Pages in my Life by Alyza A. (bill gates books recommendations TXT) 📖

Love Stranger by Alyza A.


I like you and that is what i want you to know,

It doesnt matter anymore if you don't love me for sure,

I am not expecting anything even a little thing,

all i want is to say how i cared for you till the end of the day,

If you don't love me in return i accept that rest assured,

I will let you go to the right person whom you love for real,

Even it means seeing you from afar together with your millions of roses,

I will take this pain because this is what i chooses,

it is much better to see you smile and not to suffer,

From a grip of the knife that I am about to lose my life,

Till I lose my sense, you enjoy every drop of my energy,

I know its already my end,

But even that means a lot, I appreciate how you cared for me,

Even in three days how much i was truly happy,

Unforunately it takes days, weeks and years to stitch my aching heart,

that i will deal soon that is already failing apart.



Misses You by Alyza A.


I was wondering a long time,

but don’t know the reason why,

am just so tired now,

like I was fed up so much,

I keep asking if i am worthy,

but i think i am almost ready,

think how hard it is to discipline myself,

making all my life so messy,

but things are already in track,

with the help of my lonely self,

I am not alone but feel so alone,

why? because i was missing someone,

that is far away and seem i am nothing.


Losing by Alyza A.


It really saddens me to here all the bouts and anger

but what made me feel bad is to here you cry in danger

I thought you are with me but all of the sudden you are far away

I wanted to hold you tight again but I guess it wont happen again

I trusted you, i cared for you but I guess you won't be back to see you through

Your a friend to me, a brother, a master but all of the sudden your a lost to me in forever


Passion of Rivalry by Alyza A.


anger had been set up,

but its a feeling of being mess up,

forgiveness may not be given now ,

but lies beyond a heart is a soft gentle echo that you can forgive her somehow,

yes, it hurts and the wounds cant be replaced.

But deep in your stoned heart the scars can be erase,

sorry can be the hardest word,

but it is the only word you should never fail to spoke,

cause what cures an aching heart,

Is the love and friendship to both of you,

that always has been a part,

its never too late because you can always go to a brand new start.


Heartless by Alyza A.


You can never have the power to be loved,

Once you never experience the hurt till you drop,

A bleed can be heal but a scar is always there,

You seem to feel the pain but you never seem to care,

All you wanted in life is to belong to someone you dearly hold,

Till you came to realize that he is not worthy to behold.


Where are you? by Alyza A.


I feel weak, every temptations that I seek

Is what makes me come and look for you

Worries is not the price for all of these tears

I just wonder where you have been

I think you just need your woman not me as I am

I accepted you as you are and I don't care if you think you are different from us

All I want is the real you and nothing less or more

I chose a different path to fulfill the happiness of others

Abandonment is not what I meant

This is also my happiness including you in my own world

Guess its too late then to bring back the past

You may choose them instead of having me as your best

I can't explain my feelings if it has been remove or not

But whatever mystery happening now,

All I believe are the happy times we are sharing our true smiles

Nothing can take that away from me while you're gone.


"Stalker" by Alyza A. (BloodyLai)


You were watching me day by day
As if I can hear footsteps before I gaze
I keep running back and forth away from you
But you keep me holding back to you
'Till my image in darkness had gone in view


I was looking for myself in this empty room
A mocking face lit up on a one full moon
I was terrified seeing you with those fangs you can't hide
Shouting in vain till my fears cannot be denied
Because I saw your true image on this cloudy night


I am trying not to be scared after all
Helpless because of my limited human actions
With just a stare in your eyes
I can't help myself to fall
Now I am trapped to you forever in this nightfall


"Worried" by Alyza A. (BloodyLai)

I was in pain not to be able to see you
Like all my thoughts are just for you
A numb on every step that I take
Is like a knife that will keep my life at stake

Have you ever thought of me?
Even in single moment without me?
If you only knew how I cared
Like a little child within a mother's care

I have always want you
Feel every kisses you've made
Is simply like a drug to me each day
How I wish you are here with me every night and day

A touch of your lips is like a fire
With every burning passion full of love and desire
But all I could do now
Is still wondering where could you be now?

Text: All poems that are written in these book originally belongs and created by Alyza A. Never Copy if its not your own works!
Publication Date: 03-07-2011

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Dedication:
this is dedicated to all people who give me much inspiration: My Mom and Dad Owek and Chris And you who is reading this :)