Just. . .live by Aruna Nightfall (black authors fiction .txt) 📖

“Painting is poetry that is seen rather than felt, and poetry is painting that is felt rather than seen”

- Leonardo Da Vinci


Black

"Plea of the Lonely

"

Cold and distant,
so afraid of what I need and wish to say.

The words are there but won’t come out I feel so angry
I’m full of doubt.

My head says no but my heart says yes,
I really don’t need this stress.

But every night I lie awake
and pray the lord my soul to take.

Because I’m alone and scared and so unprepared.

For this life in front of me,
I need space and time to breathe.

I need someone to help me through
cause I don’t know what to do.

If you read this someday soon,
please help me through.

Because my head says no but my heart feels it’s right,
I need you to hold on to me tight.


"Flightless Bird

"

Sadness, fear,
Hurt, despair
I try to make you happy,
Do you even care

I want to put a smile
In place of your frown
So i keep on trying
But you push me to the ground

I wonder around in circles
Like a bird that's lost its way
Everyday its trying
Trying to get away

From your cold hands
The shackles and the chains
Slowly loses its mind
Going deep insane

Still it keeps on trying
Trying to make it right
Flutters its tiny wings
Reversion, all in spite

Finally the heartbeat falters
Losing its last breath
I tried to make you happy
But it ended in my death


"Paradise

"

The cold wind wraps around my like chains
I stare off distantly at the lifeless waning moon
I brake through my shackles of imprisonment
Yet am I truly free from this hell we call earth

I look to the darkness of the glowing night sky
Stars shine down upon the grave on which I stand
And I carve my name into the smooth tombstone
Hoping that my Death will be my only freedom

I take a last look at the full moon above my grave
And whisper a silent prayer into the chilling night
I take out my knife and touch the worn silver blade
Falling to my Death surrounded in a crimson paradise


"Up and Down

"

Build me up then cut me down
I see you laughing all around
All my pain’s what brings you joy
You’re the child and I’m the toy

Build me up and cut me down
Can all of my tears make me drown
I think the answer may be true
I never found my way back to you

Build me up then cut me down
Now I’m lost and can’t be found
Six feet under, maybe ten
That was now and this is then


"Oblivious

"

I walk alone in an oblivious world.
No one knows who I really am.
I struggle with who I am and who I’m supposed to be in the eyes I see.
Nothing in this world is real.
Everyone hides what they truly feel.

If only everyone stopped living in the shadows of their minds.
Would the world really change at all?
Our world is destined to crumble and fall.
I wish that I and everyone else could say how we feel.
To live in a world that’s actually real.


"The World

"

In a world of desperation, I’m out to seek the truth.
But where is truth, can I find it in you.
In each day I wonder, in each day I dream,
I search for something that I will never see.
Every day I wish, every day I wait,
Is there any love in this world so full of hate?

In a world of war, I look into the faces.
Of children on the streets, who walk in dying paces.
Homeless without faith, and not an ounce of hope.
Is there any way, for all of them to cope?
This is what’s alarming, to see inside a country.
God, can you get this world out of the heart of Purgatory.

In a world unknowing, I look into the past.
I look at all the wars that didn’t seem to last.
In a world that’s torn, I look to the families.
The ones who have the loved ones, in the another country.
These people hope, and these people pray.
That the war will end, each and every day.

In a world of desperation, everyone seeks truth.
Everyone seeks peace, and everyone seeks love.
That is what’s important, for everyone to see.
I hope you will remember, this message is from me.


Gray

"How I Really Feel

"

Shattered, broken
Dying with words unspoken
Wishing i could run away
Wake up to a brighter day

I put on a face
Stand in my place
Pretend I'm alright
When everything's wrong

I want to let go
Be free of all this
You don't even know
Half of the shit

I wipe away tears
I wish i could drown
I'm tired of life
I'm tired of here

Leave me alone
But please don't go
I'm so confused
help me through


"Through These Eyes (Part 1)

"

Looking in my eyes
What do you see?
Do you see the mask?
Or do you see me?
Do you see love?
Or do you see heartbreak?
Do you care about the cost?
Or everything at stake?
Do you see my heart?
Or how it’s broken and shattered?
Do you see how it loved?
Or how it got so tattered?
Do you see me and you?
Or do you see you and her?
Do you love me?
Or is it her you prefer?


"Through These Eyes (Part 2)

"

Looking in you eyes
This is what I see
I don’t see a mask
I see the real you, like me
You do see love
Not the heartbreak
You don’t care what’s the cost
You know what’s at stake
You know it’s your heart
That was also broken and shattered
You know how to love
Although you’ve been tattered
You see me and you
Not you and her
You do love me
It’s me you prefer


"Knowing You

"


I want to look into your eyes, but I don’t even know you
I want to hold your hand, but I don’t even know you
I want to hug you, but I don’t even know you
I just want to hold you, but I don’t even know you
I just want kiss you, but I don’t even know you
I just want to touch you, but I don’t even know you
I just want to love you, but I don’t even know you
I just want to know you, that’s all I can do


White

"My Favorite Place

"

My favorite place is in your arms,
Where you will protect me from all harm.
Across the seas we may go,
Or in the midst of fallen snow.


My favorite place is with you,
Together we can make anew.
Through all the hardships in the past,
You and I got through it fast.


My favorite place is in your heart,
Whether we’re together or apart.
I will love you forever it’s true,
My favorite place is with you.


"Stars, Moon, and Sun

"

I see the starlight on your face,
It sparkles and dances with such grace.
So delicate and yet so frail,
And as soft as a kitten’s tail.
So smooth and warm I can only love,
That God has sent you from above.

I see the moonlight on your skin,
Open your feelings; let me in.
As we kiss I want to know,
If you’ll leave me all alone.
Or will you stay and take my hand?
As we walk upon the sand.

I see the sunlight on us both,
As we stand and take an oath.
We each stand to say, “I do.”
I know this is love, and it’s true.
And to this day we’re still together.
Here and now, and forever.


"Subliminal

"

Grains of sand woven in time
The taste of your lips is sublime
Your breath that tastes so sweet
How do you sweep me off my feet?

Cold as stone yet the warmth I feel
Sometimes I wonder if this is real
You cradle me in your arms gently
You kiss my lips so very sweetly

Why are you still with me here?
I hurt you, and the ones I hold dear
You embrace me still with open arms
But still I’ve caused you so much harm

I know you love me I love you too
We both know it’s amazingly true
So kiss me more my lover, my friend
And know it’s the beginning not the end


"Beauty Is...

"

Beauty is in the rain that falls down
Frozen puddles on the ground

It’s in the cooling autumn breeze
Ruffling the red and golden leaves

It’s in the sand upon the shore
Waves rippling to the core

It’s in the shining silver moon
Sun rays peeking in at noon

It’s in the wolf crying out her song
Knowing that she belongs

It’s in the song inside your soul
Letting free, just lose control

It’s in the glowing of your eyes
Like sparkling stars in the night sky

It’s in the passion of a kiss
A night of loving bliss

It’s in the fires of the heart
True love never to be torn apart

Beauty is in everything you see
But most importantly, beauty is in you and me


Here and Now

"Just Live

"

Through darkness, we descend shadows of evil and reach the highest peak of all around us.
We fall downward into nothing, spiraling to no end, caring not whether we live or die, as long as we have each other we’ll survive.
Oceans of times past engulf our souls, wondering whether or not to scream out in agony.
Enduring the pain, longing for more until it seems as though our hearts will burst.
Through the cycle, the rain washes away all that has been and will be.
The thunder and lightning clash, dancing through the sky, lighting the path less traveled.
Take my hand and never let go, you know I’m here for you and always will be, no matter what we may face.
Kiss me as though the stars above have no name and the moon does not exist.
Love me as though there is no time left in this world around us.
Be here for me when I cry my tears and face my fears.
Pretend that there is nothing but you and me, no war, no pain, no misery, just our love.
Let it be enough to stay with me until my last breath.


Just……live.