the death journal by Jazmin Huey (best summer reads txt) 📖

“What do you mean?”I asked
“Lexi, it’s so obvious he likes you,” she said.
“Yeah he likes me and he was the only one not drooling, well him and Jake that is. Either way he dose not like me,” I said. “Why do you ask? Do you like him or something?”
“No way he is like a big brother to me. Besides I go out with,” she began as her phone rings.
She looks at her phone and says “I have to take this.”
As I looked out the window I listened to her talk.
“Hey Jakey,” she said.
Jakey? OMG she can’t possibly mean Jake. Are they together of something?!?!? Ugh I hope not. Wait why should I care if they are together I don’t like him like that anyways.
She hung up and said “That was Jake, calling to check in on me.he wants to see me after we are finished.”
“Are you and Jake together?” I asked as calm as possible.
“yeah.” She replied with a smile.
Her smile was perfect. I could see why Jake liked her. She is nice once you get to know her. She is like a fashion expert. I wonder why she wears so much dark clothes if she is so colorful. Jake is lucky to have her.
When we got to her house i saw she lived in one of those big 3 story houses. It was yellow. I saw she had a huge pool in her back yard and a balcony in her window. I could never afford a house like this.
We walked in to her room it was huge! She had a king sized bed. It had a zebra strpied blanket and bule sheets. Wow it was beautiful there were glass butterflys hanging from the celing.


Chapter 2

Dear death journal,
I can’t stay away from him! He lives next door if I look out of my window I see him. And he has a girlfriend. Who is very nice by the way. I don’t want to make any more friends but it just keeps happening! Now the only people who hate me are Hannah and her crew. I have gotten asked out 15 times this week what is up with the people around here. One minute you hate me the next you’re asking me out???? What happened? I met 1 guy and my world is flipped upside down. I am losing my mind people I don’t even know are being nice to me. People who have hated me are suddenly trying to be friends. Most people would be happy about this but, why should I be happy if I’m ending my life in 13 days? Well I’m going to see Demi and she is going to do my hair to complete my make over. Ugh there I go again making friends!
Xoxo
alexxus c.
I walk down stairs.
“Where are you going now?!?” my dad yelled at me.
“I’m going to Demi’s house.” I said calmly.
“No your not, you are going to go make me some dinner,” he screamed.
“No I’m not I’m going to demi’s house,” I yelled back.
“Don’t you dare talk to me like that young lady,” he yelled.
“I’ll talk to you how ever I want to,” I yelled.
He pushed me down and kicked me. Then he kicked me in the face and busted my lip and nose. I screamed.
“Stop daddy I’m sorry. Please just stop!” I screamed.
I think it just made him madder because he just started kicking me harder. He kicked me in my side and in my legs. Then when I thought I couldn’t talk any more, he stopped and went to the kitchen and started drinking again .I couldn’t walk or even stand for that matter. So I crawled back to my room, being careful not to get blood every where. When I made it to my room I dragged myself to my bathroom and wiped the blood off my face. I could see bruises forming as I changed my shirt which was red from my blood. I laid there on the floor not being able to move, I cried all the rest of the day. It was not fair! What did I ever do to deserve a dad that hits me like that?!?!?!? I’m scared half to death to even live here. I want to run away but I don’t want to leave the only family I have left. I just can’t do that.
When I was finally able to stand with out falling, I walked to my bed (because that was as far as I could walk) and sat down. I looked at my phone which had been laying there on my bed the whole time. I had 3 messages from Demi, 9 from Josh, and 2 from Jesse.
All of Demi’s messages were asking when I was coming over. Jake’s messages were asking “where are you? Do you want to come over? You want to hang out with me and the guys? Are you mad at me, why wont you text me back? Are you ok? Should I come over?” I just got one saying “I’m coming in”
I could hear him walking up the stairs I was in no condition to see anyone right now so I laid under the covers and pretended to be sleep. I hear him knock on my bedroom door. When I didn’t answer he just walked in.
“Lexi?” he said as he walked in. I continued to act like I was asleep.
He walked over to my bed and watched me. After a while he kissed my forehead and left.im glad he left I sat up and realized I could walk again about 15 minutes later. I picked up my phone and texted him. “Hey sorry I haven’t replied. I didn’t feel well today.”
“It’s fine, I came by to check on you. You were sound asleep,” his message replied.
“=-] sorry bout that I was feeing so terrible.” I replied.
“Are you ok now?” he asked.
“Yeah I’m fine I just woke up and I’m about to walk to my place.” I said.
“Ok can I come?” he asked me.
“umm im not sure only me and my mom know about it,” I said.
“So you’re no one?” he asked. He asks a lot of questions.
“Yup, at least I was until u got here.” I replied.
“What does that mean?” he asked.
“I’ll explain at the park,” I said.
“So I can come?” he asked.
“sure =-]” I said.
“Cya there =-]” Jake replied.
I got out of bed and changed into jeans and a long sleeved shirt. I was not going to risk letting Jake see my bruises. I didn’t need him feeling sorry for me. As soon as I was dressed I snuck out my window and jumped from my balcony. I have done this a million times now so it’s no big deal. But I heard someone scream my name.
“Lexi,” someone yelled, “are you ok?”
“Yeah, Jake I’m fine I do this all the time but keep it down please I don’t want to wake my dad.”I whispered.
“Oh, sorry and I forgot to ask where is this park?” he asked.
“Follow me,” I said quickly.
I looked around to see if anyone was following us. The coast was clear. I hurried behind my house through the woods and in the center there was a small clearing with a swing set and a slide. There was also a small house with two rooms, a small kitchen and a bathroom. I had never shown anyone this place before so I had no idea what he would say. I was just hoping that he wouldn’t say anything to anyone about this place. It was my own little place where no one could find me.
“Wow,” was the only thing he said.
“I know it’s nothing much but it’s my place. Please don’t tell any one about it.” I said.
“What do u mean it’s nothing much? this place is amazing! I can’t believe your not telling any one about this place! I’m not going to tell anyone if you don’t want me to, but this place is wow!” he said in shock.
“You really like it?” I asked.
“Yeah it’s beautiful, just like you,” he replied with his adorable smile.
“Jake don’t, I know you and Demi are together,” I said.
“Wait, what? Demi and I broke up the day you two met. When Demi dropped you off she came to meet me. I told her we should see other people. Because I like someone else I don’t think it’s fair that I won’t have my mind on her. It would be wrong to date her when your always on my mind. Lexi to tell the truth I dumped her because I met you.” he said holding my hands.
“Why would you do that? I didn’t even like you then.” I said.
“Yeah, but I thought you would change your mind about that which I’m hoping you did, because Lexi you are simply amazing,” he said still holding my hands.
“Jake that’s so sweet, but I’m just an average girl. You should try and get Demi back. I I have to go.” I said.
I let go of his hands and turned and walked, no I ran home. As soon as I got home, I saw my dad. He was soaked and wearing the same clothes from yesterday. He looked at me and I saw fire in his eyes. I knew what that meant so I ran to my room as fast as I could. I called Demi as soon as I was sure my dad couldn’t get into my room.
“Hello?” said Demi as she answered the phone.
“Hey can you come get me so we can finish my make over?” I said.
“Yeah sure I’m on my way.” She said before she hung up.
I put on the outfit Demi picked out for me, when I got a phone call.
“Hello????” I said.
“Hey it’s Tammy.” Tammy is my mom’s sister. “I heard you are still in public school and how bad they are, so I paid your way into private school. No need to thank me your uniform should be there in no time. You will start Monday, well tomorrow. Your cousin Selena will be there to. She will show you around and I hope you have fun. I got to go Selena just got home from her dance class. I love you bye.” She said not giving me a chance to talk.
I went to check the mail. Tell me how my uniform was folded neatly in my mail box already. Just as I grabbed my uniform Demi pulled up.
“Hey hop in,” she said.
I got in with my uniform in my lap.
“What’s that?” she asked.
“Ugh. My aunt is making me go to private school.” I replied simply.
“Private school, are you crazy?!?!?” Demi said as she slammed the brakes. “People who go to private school are freaks.”
“Well then I should fit right in,” I said.
“Lexi Marie Carson, you are not a freak,” she said.
“ yeah I am and can you take me home I don’t feel so well anymore,” I said.
She turned the car around and she dropped me off.

Chapter 3

Dear death journal,
Why does he have to like me back? I like him and I’m shocked he likes me back. I have 12 days left thats no time to get a boyfriend! Private school starts today and I hope I can have my quite time there I really like our uniform now that I have decorated it to fit my style. I added black lace to the bottom of it and sowed my name into the pocket on the