My poetry. by Elizabeth Taylor (summer books .TXT) 📖
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You try to hide it
But I can see it in your eyes
You try to blink away the tears
No one can hear me scream
It's like I have no voice
No one even cares
I feeling so small
It's like I have no power at all
No one see's me anymore
Why can't I just shut that door
There is no light in this hallway for me
No light by which I could see
I draw my art upon my skin
Stained by blood is my sin
It's to hard to let go
In this cold cold snow
I swear I've screamed till my throat burns
But still no head turns
I forgive to easy
And when I do I get a little queasy
People say the good die young
But the bad die old
When can I be forgiven
I'll just disappear like a magician
Some people think I'm an angel
But in my head I am a devil
I just want to run away
Run away from the person I'm supposed to be
They all try to save
Save my soul from the beast inside me!
But in reality no one cares
No one tries to make any repairs
On my fragile broken heart
The heart that supposedly split a part
My art work isn't the best
I have this heavy weight in my chest
People think I'm a great artist
But I really think it's the hardest
In my family I'm in the middle
But I feel younger like I am so little
Some people secretly think I am a vampire
Probably because I hide from the sun
I only hide because I don't like being tan
I would rather be pale like a man
Again I say my drawings are kind of amateur
He says to himself, "I can never be good enough for her!"
But in reality I can never be good enough for him
Even the thought is grim
I try to laugh away the pain
But it just comes back through the rain
There is nothing left to hide behind
The love I have now is just plain blind
Not him, but me
I am just a jealous devotee
All the water around me cuts off my air
The signs around the lake of life say beware
But I ignore all the signs and just float right in
Now I am not eating and am way to thin
People who care tell me if I fall they will carry me home
But these days what do I call home
Is it my grandpa's house
Or is it my friends
Maybe my dad
But of course I can't go to my dad
He just makes me down right mad!
Mad of stuff he says to make me sad
No one listens when I talk
I walk right up and knock
"Hello?" but no one is there
Why should I even care?
Good bye or hello?
of which to say I don't know
Good bye to my old happy life
or Hello to my new dark side?
Smile or Die
I have no clue which to do
Smile fakely for the rest of my life
or Die in agony from suicide?
Love or Hate
I can't tell which is easier
Love everyone including your enemies
or Hate everyone even those you love?
Cry or Lie
so so difficult
Cry, let everyone know I'm not ok
or Lie say I'm fine but break inside?
Smells
What really are they
you would think you know
I that that I love people smells
like my boyfriend
or you would like how your parents smell
my boyfriends smell is very distinct
at least to me
I try to smell others
but his scent is to strong
it's like it's trying to strangle me
so I sleep
I still can only smell him
I could be miles away
and still have his scent
inside my nose
there is something wrong
the smell is burned into my nose!
All my tears subside
All my pain flares
My wrists and legs are on fire
Or at least that's how it feels
I want to someone to scratch
But no one dares scratch for me
It pains their souls to see me this way
But for my sake I shall stay
There is limited time left for me
Left on this earth for me to dream
I try to love but feel so lost
I try no matter the cost
few people know my problems
my closest friends hardly know me
I don't wish to trust others with my heart
so I am split apart
split from society
for this last time in eternity
I say, please help me!
I'm a runaway
I'm an orphan
people tell me to stay
that I can fit in
but I run
because that's what's meant for me
I like to shun
keep people away from the beast I'm meant to be
love is just a fairytale
I tell myself that
but how can it be
when I have met my soul mate
it pains him to see me this way
if I do it he will to
I can't let him though
I'm a runaway
I shut people out
they try to pry in
but I'm closed up tight
they ask buggy questions of me
but in reality
I'm just a runaway
Sadness is the water
That the ocean spills out
Every tear we cry
All your wishes to die
You cry behind locked doors
Wishing to end the suffering
Hoping someone will come out
To show you they care
But no one will show their face
Only because they’re afraid
Afraid to end up like you
In a world of shame
Care can be shown
Through the love that we share
Though every waking moment is spent
Wallowing in despair
Heart of Ice
My father has no heart
if he does he does not show it
It's hard on her
To know my father
he threatens her and beats her
Till she lies still in her pool of blood
He takes away her family
And her courage is running low
She can not tell me
or he would know
I've tried to keep her safe
But ended up getting myself hurt
No one could possibly know
How it feels to be an outsider
Especially in your own home
No one understands the pain
That goes along with divorce
No one understands the pain
of a broken heart
Until it tears you apart
Crying everyday
Until you fall astray
No one will care
Not a single soul
They will just stop and stare
Like you are a freak show at a circus
On display for all to see
And that is why
My father has no heart
AntsAnts
So similar to me
Afraid of nothing
Yet scared of everything
Paranoid?
Only to see death coming
Humans?
A total new concept to me
Picking you up only to torture you
Showing everyone your flaws
As if you don't already see them
So you cut till you feel no more
Then someone notices the scars left behind
And they worry
They can't eat or sleep until you're fixed
Then they stop caring and you break all over again
No one comes along this time
And then one day it becomes enough
So one last final cut
But this time your throat
You leave everyone behind
They all say they've tried
But they didn't
And everyone you hated for making You cry
Is crying at your funeral
And you watch them
In all there agony
Everyone who ruined your life
Who drove you to the grave
All get torn apart and broken.
Just. Like. You.
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