What May Die, Just Needs Reborn by Emma Yockey (best classic books of all time txt) 📖

nothing. I really wish that no one would bother me but I just lost it and this is what I said, “you people don’t know the half of what is going on. Marisa had to watch her cousin hang himself, and none of you will ever no what that is like. She has been in a psychiatric hospital the last two months. And none of you will EVER no what that is like!” and I walked away.

 

Marisa

October 24, 2006

I hate all the stupid people. They act like they know everything! No one can understand when to leave others alone. Nina came and talked to me today, blahhh. I just wanted to strangle her. She is so annoying, and competitive. Although if it weren’t for her dissing me I would never be friends with Leah. Nina and Amanda, Nina’s little side kick, both wear the ugliest glasses, and they both stink at art, even though they think they‘re all that. Nina kept asking me where I’d been like she cared. Then Nick tried pulling the playing card trick on me, but I’ve caught on to that. I wish that there was a piano at the school that I had total access to, like at the hospital. I was working on a piece there. It was going really well, I didn’t have to think about anything but the music. At home it’s like I can’t deal with it, my head went somewhere else when I was there at that piano. My house isn’t quiet enough for any of my work. I’ve been going to my church to do homework, and Nick meets me there, but that piano has too many memories for me. Happy times, and now there is no joy in the piano. It’s like someone sucked the life of it. I can’t even touch it.

 

Nick

October 25, 2006

Another day another dollar. Or in this case another drama. Marisa went off on another sub today but this time the sub hit back, Hard. She didn’t care about what had happened to Marisa. She actually punched Marisa and got fired on the spot.

The sub told the hole class what had happened to Marisa to her face. She said that Marisa should grow up and deal with the circle of life, and she wasn’t going to treat Marisa different just for a little death. The principal walked in on the sub slapping Marisa across the face and then she punched Marisa in the gut for standing up to face her. I had to hold Marisa back from going after her. Well at least we got out of history again. Marisa is definitely coming in handy for my least favorite subject, but she can’t know that I like the fact that she gets me out of class, she would Kill me!!!

 

 

Leah

October 25, 2006

Marisa picked another fight with Nina, AND Amanda. At least she stayed through a hole day without totally breaking down in front of everyone, if you don’t count history. I heard the sub got fired for back talking to Marisa and hitting her in front of the principal. That is definitely something I would pay to see, if it were Nina or Amanda that was getting hit and not Marisa.

Marisa totally got her revenge on Nina for yesterday. The guidance counselor had to come and break up the fight. Nina is definitely going to have a black eye tomorrow.

I think Marisa and Nick were going to the church tonight to study. Maybe Nick will get her to play the piano again. I haven’t heard her play sense……….. Her psychologist said she was playing at the psychiatric hospital, but he said no one was ever there to listen, not even Nick.

 

 

Marisa

October 25, 2006

Nick tried to get me to play the piano today, which was really annoying. He wouldn’t stop asking me to play. He said that he knew I was playing at the hospital. And I told him it was none of his business. But he did play and I sang “Someone like you” for the first time in a while. He said I did fine but I know that I could have used some work. I wish that I could sing without being taken back to places I don’t want to go, which is exactly what happened. I ended up hurrying out the door because I couldn’t handle it.

 

 

Nick

October 30, 2006

Well Marisa has done pretty good so far and I’m proud of her she went 6 days without freaking out. I’m really proud of her.

She played the piano for me today, I helped her with the piece she was working on at the hospital. It was really beautiful. We only have a few more lines left and it will be done, a total of 5 minutes. It will be Amazing!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Marisa had a stroke she’s at the hospital in a coma!

 

 

Leah

October 30, 2006

Marisa is in a coma. Nick is with her at the hospital. I think we both might be skipping school. He said he got her to play. He wanted to finish the piece they were working on. The doctor said they would find a way to have a piano for him to work on in the room, so he didn’t have to leave. He hasn’t talked sense he asked for the piano, except the occasional cuse word at a wrong note. The doctor said that Marisa can hear us but she can’t talk back to us, or wake up.

Midnight

Well it’s officially Halloween. She hasn’t woken yet and Nick can’t find the right key for the last line. He’s just so lost without her even if she’s only 5 ft. away.

 

 

Nick

October 31, 2006

I can’t stop crying! She woke up right when I finished the song. She smiled at me, and I kissed her. She said that she loved me no matter what. I kissed her again and the screen went blank, and she was gone. I sat there holding her hand till the nurse came in. At that point Leah woke up from her nap and I could see tiers rolling down her face, like rain drops on an umbrella. I will never forget that night. She was my first kiss and nothing would ever change that.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

14 years later

 

Leah

October 30, 2020

No one has seen Nick sense the night he disappeared, the day after Marisa was laid to rest. He played her song for everyone there. He totally freaked after that. I know I haven’t written sense the night she died, but something happened a girl came into the hospital today the same situation I just felt like I was sitting 8in that room waiting again. Different kids a similar situation. An almost exact match to that night. I talked to the girl there for a little bit, and it sounds so similar, I told her my story and she was astonished. Oh, did I forget to mention I’m a nurse at the local hospital now.

Tomorrow some of the kids from junior high are putting together a memorial party for Marisa. I think someone found Nicks parents and asked them to give him the message, but I dought he’ll show.

 

 

 

 

Nick

October 30, 2020

Well, tomorrow is the day. 14 years. I loved her 18 years ago and I chose the worst timing, to tell her. My parents said they were having a memorial party for her. I can’t even Wright her name. I’ve met so many girls, but none that I loved like her. I sit at my piano playing her song everyday hoping she’d come back to me, but she never dose.

Maybe I will go to the party no one will recognize me, I could offer to play piano. I could play her song. I’ll contact Leah, she’ll help me.

 

 

Leah

October 31, 2020

The girl in the coma died today. At the same time as Marisa.

Nick called me last night, he never left town. I met with him. It was really nice, I hardly recognized him. He asked for my help to get into the party, without being noticed, he wanted to play her song. I said I’d help. Nina and Amanda are the ones who organized the “party“, as everyone keeps calling it. But it’s not a party it’s just another funeral, and Marisa does not need another one of those. Nina said that it would be fine to have him play. I said he was an old friend, and that he would be coming with me and Dylan, my husband.

 

Nick

October 31, 2020

Nina turned it into a real party! It was never a memorial it was always just a party to celebrate her death. But when my hands hit those keys I was 14 again. Everyone froze and just stared as I played her song. No one knew who I was, and when I saw them all staring, like how do you know that song, I froze. I ran out the back way and Leah grabbed me. I told her I made a mistake by going, I couldn’t do any of it any longer.

This is my suicide note. I know Leah will be the one to find me and this note. I need Marisa more than ever I’m sorry to all of you who ever expected me to live life without her, but Nina, Amanda you two should be ashamed of yourselves for throwing a party to show how much your glad that no one will ever see Marisa again. But I will not give up on her. I’ll find her in her prime and bring her home. Good-Bye

To Be Continued…

 

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