Falling Backwards by Sammantha Lewis (best motivational novels TXT) 📖

"Jolie, wait!" Branden yelled after me as I left his house. I turned around and smiled at him as he ran up to me. This was the last time I would see him before he officially moves for Organ.
"I've got to tell you something." He said breathless.
"Okay shoot." I told him.
"I like you Jolie, and not as a friend.I've liked you since Kindergarten." When he said this I could tell it took him every ounce of courage to say this. However my heart sunk.
"I'm sorry ,Brandon, but I like you as my brother ,not a boyfriend."
"So you wouldn't even consider it?" I hated my self for hurting him, but I would hate my self even more if I lied by saying I liked him to.
"I'm, sorry but I can't see it."
"I get it." He said trying to smile. I pulled him into a hug. I was revealed when he hugged me back.
"I'm really sorry. Your sweet but I'm not the girl your meant to make happy."
"I guess..." was all he said. I pulled away and kissed his cheek before I turned away. I turned around and waved at him before tuning to corner. I saw him wave back. That was when we were thirteen.
Four months later... well I'm almost sure that was the absolute worst night of my life. I laid in my bed as I tossed and turned, trying not to think about Brandon, and just fall asleep. It has been like this for months since Brandon left. I picked p my phone and was going to call him like I always did when I couldn't sleep, but then I remembered that I broke his heart and now he's 700 miles away. I felt a stray tear roll down my cheek. I have always been an easy crier. I curled up into a ball an stared at my screen-saver. It was a picture of us at school. Now I was really crying. I missed him so much it hurt. I clenched my phone in my hands and stared bawling. I hurt him so much. He looked like I just killed his dog that day I left. What made it worse is I acted as if him saying he liked me wasn't a big deal. Why couldn't I say I liked him too? My eyes shot open when I realized what I just thought. I like him. I really really like him. I might even love him. Shit! What have I done? I just told my first love he's my brother. I flipped open my phone and dialed his number. I don't care if he's sleeping, this is pretty important.
"Welcome to Verizon wireless. The number you have reached has been changed-" I slammed the phone shut. He changed his number. Now what? That was my only way of reaching him. He didn't even call to tell me his new number. Then again why would he? I was the bitch who stomped on his heart. Now I really wish he was here. What hurt even worse is he might have gotten a girlfriend by now. Shit! I really screwed up this time!

I ran down stairs the moment I turned my alarm clock off. It's been four years since he left and today he was moving back. I ran into the kitchen and say my dad making breakfast.
"Hey girly. Why so happy?" he asked. I stared at him wide eyed. was he serious? Iv'e been counting down the days since mom told me Brandon ad his family were moving back to town. I'm going to tel him that I like him just like he does.
"Hmm.... let's see. How about the fact that my best friend since dipper days is moving back today?" I asked rhetorically. My dad laughed.
"Yup, I would be bouncing off the walls too." He said. Just then my mom walked into the kitchen.
"Mornin'. Jolie by the way, were going over to the Martin's for dinner tonight. Do not and I repeat do not forget." she said. How could I forget? I want to go over there right now! I nodded and then focused on the pancakes my dad laid in front of me. Right after I took my last bite, my phone rang.
"Hello?" I said with my mouth full.
"Ewwww! talk to me after your done chewing!" She yelled into the phone. It was my best friend Carmen. I swallowed and said,
"Okay, so whats so worthy of you calling me at eight in the morning?" I asked her. She laughed and started talking,
" I wanted to know if you could spend the night. Plus I have someone I want you to meet." She said.
"Sorry but I'm going over to Branden's for dinner."
"Your going to Organ?" she basically yelled I'm going to-.
"No. He moved back so tonight were going over there." I looked at my parents and saw that they were listening to every word we said. I got up and put my dishes in the sink and then went up to my room.
"I'm going to tell him." I told her. She screamed into the phone.
"Oh my God, Jolie! That's probably The cutest thing I've heard so far! May the force be with you!" Needless to say that Carmen was the biggest Star Wars fan know to man. I laughed and said,
"yeah well, I just hope he still likes me." I said.
"How long has he liked you?" she asked me.
"Well your chances are a billion to uno. If he has liked you that long, why would he had stopped?"
"Carmen, people can change so much in four years." I heard he sigh.
"Okay then. I'll let you go. Oh, and we'll just reschedule. I really want you to meet him." Wait what?
"Hold on! meet who?" I asked.
"Cole."
"and who's Cole?"
"My twin brother." she said.
"Your what? Since when did you have a twine."
"Since yesterday night. I guess when we were born my mom was so young that she wanted to give both of us up, but Grandma made her keep one. So he says he did some research and found mom. Now I have an older brother by eight minutes!" It was true Carmen's mom was sixteen when she had her.
"Yeah diffidently. Oh, and I'll tell you how it goes." After that we said good by and I hung up the phone. I laid there on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Ten hours, just ten hours and I get to see him. I wonder what he looks like? I hope he still has his curly ash blonde hair. I honestly hope he hasn't changed two much. Then again I'm a completely new person. Four years ago I was timid, soft spoken girl who rarely spoke her mind, and now I'm president of the photography/news paper/drama/art club who is well know for being a loud mouth and is on good terms with almost

everyone. I hoped up and did my daily routine. After that I grabbed my sketch book and camera and walked down stairs.
"Going to the park?" My mom asked.
"It's a Sunday mom. Of course I'm going." I told her. I walked out the door and headed towards the park.
I live in a small town called Ebanie Falls. It's a small town in California somewhere in the Sacramento valley. It's a quiet and friendly town where every one knows everyone. I love it here because t me it's perfect. It's not to big but not to small. It's big enough to have a mall, a few museums, several family owned restraints, and of course an amazing park. I also liked it here because there a trees every where. And now that Brandon is back... I might never leave this town.
I arrived at the park and went over to my usual bench by the lake. I took a photo of one of the row boats and ducks. After that I sat down and continued sketching an uncompleted drawing that I was going to use for the new mural at school. As I peacefully continued sketching a pair of hands covered my eyes. When they were removed I turned around to see Terrance, my vice president of the art club.
"Hey what are you doing?" he asked me. I lifted the book up to him to show him.
"What do yo think? It's for the new mural we're doing at school." I told him. He sat down next to me and sighed.
"As always, Jolie, what ever you draw is perfect." He said. I smiled at him.
"Thanks but it's not done yet."
"Aw shit! Way to set the bar, Jolie!" He yelled. I laughed and went back to drawing.
"hey, I've got something to tell you." He said.
"Alright. What is it?"
"I think I'm gay." He said. I turned and stared at him wide eyed.
"When did this happen?" I asked him.
"When I full on made out with a guy." He said.
"well, no offense but when a guy calls Adam Levine sexy, and then asks to barrow my clothes... I start to wonder. But good for you. I completely support you. " He laughed.
"Fist of all he isn't sexy he's sexy beyond comparison, and second of all you scarf are warm and adorable. How could I not ask? Anyway... I heard that Branden kid is moving back to Ebanie today.