Poetry From The Depths Of My Mind by Angela Wheeler (distant reading txt) 📖

As I sit; I shudder from waves of wonder.
That flow from the depths of my mind.
I'm lost in the concept of affection; a simple suggestion,
Rises so high when the airwaves sliver by.
I stumble from my stance, when he chances me a glance.
I am ever reminded of what i've been through.
Love, Lust, and awkward forms of trust all swirl inside my head...
Alone I lay in my bed, as the overwhelming sense of dread mists over my field of dreams. Behind closed doors I cry; because tears from the eyes are nothing more than blood pouring from wounds unseen beneath my skin. I try to seclude the pain inside of my heart and behind my eyes. But, it radiates from my soul, no matter how hard I try. I am doomed to be a loner forgotten with only a blink of your eyes.

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Disgraced by feelings
Trying to forget the past is real
The scars will fade
As will the charade…
The wall has been drawn up
And the gates locked shut
Looking to the sky for answers
Nothing is beyond the dawn
Nothing shows behind the mask
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Broken Heart Starless Sky
I never wanted to say goodbye,
I miss you already with my all,
And i don't have anywhere else left to fall...
I had never felt that way before, and now I never will anymore.
I feel so poor, with no more...
Just waking up in the morning is such a chore.
Chores are now my life,
I won't be anyone's wife, No one to love me and no one to care.
Life and love has never been and never will be fair.
I wanted someone to share the "good" times with
But, i guess it's okay to be alone because
"good times" i have none
And before my life is done i just want to say i hope your having fun;
Because unlike you I have no where to run

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I Do Love You No wait... That's all a lie!
After all of the stuff you put me through...
Why do we feel and fall that way, Oh why???
I have decided to really Hate You!!!
We live our lives from day to day and on.
I do not know what to do without you...
Why is every day an old song...
I don't even think I could make it through.
Wait, What was I saying??? That is NOT true.
I do love you, and i don't want you gone.
Please, Oh, please say we can start out now, new...
I wouldn't give you a million to one!
Why were we fighting???
I don't understand...
Everything had gotten way out of hand!!!!
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I thought I loved you at the start,
You faked every way to mend my broken heart.
I thought you were my friend,
But now those thoughts will end
I gave you chances and choices more than you can see.
But in the end I only hurt me...
Falling Out Of Time, Nothing even seems to be mine.
It's not that I don't love you,
But it is like nothing is ever true.
I don't know what to do.
We have been through trial and temptation time and again.
But now I know you will never again be a friend.
I loved you, gave it all to you
and really was true.
But now we can't be.
As if it ever could, although I know it should.
It can never be the same.
And in time you won't even remember my name.
Years of experiences are changing before my eyes
I don't even know why anyone tries
I promised to be here for you no matter what
But that was before you got caught
A complete three sixty change of person i never thought possible
They will not stand by you, let alone be there for you when you really need it.
I would have before tonight.
Tonight you ruined it all,
You lied to me and made my heart fall.
Love has torn me apart before.
I was just trying to save you..
But now I think i'll let them hurt you,
I'll let them trample on you...
And when you see you are all alone except for me
I will be gone

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Wonder


I know this boy; I don’t think he likes me
How can I show him how I feel inside?
Would he… or could he ever even see,
I wish so much that we could coincide.
He won't talk to me very much at all…
I think I might need him more than I know?!?
I am trying very hard not to fall …
I think I am going to say hello,
Just to see if I can be able to.
Oh wow, I think I really can do it!
This may be changing into something new.
This is something I, really should admit…
I guess can be better than what’s thought.
Never say never, just give it a shot!!!
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I met this boy one day…and little did I know he would be the best thing that has ever happened to me!
He looks like a man from my dreams and he is just as wonderful as he seems!
He calls me the way he treats me, Angel…
There is no way I could be able to make it without him!
He is my life and I hope, one day, to be his wife!
He has been there for me every time I needed him!
And not only is he my love, but one of my best friends!
And I know he will be there for me until the very end!
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Love, Lies, and Despair

Forever and always here just like this
To be held in your arms is amazing!
Like a never ending field of pure bliss…
When you’re around my mind begins hazing.
The thought of losing you is always there…
But I don’t want to think that could occur.
I do not want this to end in despair!!!
Although I can see your eyes shift to her…
I do not know what to do anymore…
Why, such a love left to be forgotten?
Without you I feel very lost and poor,
I can not believe that you were rotten!
Lost in forever, no, never like this…
It has all ended with that one last kiss!

Publication Date: 03-21-2011

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