Always by J .M. Rivers (reading rainbow books .TXT) 📖

FORBIDDEN

Stop

This is not the way

I didn't mean it

It was an accident

Not here,not now

 

Yes

Here and now

You are all mine

Body and soul

A deal was made

Now I'm here to collect

 

Please

Somebody will see

Hear me gasping

I cannot contain it

You're invading my space

Be gone before I cause-

 

Threat

You know better than that

I taught you how

Get it over with

We will see who gets out

Alive or dead

 

Disgust

That is all I feel

Leave me be

Worthless you are to me

Release me now

 

Liar

Even I know when you mean something

Drop the act and let me in

So deep that you cannot breathe

All the way until I imprint on you

The truth is what you want

Come and embrace it here with me

 

Enough

Your words do not-

 

What

Feel me there

Feel me everywhere

Call me babaric

I take that which is mine

And make it never want to leave

 

I won't

I am yours

Take me home

My home

Your home

Our home

STAIRS

Spiraling and twining

When will this end

My feet cannot take anymore

Up and down up and down

 

On and on we go

Caring not of the border

To fall would be torture

Bending the rules,you say

 

I need to stop now

Feeling nausiated

It's too high up

Need to feel the ground

 

No idea love could do this

Take you so high above

Beyond dreams and desires

Over all my troubles

 

It was the climb 

The sweat and pain

Despair looming

Random accusations

 

 

That brought

You home to me

We got through it

To get to the top

 

Dreams don't come true

For reality is much more real

There's no script to follow

Just pure raw emotions

 

I say that I hate you

Because I love you

Too much for comfort

For with you,I'm selfless

 

CONFUSION

 Confusion

 This is the basic ingredient in our daily infusion

Always with the unnecessary and sudden intrusions

What are you up to, who are you doing in seclusion

That's what society wants to know because of moderation

 

 Conclusion

The highest level we are able to jump without exertion

Hearsay from unreliable sources becomes our religion

No one is spared for everything changes after a mention

It can be positive and uplifting  or a great destruction

 

Realisation

Other people's opinions are just simple considerations

Their own personal thoughts in simplification

Each person has their own and they shouldn't be limitations

All can live in peace together free from pointless restrictions

I WAS THINKING

 I was thinking

Maybe we should go hiking

Be with nature,that sort of thing

Take dangerous selfies

Buy awesome souvenirs

Which we promise never to take off.

 

I was thinking

How about a night out in town

A movie,dinner and even dancing

There's a karaoke bar not far away

We could stop by before going home

We can pick a duet as long as we stay on key.

 

I was thinking

We should go to the beach

Feel the wind through our hair

Build sand castles and other things

Go for a swim or just run around near the shore

You could kiss me as the sun sets to make sure it wasn't a dream.

 

I was thinking

I should stop thinking and begin doing

I will take you out into the meadow

You will tell me what you see

As I turn you around and round

For I am blind and you have no legs.

SUNNY SIDE UP

Sunny side up

But my side is so dark and cold

Everywhere I turn all I see

The worst is the pain deep inside

 

Do you see their looks and body language

None can dare to be near me let alone speak

Nobody is an island? You haven't met me

I am an iron-steel fortress standing alone

 

Their taunts hurt me deeply

But you fight fire with fire to beat it

I call them battle scars for they get me through

Hooked on it like a drug I don't need cocaine

 

My happy place when the pain subsides

The emotional pain dies down as I close my eyes

I know I will open my eyes and the pain will return

This is not a solution but for now it's working

 

I retreat into myself for I feel alone

I didn't realise that I am my own worst enemy

All the taunts were bad but my mind reliving them was worse

It's like my imagination took hold making it seem like hell

 

As I walked alone I looked around through all my gloom

Everything was happy,normal,at least to me

I looked in the mirror and saw a broken person

One I couldn't recognize yet it was me

 

How is my prince going to find let alone recognize me

I look and feel like shit,who am I kidding

 

 

I want to live a long life and have a family

Have someone call me mom or dad while whining

Teach my child to ride a bike for I never knew how

Have a bond with them,watch them grow and be there for them

 

It hit me like a large boulder,this is my life!

You don't tell me how to live it cause it's mine

 I need to take control of my life right now

Make the things I want happen,for me,fairly

 

It is then that I came to my senses

Someone out there is just like me or worse

I need to help because they have no one

Now they will have me,I will fight not just for them but with them

 

I was born so as to enjoy life

Live it to the fullest

Make mistakes and learn from them

No one should stand in my way,I will not let them

 

Will you?

 

 

EYES WIDE OPEN

 I opened my eyes today

To the blinding light of day

It burned as I felt a ray

Invade my pupil and not go away.

 

So I decided to look around

I'm awake, my feet are on the ground

After all there's a lot to be found

If one simply didn't make a sound.

 

So much colour, wonder and beauty

How did I miss it,all this bounty

Enough for me, for you even your aunty

I want it all,I want it now,for all in my party.

 

Yes,I want to claim that great Grail

Although I'd really rather not break a nail

For I am not strong but a bit frail

In addition, I might just go plain pale.

 

Success is never easy

Enjoying life around is never sleazy

As long as it's moderate;not too cheesy

Keeping sight of the important things which are free.

 

Open your eyes.

 

MY DEAREST LOVE (Chocolate)

His scent,so intoxicating
Just one whiff,and I am his
I ran my fingers,over his god-like body
Delicately,for fear that it's a dream

 

He's strong,always dependable
Won't bring me down,but to the highs of pure ecstasy
Nice and firm:I lick my lips,I can almost taste him
He teases me,I cannot hold on anymore

 

I make the first move,he wanted that all along
One taste,that's all it takes
I let out a long moan,trying to savour the delectable flavour
Before I know it he's gone,I feel bereft and angry

 

Why?! Why?!,was it me?
Did I come on too strong,push him away?
All that is left,his clothes with his scent
I want to weep,for a love that was gone too soon

 My dearest love, Godiva

EMPTY

Everything is falling apart

Why did you have to break my heart?

I thought we'd live and be a part

Of something true like pure art

 

See,I don't want to pull a cart

Full of dead dreams looking like a nut

For allowing myself to get hurt

But now I realise it was all an act

 

Lying to me 'bout where