love and modeling by Nerlanda t (smart books to read .TXT) 📖

My name is Rachelle Senora, my name used to be Nicole cook. My agent put it this way "wasn't chick enough" but Ruh-chelle is. What a joke I know, but that's what happens when you're a huge model in new york city. They scout you, exploits you, and you but by the end you're somebody known. I have been in every magazine known to men. my favorite though is vogue, when you're a model in new york city, you have limits to certain things. No boyfriends, curfew,No partying or anything that doesn't involve making money. Lets just say that the modeling life is not that glamorous. by the way I'm 18.

" get up Rachelle, get up!!" my alarm clock screamed. Apparently my agent thought it would be helpful to get a customized clock with her voice yelling at me to wake up. Bitch. " get up Rachelle" the clock continued, i took one of the pillows and hit the clock with it, sending it flying across the room.Total silence. With a sigh I got up and walked blindly to my bathroom. Today I was going to visit my family for a whole two weeks and i was so excited.

I said goodbye to my penthouse and got into the limo. The driver Mr."Good-shot" was my very nice friend. " so how are you ms.senora?" Good-shot asked. I smiled at him through the mirror, " I'm fine". We talked on the way to the airport about everything. Apparently G had a very interesting childhood. When we got there i was suddenly nervous. I didn't want to go back, so many things left unsaid and undone when i left. Going back would mean facing them, I was too cowardice to do that.

After going through security check, i went and bought me something to eat. After that I headed to gate 67A for my flight to North Carolina, I had two hours before the plane landed and I could board it. I sat down and opened my book and started reading. This book was about self empowerment, taking over your life and making right decisions. I didn't have any of that, I was anything but independent. Everyone had power in my life except me. I was staying in a hotel because i wasn't welcome home.

The plane landed after an hour and we boarded half an hour before time. I sat in first class, in the window seat. The flight attendants came around to see if everything was okay , they did the safety thing and asked all electronics off. I turned my phone off and relaxed. The pilot announced we would be on our way soon, i couldn't do this. My throat suddenly dry because I'm so scared. I had to go face him, it was too much of a small town,I was going to see him no matter what.

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It happened two years ago, I was 16 then and naive, but deeply in love. I was ordinary with natural flaming red hair, sea blue eyes, full pink lips and glasses. The only thing about me that was special was my 5'10 inches long limbs. I was athletic on top with average size boobs, toned arms and shoulders due to my swimming background but that was all. Then i met him that year everything changed. His name was Alec and in that year he became my everything. He liked me! the freakish tall girl, he had beautiful green eyes and pink lips. He was a dream I never dared to dream. And get this he was 6'2, with muscles everywhere that counted, leaned muscles not too bulky just perfect. When he kissed me it made me feel invincible, his kisses made me feel safe nothing could hurt me as long as kissed and held me that way. Then I was scouted by this agent and other dreams came true for me. I wanted this, wanted this so bad. So I got signed and i couldn't be happier but the thing is it was all a secret. It was a terrible feeling, we didn't keep secrets from each other.

That night I went to see him, it was almost dark and I passed the local pub heading to the boardwalk, our special place. When I arrived he was standing there looking beautiful. He turned to and smiled at me and took my breath away. " hi baby" He said. I hugged him and i could smell his cologne it was so good. " hi" i said shyly. We sat down and I suddenly felt nervous, but I had to do this.
" I'm leaving" I blurted out.His head snapped toward me. " what" he asked. " I'm moving to new york tomorrow and it sucks telling you like this because I love you so much" I said surprised i told him i loved him. He got up and so did I, he turned around and looked at me" you're leaving tomorrow and you didn't even tell me, where are you going" he demanded.He didn't hear what I just said, he was pissed off and I understood. "New york you see I got scouted to be a model and I want, I really want to go" I whispered looking at my hand. I was shaking from head to toe. " then go" he said walking away. " no" i ran up to him, he spun around to look at me. " didn't you hear what I just said I love you, please if you love me too don't let me go please ill stay and we can go to college and get married later like you promised, because you meant it right" I said uncertainly. " no" he mumbled. " no what" I said, I knew what he was saying but I didn't want to. " I don't love you, I don't want you to stay just go!! go!" he said. " what, you don't love...." I sat down and tears came out. I couldn't say anything, I was in so much pain. "I'm out of here" he said. No I wanted to say stay please don't go, but my voice was nowhere to be found. That day I lost myself and Alec. But i went home and left that night. All broken and sad, I cried the whole way on the flight to new york city. That day my life changed not for the better but not for the best either.

" Miss what would you like" I came back to the present. I was back in the plane and they were serving drinks. "ill take some water please" I croaked out. She nodded and left, I turn to the window and wiped my eyes. I wont cry over him, he let me go, he let me go i thought to myself as more tears came. I'm so stupid, hes the one that broke my heart, if he just said it back,me and him would still be together, I would not be here. I would have stay because I loved him and to me that was more important than some modeling career. It was all the past I had to forget all of this to move on.But I haven't, it's been two years since then, I still have his picture on my phone, how pathetic.After 1 hour and 47 minute I would be back in Beaufort Carolina. I drifted off to sleep.

<will be updated i promise:)>

Publication Date: 01-05-2012

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