never by cristal santos aka dancingmilklover246 (black male authors .TXT) 📖

December
“I love you” my cousin boyfriend breaths to me. I look up to his emerald green eyes. “Me too.” We only have time for one more kiss before we hear a crash downstairs and my cousin Natalie call us from downstairs. We pull apart and he hides in my closet right as she comes walking in. “have you seen Aiden?” I shake my head afraid that my voice will give us away. She growls and closes my door. Once we hear her run outside he comes out of the closet and hugs me. “I can’t wait to tell her about us. I nod and I feel him kiss my neck. I close my eyes and smile to him. How could I be so lucky?
 
Seven months ago. June.

“I really hate you boyfriend Natalie.” She looks over to me quizzical. “Why?” I shrug. “He’s so I don’t know cold to me. It’s like im invisible and even when noticed im like a waste of space.” She laughs her annoying high pinched laugh. “He’s cold with me too. He doesn’t even kiss me. Don’t you notice?” she closes her eyes and throws her head back her shoulder length black hair dyed blonde falls out of the messy bun. “Im so glad at least im stuck with marrying him and not Jonathan.” I cringe at his name. Our parents arranged married us and I was pared up with this stupid stuck up player named Jonathan. With his blue eyes and blonde hair captain of the football team, no girl has ever resisted him. That is until I came along. I look around and see Jonathan and Aiden talking. Jonathan. The captain of the lacrosse team. Stupid jock who thinks that with muscles you win the girls over. I cringe and look to his left at Aiden looking over to me. He juts stares at me until I flip him the bird and he looks back to Jonathan. “Why would you not date him? You two are perfect together your egos go hand in hand.” I grin my head cocked to the side. She glares at me and I just smile at her lightly. “Well he and I well were together a year ago at a party and then us drifted apart. I look at her. “Really. Hmnnn at least you aren’t evolved with him anymore.” I look at her, her blue eyes waver before nodding. “Oh yeah um of corse not – not anymore.” I raise my eyebrows. I hear her sigh as we sit in the car waiting for them to walk over.


Parking in the garage and walking up the stairs to the house I open the door and start walking upstairs when I feel warm arms slide around my waist. I sharply look to my left and there was Jonathans with a foolish grin on his dirty face. “Get off me and don’t. Touch. Me.” He chuckles. “Alright alright honey checks,” he strokes my check and before I had time to hit his hand away he steps down the stair. “You’ll come around my dear im sure.” I smile slyly. “And what if I don’t?” I put my hands on my wait. I see his smile turn into an ugly evil grin. “Then I’ll make sure you do” I gasp at him and I stare at him retreat. Fear shoots through me. He won’t do anything. Im sure he is just joking. I walk to my bedroom shutting the door behind me and locking in. just to be safe. I walk over to the window. I open the window and sit on the seat made into it. I look up to the sun and close my eyes the tears threatening to spill over. “Why did you have to die? Why?” I put my head back and take a deep breath. I feel the sun warming my face and I stay there for a moment and then got up I walked to my desk pulling out my laptop I began the process I called homework.
An hour into my math homework a knock at my door made me look up in fear. What if it’s Jonathan? I quickly ran over and heard a deep in breath from the other side. It was Natalie. I unlocked the door and open the door to see Natalie on the other side of my door. She had tears streaming down her blue eyes. “What’s wrong?” Natalie?” she walks into my room and sits on my bed, her legs crossed, her black heels hanging off her feet. “There’s someone else.” I look at her sitting down on the floor. “Wait what?” She sighs looking up to the ceiling. “Aiden. He’s in love with a different girl. He says that even though their getting married his in love with some girl yet I can’t know and ugh I can’t believe this!” she falls back her back hitting my dark purple covers. “What do I do?” I just shrug. “I- I really don’t know.” She sits up. “Why did I come to you? You are no help!” she picks up her cell phone and dials someone’s number, “who are you cal-“im cut off when she starts the conversation. “Hey Diana can I come over I have news.” She pauses looking at her nails before saying goodbye and ending the call. We sit in silence before she stands up and clicks away. She slams the door and I flinch at the loud noise. I sit there and I hear the car start downstairs and when I see the headlights hit my window and disappear down the street. I get off brushing off my jeans before looking towards the pile of books on my desk. I shrug. I grab my jacket sliding it over my shirt I grab my keys and head downstairs. Im determined to get out instead of do work all day and worry. I get into my car and back out of the driveway driving down Main Street I end up at the mall. I get out and go inside. I shudder when the noise from inside hit me. I zip my jacket up halfway up as the cold air hit my face. I walk to the coffee shop and walk into the dim lit area. I walk up to the counter my card in my hand. “Um a vanilla latte.” The person turns around and if you knew it, it was Aiden. “Coming up.” He does a double take. “Oh hello.” I roll my eyes. “Can you just get me my coffee?” He smirks. “Someone’s in a mood, and Weres your books?” I groan. He smiles and turns back making my drink. He passes my drink. I pay him and turn on my heel, walking to the back of the store I get a small two people table and take out my book. I open to my marked page and start reading. A few chapters in I feel someone’s presence with me and I look up to see that Aiden had joined me. He was sipping at a straw it smelt like, tea. He was staring at me and I feel my checks reddening. He smiles at me once he got my attention. “Hi!” I scowl. “You selfish basten. You know that you practically broke my cousin’s heart. Well even though shell get over it and you know fall in love with some dope from school she came to me crying. To ME. She never comes to me. Anyway why not tell damn girl. Let her get revenge. I mean you just broke your fiancées heart might aswel tell her who you’re having an affair with.” I look at him expectantly. Her smiles and leans forward towards me. “I can’t tell her yet. She hates me.” I nod. “So she’ll get over it-“he shake shis head his expression becoming somber. “I mean the girl. I haven’t started an affair. The girl – the girl im in love with hates me.” I stare at him. “Oh.” He shakes his head, his black hair falling in his eyes. I look outside and see something fall from a tree. I gasp and I know it wasn’t a place of a leaf. I get up and run outside grabbing my things. I run over to the tree to find a small bird lying on his back its wing blistered. I look at him and next thing I knew he was getting picked up. I got up and looked into aidens green eyes. He was heading back to my car. “Open it.” I do and he gets into the passenger’s seat. “What no, don’t you have a car?” he shakes shis head. “Nope Jonathans borrowing it.” I nod and start driving home. I look over to im at a red light and I saw him petting the bird holding its wing. My heart absolutely broke and when we got home he runs upstairs and throws a pair of shoes out of their box and tells me to hold the bird. “Very carefully.” I nod and try not to jostle the baby bird. I look over to him and I see him putting paper in the box and creating a small bed for it. I place the bird in it and he makes a small brace for his wing. All the while im sitting on my bed overseeing him. Once he fed it with a dropper her washed his hands and sat with me on the bed. I look at the box and smile. “That was sweet,” he chuckles. “Im naturally a sweet guy, but no one sees it.” I look down at him lying on my bed. “Why not?” he sits up and brushes his hair with his hands. “Um I guess they want me to be someone im not and I guess I have let myself be taken by the crowd.” I play with the edge of my shirt. “Oh, well you should be who you are, none else.” I hear him sigh. So im ready to tell you who I wish my affair was with. I laugh bitterly. “Don’t tell me go tell you girl.” He chuckles sadly. “She is not my girl. I don like her she hates me and im in love with you!” there was a silence after he spoke and then he stood up. Then sat down again. I can only otter a slight “oh” before his lips gently touched mine ad I ddit have time to react. When he pulls apart we hear the door downstairs start to open. He looks at me and runs across the hallway to his room. I run to my desk pretending to read. I hear him knock on my door and he opens it. But it’s not Aiden. It’s Jonathan. “So have you thought about it?” I nod and look at him. “No I will hate you forever more.” His face gets red and before I have a chance he is in my face. “You will love me. Everyone loves me.” I don’t flinch. I meet his stead gaze with beady eyes. “Im not everybody.” He growls and walks out of my room slamming the door behind him. I take a deep shaky breath and