Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (thriller book recommendations TXT) 📖

"Aahh.. Siddharth what the hell are you doing." She try to push me by chest.

But I don't give a fuck to her. I wanted to teach her lesson that she regret to touch me. I dig my nails to her thigh, make her whimper in pain.

"Siddharth..leave me, you are hurting me." She pushed me but I didn't dodge.

I bit her neck very harshly that she cried in pain. She started to cry and continue pushing me by my chest.

I was about to tear her clothes but someone pulled me back to her and punched me hard. I taste a metallic taste on my mouth. I trace a thumb on my lower lip and saw a blood.

"What the hell dude..you are hurting her." Nick said with an anger and pushed me back.

I came back to my senses. Jessica is crying sitting on couch, holding her neck where I bit her harshly, blood is coming out from her lower lip.

Guilt took over me. This is not me. I never hurt a girl in my life. I respect every type of woman. I wanted to apologize to her but word didn't came out from my mouth. I looked at Nick and he is looking at me with a disappointment mix with anger. I didn't say anything and walked from there.

I walked out from the club of it's back gate. I rub my palm in my face to calm myself and run my fingers in my hair. 
I got so frustrated. I'm looking her everywhere.

The back door of club is open and I heard a footsteps coming to me.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. This is not me. I don't know what happened to me. I can't control myself." I said to Nick. My back is facing to him.

"Do you still love her?" He asked me seriously.

"Whom..?" I asked turning to him.

"You know what I'm talking about." He said.

I didn't say anything and turn my head to other side.

"How long will you run from this. It's been two years now. You buried yourself in work to run from her. Why can't you just go to her and tell her that you love her." He shouted on me.

"It's not easy. She will never forgive me." I said, looking at him.

"Atleast give it a try." He said.

"You know what I did to her. I broke up with her just before a week of our wedding. I snapped out on her without any reason. I was acting like some responsible asshole. She was keep begging me not to leave her and what I did to her. I broke her heart." I snapped out him.

"Then stop acting like some heart broken Romeo. You have two options, go to India, ask her forgiveness and claim her as your wife or forget her and move on with other girl. I can't see you like this." He said angrily.

"I told you it's not easy. She is better without me. I hurt her a lot." I said looking at him.

"That means you don't love her. Because if you love her you will fight to the world for her. You never love her and you are right she is better without you because she doesn't deserve a coward. " He said.

"Don't ever say this I'm a coward and you know, how much I love her. She is my everything. " I said angrily to him and walked out from there.
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It's 2.00 A.m when I reached home. Everyone is sleeping in there rooms. I came to my room without any noise and went to washroom for a shower.
After shower I changed into my night wears.

I pored a whisky in a glass and drink it in a one gulp. I make myself another drink and drink it also in a one gulp. When I was satisfied, I put the glass on table.

I can't help myself to missing her. She is in my whole system. These two years stole my most precious things to me. Today I saw her in another girl. It become hard to live without her.

"Preeti..." I walked to my balcony and shouted her name, my lungs out.

I took a deep breath to calm myself. When my breath is normal I walked towards the railing. I put my both hands on railing and look at the full moon.

It's remind me the night when I and Preeti both sitting in her room's balcony, cuddling to each other. I miss to kiss her, to touch her, her voice. I miss everything about her.

"Bhayi...Are you Okey? " I turned back, when I hear Keerti's voice.

"I'm sorry I woke you up and don't worry I'm fine." I said looking at her.

"Stop acting like you are fine. I know you are hurt." She said. Tears is coming out from her eyes.

"Keerti go back to bed and sleep. It's late. Don't worry about me." I said turning to the balcony.

"What was meant to be done, everything will be the same if you want to."she said turning me to her by my shoulder.

"What do you mean?" I asked her.

"Go to India asked her forgiveness." She said in a shaky voice.

"It's not easy. She will never forgive me. I made her cry. I broke her heart. " I said.

"Atleast give it a try. She will definitely forgive you bhayi. I know her." She said.

"What if she forgive me..then what? She will never love me. I don't deserve her." I said. My heart suddenly beat faster and I felt a heaviness in my heart at this thought.

"..and how do you know that. You never know until you don't try. Promise me you will go to India and try to win her heart again. Promise me bhayi..." She said while putting my hand on her head.

"Swear on my head bhayi.." she said.

I look at her blankly. I don't know what to say but my heart say go to her and make her mine.

I can't live like this. I wanted ask her forgiveness. I wanted to love her, shower her with my love. Two years is enough for God for our love test. Now it's time to meet her and complete our love story.

"She is my life and I can't live without my life. I promised you to I'll go to India and try to win her heart again." I promised to her.

"I want only Preeti as my bhabhi.. Don't come back home without her." She chuckle softly. I chuckled too.

Get ready my love. I'm coming for you and this time I will definitely make you mine.
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