To My Fellow Travelers by CornFed (list of e readers TXT) 📖

You are not in control of your life.

Get over it.

It doesn’t make you a puppet on a string. It makes you super, great, fantastic, and with the capability of living life like no one else could ever live it. You were made as you were and the only thing unique about you is what exists deep down in you, your instance, your incarnation in this life.

God does not make mistakes.

If God does make mistakes or if you feel that God has made a mistake with you, then pick a different god.
Think on a New God.

Feel on a New God.

Ask a New God to guide your thoughts.

Turn your every moment over to this New God.

Open your eyes to the life this New God can, and will, present to you.

Trust this New God to do all things for you that you seemingly cannot do.

As I heard in church a long time ago…

”We are full of problems.”

And that poor preacher man had it all wrong.

We make mistakes, we are full of problems, but only from the outside looking in. From the inside looking out, these mistakes and these problems are but means to an end, an end to show us who we really truly are. And you really truly are something special, something great, something worthy of knowing and being known.
You are an individual incarnation of Your Maker, Our Maker, My Maker.

But we screw it up so so well. We try to “be this” and “be that” and feel compelled to “enjoy this” and “be grateful for that”. I cannot tell you how many homeless people I have met who were grateful for the handout of 5 bucks I gave them. They, we, all of us, are worth so much more than that.

But we accept 5 bucks. I would have gladly given 50 if asked or if he felt himself worthy of more.

Imagine what Your Maker would give?

Would you think me queer for saying Your Maker has already given it?

You just haven't been able to accept it yet.

We rely on outside opinions, chemicals, and viewpoints to help us fight the battle of what we truly want, of what we truly desire, of who we truly are. No one I have ever met, who truly let go of all outside influences, ever really wanted a life of poverty and lack, misery and loneliness, sickness and despair, unfulfilled dreams and desires, doubt instead of faith.

But they got that. They inadvertently asked for that because that was all they knew.

Or, rather, that is all they thought they could have.

It’s amazing when, in our quietest moments, the truth and the honesty of what we truly want come to light. The only real devil, not the horned kind, is that there is a wily creature that inhabits the ramblings of our minds, and the minds of others, to intrude on that which is perfect for the each of us.

And here comes the paradox of knowing one thing and living another.

There is more to life than God and that missing link is you. We were built to fill a gap that no one else can, in our own special way. But we have to let go of that which binds us. And the only thing that binds us is our illusion of control, the illusion that we must alter ourselves in order to fulfill some obligation or some will of a god, a moral law, a societal view, a parental figure, or a religious teaching that has been handed to us.

Our desires, our dreams, our insides tell the tale of our life ever so quietly but we are so hell bent on resisting it because we are concerned with what isn’t “right”, so concerned with fear of ourselves, so full of fear of God, so concerned with others, so twisted in anxiety, and keep dwelling on what doesn’t feel good or look good.

Stop the fight.

Don’t resist.

Be yourself.

Fully human.

Which is fully divine.

Inside, deep deep inside, we must put down our wishes and dreams. Don’t pretend they don’t exist but put them down. Don’t chase them. Don’t pursue them. Merely recognize them without fear or regret and let That which made you, as you are, pursue those dreams and those very natural inclinations on your behalf.

It’s what the Divine wants.

It’s what the real God wants.

It’s what the real God, the real You is.

It’s nothing more and nothing less.

It’s simply you being you without any strings attached and Your Maker being Itself with any attempts of control from you and me.

As if we could control God?

And here comes the scream I have screamed so many times, for so many years, in so many circumstances…..

“But what about my life? It’s so not what I want it to be! I want a new life. I want to change my life! I pray and I hear nothing but the sound of crickets chirping back at me. Silence. That’s all I get when I ask for things. Who stole God? I try to change things around me and I hit brick walls. I spend my day getting by with what I can and spend the rest wishing for something so natural to me. Why do others appear to be so happy with their life? Everyone tells me I have it better than most or that I should be thankful that I’m not a victim of some horrible disease. But that’s not what my insides want! Where is MY diamond?”

Stop the resistance.

I had to. It nearly killed me.

The only true, sincere prayer I have ever really truly prayed in my entire life happened on the day I decided to just give up. I simply screamed as loud as I could…

“Ok God, what about this life? Fix me or kill me. If I’m not dead in the morning, then I’ll be waiting to see what happens next.”

And the “next” start happening. And that’s all I can really say about it.

If God is truly God and you are truly perfect as you are, and you are destined to live a purpose meant for you and you alone, then everything in your life RIGHT NOW is designed to help you see that which you need to see, to put you one step closer to that which you need to be, and live the life you need to live.

And “need” is a bad word really.

It should be “destined” to live. No one is happy with the clamor a word like “need” puts on a person.

Here is an easy measuring stick…if you don't feel an undercurrent of guidance and direction, a sense of Something with you every step of the way, no matter your circumstances, then something is not clicking.

You are not letting go.

You are stuck in the mud because you are laying down mud on your path.

You are not participating in the journey.

Participate!

Utilize don’t analyze!

You “think” you know what you want. You "feel" you know what want. And that’s wonderful. Fantastic. Keep on thinking it. But there is only One Power. And until you and I stop fighting against this Power, nothing is going to pan out in a perfect manner. If anything, it may get worse until you let go.

Spiritual teachers abound, books of “the Lord” occupy many bookstores, writings and songs of the wonderment of God are so easy to find. Of equal ability to locate, are the books on what is wrong with us.

And the preachers who tell us we need to be saved or repaired.

We are already saved. We don’t need to be repaired.

We only need to let the Power do Its job.

Accept the gift of life; your life, this life, both now and forever.

Don’t resist what is “wrong” with you. Don’t be humble about what is “right” with you. Abandon the labels; abuse the privilege of being an eterntal entity of the Almighty.

Let go of everything; I repeat, let go of everything, and simply rest in the wonderful relaxation that even if you are living and doing right now that which doesn’t resonate with your most absolute potential and longings and desires, there is Something that wants you to live that life you long to live.

There is a reason you long for that life.

And the doors will open wide if you but let them.

And doors have a way of opening in an instant if required.

Or weeks and months later.

The timing is really dependant on our ability to let-go and trust and be okay with right here, right now.

Let-go and trust.

The strongest word combination ever.

No effort on our part.

Simply let!

And the Power will go.

And you will go right along with it because you decided to.

And you will find the Life has been there the entire time, waiting for you to just accept it with no effort.

The only problem is our ability to block off this wonderment. Our only defect, if there is such a thing, is our inability to let things be, let OURSELF be, and learn to simply flow with the Universe in whatever is in our life.

You yourself know what you want and desire when you strip away all outside influences. All those things in your head and environment that are a paradox to the life you so know you want to live, are simply there to refine the wonderment of yourself. Whether they are to help you see what you really don’t want” or rather they are to help you see more clearly “what you really DO want” is irrelevant.

It's irrelevant because you cannot be concerned with all the particulars all the time.

Your life, right now, serves a Divine Purpose. Let it be so.

There are only so many ways you can see what you need to see and your path is something that is unique to you. A banker will see the same Glimpse a waitress will see, but not in the same set of circumstances and not lived out in the same way. The prisoner, the drunk family member all are in the right place for their right time. They may be fighting something more beautiful and need a smack to see it.

It doesnt' matter.

The end result is always the same, if we would all just let-go and trust.

When one let’s go, one finds their place. People, places, or things that don't belong have an uncanny way of just leaving, sometimes immediately, sometimes slowly, but they will move on into their rightful place in life. And our place in this world becomes something absolutely special, no matter what anyone else says.

And all who let-go and trust end up at the same place. Peace with oneself and life and God.

God never had a bone to pick with us. God has always been at peace with us. It’s us