My heart and soul by Becca A (audio ebook reader .txt) 📖

I wait in darkness
Alone
Waiting for the darkness to engulf me once again
Everyday
Every night
Sleep fails to come

But darkness is now always bad
Sometimes its good
It can hide my tears
The ones that have fallen thought the year
They fall because of life
The life that is sad and unjust

Other times I go searching through the night
Looking for the light
Other times I sit and wait for it
When it comes I can only think
and think
and think
Thinking is a very powerful thing
The more you think the more you know
The more you know the more you realize
That your friends
Only hope for you
To choose not to stand alone
Anymore


We cry when were happy,
We cry when were mad,
But what about when we're sad?


I’m smiling on the outside,
Dieing on the inside
I’m brave on the outside,
Falling apart on the inside
You ask what's wrong,
then that’s that
Just because I say I’m fine
Doesn’t give you the right to believe me


My heart stopped when you died
I couldn't breath
Couldn't speak
Some say
I am just grieving
But I know I'm dead
Because I know
That I don’t exist without you


I can smile
I choose not to
I can laugh
I rarely do
I can cry
I already am for you


Running to my dreams
Is the only possible way to escape reality
Running for real
Is only running for your life


Tick-tock
Life is slowing
Time is stopping
Pain is the only feeling


You come to me running free
Laughing lots
You smile
I smile back
You make me see everything brighter
I’m living for the first time in a long time
When I cry
you can stop the tears
and make me laugh
But then I start to think about
When you'll finally leave me
But I push the thought aside and love just as freely
as you chose to run to me


Snow is falling
I am walking
Forever is that snow falling
Forever am I walking
The snow seems soft
But its not
Its stings and burns,
Turning my skin red
How long can I walk
Until I find it?
It would be
safe
Warm
Forever loving
Or will I fall with the snow
before I can find my home?
Forever is the falling snow
Forever am I falling with it

The snow still falls,
All around me now
Forever is that snow falling
Forever am I falling in it
It buries me
Warms me
I once thought it was an evil thing
Now I welcome it
Its not my home, but it can do for now
Until I leave forever
Until I leave with the falling snow
Nothing is forever
Nothing can ever stay
No one is that clever
To be able to live forever


Heaven or hell
That is what we know of
Heaven or hell
Is where we expect to go
When we breath our last breath
And let our soul go
What if there is not
A heaven or hell?
What is we are left to wander
What if there is nothing,
And we lose everything
Memories
Loved ones
Everything
What if there is a Heaven and Hell
But another place too
The in-between
Is where some want to be
Not up high
In the clouds and light
Or way down below
In the fire and earth
The in-between
Staying in the middle
Not ready to give up on the life
We lived
In the middle between gone and staying
But no one would see you
Unless they too, are in the middle
You can see the live ones
But they cant see you
But everything is perfect
You can have anything you want
Except the people you loved in the before life
In Heaven and Hell,
and even the in-between
We lose them


Disaster
Confusion
Everything is whirling around at once
I cant grab hold of anything
The one moment
That one twitch
That one death
Brought this all on
Everything is flying past,
Cant grab hold of one thing,
One thing to keep me sane
Dizzying
Painful
That is what it feels like
Other than that,
I cant think
My thoughts went crazy when it happened,
I cant even cry for you,
Because I cant get a hold of the feeling
I know your gone
But I see you
Right in front of me
Frowning,
Trying to calm me
But that’s not you,
Because you are right in front of me
In the black casket,
Dead


Crying out in pain
My heart is broken
Shattered
I clutch on to you
Its all my fault,
I should have done something different
Its too late,
I see the life dimming from your eyes,
You smile through the blood
Your eyes twinkle, one last time
Just for me
Three last words,
And that’s all it took,
For me to loose it
'I love you'


Shining through the clouds
After the storm
Is what I need right now
I need that light,
To brighten this moment
Just for us
Just for me
Just for you
Crying is going all around,
I know she’s dead,
But she wasn’t my sister,
She was your’s
I cant cry
You hold back your tears
I can still see it in your eyes though
You want to cry
I want you to
Because I know it would make you feel better
I squeeze your hand,
Reassurance
Fake smile
Now though,
Right now
I let you cry
I've never seen you cry
You don’t change
Its silent tears
They stop,
And we see her again,
Once more
And your sister has come back
For a proper goodbye
And she is that light
I thank her for saving you

Text: dont steal any poems, at all, they are mine, and I would appreacite it if you could not copy it to anything else. If you want to, ask me first, with a ligit excuse, thanks a bunch
Publication Date: 10-14-2011

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