'm not anything special
And yet I'm not like everybody else
Couldn't get out of bed
That negativity lingering
I stayed in my pjs all day
My hair never getting brushed
As I'm stuck in this slump
I can't get it outta my head
Tracing my hand along the scars
The mistakes I inbedded into my skin
When does the emptiness end?
Out of Reach
What I desire I can't have
I try not to think about it
I try not to feel sad
But when someone else puts their arms around me
I wonder what it'd be like if it was you
Is it wrong for me to want what I do
I don't know how to handle this coldness
If you were here would you share some warmth
Can you dear, wrap your arms around me?
Are you alive with the love I need to feel....
Or did you already die away from this world....
Is it a sin to crave more affection
Is it wrong to want to feel some protection
My heart is tearing out of my chest
Yeah, my emotions are just one big mess
I'm crying in the darkness of this room
I'm clawing at these open wounds
Why do I have to feel this pain?
Tell me dear, will there be any gain?
When you say one day................
Is this only in our dreams?
Will there ever be a me and you.......
My Picture
They say that every picture tells a story
Well what does mine say
What are the words it speaks to you
Do you see a broken girl?
Or just the happy smile she wears on her face...
Do you see the scars that run deep from within her soul?
Or is the outer appearence all you know...
Oh yeah, she looks happy there
See her smiling there
You can't see the pain she holds inside
You'll never see the tears that she cries
Didn't anyone notice.................
Pictures never tell the right stories....
Okasan,
You're not ready to move out of this place
You could never make it on your own
You'll never survive in this world
I don't have the heart to say it
To say I've been ready for this all of my life
Yeah, it was just a matter of time
You're not gonna beg me to stay
But you'll rub it in my face
You'll point out all I"ve done wrong
I don't know what that's going to achieve
Except maybe lower my self esteem
Are you trying to break me before I leave?
Sometimes I just wanna scream out
Wanna scream out at you
That you were never perfect too
So don't expect so much more than I can really be
I'll be fine making do with what life gives me
Until then why don't you help me back to my feet
It's all I really do need
Will you be the one to cut the Strings
Look at what you've done to this heart
Do you see the scars running down?
Can you see the stab wounds you left behind?
This distorted organ still beats................
My broken body still lives
Yeah, this torn apart soul is still hanging from the threads
I'm just waiting for you to hand me the scissors for it.......
Daggers
It's a thorn in my heart
A pain I can't resist
It's deep within my soul
Didn't you know I'm a masochist?
I cry to feel the shame
I bleed to know I'm sane
I'm so messed up
But I'm not looking for a way out
I need to feel this pain
I deserve this abuse
Don't tell me otherwise....
Cuz it ain't no use....
Black and White makes Gray
We're so alike......
Yet so different
I wear my heart for everyone to see
While you hide your's in a block of ice
I'm still hoping.................
While you rely on your own dreams
I'm planning for the future
While you wait and see what the next day brings
You walk a path unknown to me
As I sit at my dead end..............
I'm an emotional mess
And you lack the feelings to understand it
Yet you always know what I need
Yeah, your always there for me
Your the blackness of the dark
While I'm the white of a fading light
But together we make...........gray.....
The Fall
Your whisper now a mere memory
Your touch a forgotten feeling
Speaking words upon deaf ears
As you reach out for something not really there
And I'm trapped inside my own misery
This numbness ebbs away
As the pain finally hits me
I'm being suffocated
As the chains wrap around my heart
Thorns peircing through my chest
But I bite back my cries
And hold back the tears
I force myself to smile
I make myself appear alive
Though death dwells inside
It's seeping through my flesh
The higher you fly
The more bones broken
When you come crashing down
And I came crashing down from such a height
This soul you'll no longer even recognize
Written for Katrina-Hurricane of Death
It started to flood
Water came up from the ground
The people in their attics......
They were starting to drown
Dead bodies floated by
Darkness settled in...........
As rain poured down from the sky
A graveyard of family and friends
People mourning the death of others
Such a horrible way to end
As Long as I Smile
This numbness has settled in
But I smile
I still smile for you guys
Why aren't I happy?
I'm loved
I'm so loved
Doesn't really matter anymore
Doesn't really matter at all
Now does it?
As long as I pretend to be happy.....
Everything will be okay
As long as I'm smiling
Everything will be fine
Let's just forgot about......
The problems in my head
My insides are screaming
As my heart bleeds to death
I'll tell you I'm doing great
I'm happy with what I decided
Don't you see this big smile on my face?
Ignore the crimson tears....
That leave these stains behind
Ignore the empty look in my eyes
That makes you wonder if everything is alright
Cuz I'm smiling aren't I?
I'm smiling...so it's all just doing great
Maybe I’ll come around in the End
This world was dark and empty
Till you shed your light on me
You’ve brought feelings back
That I had thought to be dead
And emotions………..
I could once only phanthom
Though sometimes I will want to run
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