Hopeless Honesty by Alexis Wadden (ereader with dictionary .TXT) 📖

R.I.P

Rest In Peace

Rest in peace

Let the Silence drown you out

You are gone now

Your eyes no longer in drought

The way you went

Screaming out the name

No more hurt

No more gut wrenching pain

The tears you cried

All were lost when you left

The sanity that once was yours

No longer alive because of theft

Traveling the road to hell

Always be ware

The skies tend to darken

The innocent tend to scare

The pain you tried to hide

Beneath all the fake

Tore at you

Until your mind had an Earthquake

No more pain

No more sorrow

No more fear

No more tears for tomorrow

So Rest in peace, little one

The pain, the tears

The life you lived

Will now disappear....

 

 

Forever and Never

Forever and Never

Walking down the hall way

I see all the smirks

I think it's time to just give up

I think that's how it's supposed to work

They laugh at me because I'm different

Yet I look and sound just like them all

I guess they don't like the real me

But why do they make fun of me from Fall to Fall?

I try to smile

For all my real friends

But they know I'm close to giving up

They know I'm close to the end

To hide the pain under false smiles

Is something I cannot even attempt

Because all it does it show defeat

For this, I am held in contempt

I'm done with all this fake

I'm letting go

This is goodbye

Don't wanna be here no more......

Don't you dare

Don't you dare

Don't you dare show the tears

Dont you dare show your fears

They'll eat you up alive

If you hide, you're happiness will arise

Don't you dare

Don't show you care

Don't let them see you break

Don't ever admitt you're mistakes

Live as hard as you can

Always try to understand

People don't like the real you

Hell, they don't like any of you

People love the fake

It's the real that they hate

And the real is you, so stop trying

Become just like them, and start lying

In the end, nothing matters

Unless you climb the popularity ladders

So read this and know

You're just for show

Once upon a time

Once upon a time

Once upon a time

A girl was all alone

She cried all the time

Her sadness really shown

She always wondered if

Anyone ever cared

About the cuts on her wrist

And the feelings she couldn't share

She was lost in a land of sadness

Corrupt in a land of madness

She decided it was time to go

She let all of her mistakes and depression flow

Flow through the blood of all her anger

She knew that her life was in danger

She endangered her life herself

When she tied the noose to the top of the shelf

She wrote a letter to say fair well

Just know she's going to hell

So, after all the shit she went through

She always knew there would be a fee

The sad thing is

That girl was me

Butterflies

Butterflies

As I dream of broken butterflies

The pain reappears

Bringing back a flood of memories

And intensifying all my fears

I scream, cry

"Let me out!"

But no one sees or cares

No one hears my shout

Then I wake up

Soaked in a cold sweat

But little did I know

This nightmares' not over yet

I look into the mirror

To see a tear-stained face

But only because

I have fear stained in you place

I remember all of the lies

That were told to defy

The truth of how you felt

But you didn't have to try

You didn't have to try

To make things "okay"

Because all of the happiness

Left me yesterday

Angels to die

Angels to Die

Fly little angel

High above my head

You don't have very long

Before you're pronounced dead

The way you cry

When the midnight dawns

I can feel your weeping

Righting all my wrongs

The pain you feel

From all my mistakes

Less than one more breath

Before you break

Now you can take this life

That once was yours

And hide it in the darkness

Behind closed doors

Fighting to get out

Struggling to stop the tears

The hardest thing to do

Is over come your fears

Insane

Insane

Smiling to hide how I feel

All the pain is much to real

Crying, begging, screaming to get out

People say I will stop, but still I doubt

My wrists say thank you for all the pain

I'm not crazy, I'm mentally insane

My head hurts from thinking about it

But I have to, no way around it

Getting sick and tired of running around

But to restless to just sit down

I hate all the secrets and lying

Limitations of sanity I'm defying

I love the pain

I love the tears that fall heavy like rain

I'm addicted to the silence inside my head

My silent cries pronounce me dead

They try to find the real me

But she is gone, cast out to sea

By all of the pain

And they always told her that she'd gain

All she gained was more tears

All there was left was more fears

"This is it." She said

This girl I'm talking about, is now dead.

Un named

Un Named

Sadness, fears, cuts, fears

No one knows the truth

This side of you is hidden

HIdden under the heavy clothes and artificial smiles

Fuck the world, don't care what they say

The world is a very sick place

Scream, don't run

Don't let them scare you off

Show them your strong side

And smile for their sakes

No one needs to know

That the smiles are actually fake

So stand up, love, be strong for me

Be happy and end this misery

She

She

She can't continue this lie she's living

She can't explain why we're covered in sin

She doesn't kknow how we can live these fake lives

Even after you sent your heart breaking spies

They haunt her in her sleep

They taunt her in her dreams

How does she stop the maddness from seeping in?

No one dies from suicide

They die from the monsters inside

Made from the pain the that won't subside

Because in no one she can confide

THis headache from failure has her down

Has her almost 6 feet undergrund

She could feel colors and taste sounds

Was this love that she had found?

SHe smiled when he was around

When he left, her expression was back to a frown

No one knew that her smile was her crown

She only wore it when her heart was space bound.