What May Die, Just Needs Reborn by Emma Yockey (best classic books of all time txt) 📖

The Begining

 

What may Die,

just needs Reborn

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

By: Emma Yockey

 

 

 

Marisa

August 22, 2006

 

Today was a day I really regret happening. If only it never happened. Now I’m in a stupid mental hospital. I don’t really need to be here, but this stupid psychologist says he wants to study me for 2 weeks. So this is why………

Yesterday was our family reunion and we were at my grandparents house. I would play the piano song I’d been working on. It wasn’t finished, I needed three more notes, but I was determined to finish it. Before I went out to play I went to the bathroom with my cousin Rebech, to make sure I looked nice, that’s when I saw it. My cousin, George, had hung himself. I never played and I never will again.

At least Rebech is here too.

There is nothing to do here. The only outside connection I have is when my mom come and visits. The only person at school who knows is my best friend, Leah. She’s not suppose to tell anyone where I am unless they have a good reason. Everyone at school probably thinks I’m sick or something. I wonder if Nick is wondering where I am? Nick is the guy I’ve been crushing on for who knows how long. He’s really cute and really nice. He flirts with every girl he sees. He’s really bad at that!

Oh SHIT, my uncles here this is gonna’ be good.

 

 

 

 

 

Rebech

August 22, 2006

Great my dad was just here and now he’s headed to see Marisa. Her mom is not going to like this. I told the nurse on duty to keep an eye on them. If one question is asked wrong every thing is going to go bad, then Marisa is going to end up in lock down again and that would be horrible. All she does is sit in there for hours with nothing but a pencil and paper.

There’s the screaming. There’s a fist. Oh, that’s got to hurt. And there’s the tranck.

 

Well the nurses just took Marisa into lock down. Now I have no one to talk to. Uh Oh, here comes Marisa’s mom, Not Good. There goes the fight.

Look’s like I get to break it up this time….

 

 

Marisa

August 22, 2006

I hate my stupid uncle he just keeps asking me these stupid questions that I don’t know the answer to. Now I’m in lock down again. My mom was suppose to becoming by. I here screaming sounds like she’s here.

 

Leah

August 22, 2006

Thankfully no one has asked me where Marisa is. I hate not telling people at least it’s only for a few more days, I think. I’ve been taking her work to her. She always seems really down and doesn’t talk much. I feel bad for her. No one but me seems to miss her. It has only been a day but still.

 

 

Nick

August 22, 2006

I hope Marisa is back tomorrow. I don’t think I can wait much longer to ask her out. I’ve always wanted to ask her out I just never had the courage. She just has this quality about her that just makes her irresistible, and gorgous. She has been, SO, awesome as a friend.

 

 

September 10, 2006

She still isn’t back, I hope she’s okay. I’m going to go ask Leah where she is.

 

 

Leah

September 10, 2006

OMG!!!! Nick asked me where Marisa was. I of course had to ask why, and guess what? He wants to Ask Her Out! That’s like really big! I had to tell him to call her mom cause’ I don’t know if that’s big enough for someone to know, but still

 

 

Nick

September 10, 2006

OMG! Marisa is in a psychiatric hospital! I talked to Leah, who sent me to Marisa’s mom, who said I could go with her tomorrow to see her. She said to Wright a note cause’ she didn’t know if Marisa’s uncle would be there asking questions again, I don’t really understand that yet. I wrote her a note and this is what it said:

 

I really hate that I’ve waited so long to do this but I was to scared to ask. It took all of me to come up with the courage to do this, so here it is,

WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME, OR BE MY GIRL FRIEND, OR SOMETHING?

 

Love, NICK

 

 

 

September 11, 2006

We got there just in time to see Marisa being drug off to the lock down room as her mom called it. Her mom was right, Marisa’s uncle was there, and it didn’t look good. The conversation turned into screaming between her mom and her uncle within seconds. A nurse came over and took the school work Marisa’s mom brought, and told me that it probably wasn’t a good idea to give her the note I wrote. Her cousin Rebech came over and snatched the note out of my hand, before I could think, she mumbled something to the nurse and she took the not e back the way they hald Marisa. Her cousin said “Your Welcome!” in a sneere and went back to the card table she came from.

About 10 minutes later Marisa came running from the hall into my arms, it was the best feeling ever. She whispered in my ear “YES” and we stood there for what seemed like forever.

What seemed like forever was only 2 minuets, and then a nurse directed us to the card table Rebech had sat down at, and brought over Marisa’s school work.

Around 2 hours later, after I helped Marisa with her work, Marisa’s mom came back to take me home. As I left a nurse stopped me and asked if I would keep coming back because they had never seen Marisa so calm. I agreed to come back as much as they needed me, as long as the girl I loved was calm, safe, and happy.

 

 

Marisa

September 11, 2006

Nick finally asked me out!!!!!!!! I asked the nurse if I could call Leah but hey said they would be breaking protocol. I’m sure Nick will tell Leah. He knows she is my best friend. I’m just glad that they let me out of lock down to see him, (well I let myself out ).

 

 

Nick

October 24, 2006

There letting Marisa out today! One week early! The nurses said she was showing much improvement, thanks to yours truly! She will have to go to school about an hour late, but that’ll be fine. I switched my classes so all of them are with her, sense I’m the only one who can calm her. All her teachers know her story so we should be fine but the other kids might still stare at her. If that happens, the psychologist said to pass her a playing card, until she seems calm, that way she has something to look at, instead of the kids staring at her. I think she’ll be fine, but I just don’t want her to freak out. That’s what scares me the most.

 

 

Leah

October 24, 2006

Well Marisa is coming back today, just a little late but at least she’s, technically, early. It will be great to see her again. Me and Nick are going to have to keep people away from her at lunch or make sure they don’t say the wrong thing around her.

 

 

Marisa

October 24, 2006

I get to go back to school today . I really don’t want to go back. Everyone is going to be staring at me. They probably all think that I was sick and no one will bother me, but if that’s the case then I’ll feel really bad about people seeing if I feel better. Because you know what I don’t feel better. I just want to stay under the radar. If I could have just stayed at that mental hospital this wouldn’t have happened. I need more time. I can’t go back. Even knowing that Nick will be there with me. If someone says the wrong thing I’m going to go off on them and not on purpose. I don’t want to hurt anyone but I just know it’s going to happen. I wish I wasn’t so on edge. But I can’t help it. It’s not my fault. I hate my life and I can’t fix it.

 

 

Leah

October 24, 2006

Marisa is coming back today. When I saw her yesterday she was really on edge, and I just know something is going to go wrong. I only have 2 classes with her, but Nick has all of his classes with her. So she can’t kill anyone with him in the room He’ll just pull her out of the room, but everything is different, ‘cause if she goes off everyone will know she wasn’t sick. Our school is NOT the kind of school that WON’T make a big deal of it. The only trick I know to calm her down is a deck of cards. See if you show her a card she becomes intrigued, and she shuts out the rest of the world. The psychologist said that the shapes play with her mind, and stop her in her tracks. That’s why she can’t take geometry for a year, because of all the shapes. School starts in 30 minutes for me, but it starts in an hour and a half for Nick and Marisa. Marisa’s psychologist just wants to make sure she’s up for it, but I’m not sure if she ever will be!

 

 

Nick

October 24, 2006

Today went ok. Marisa about went off on a teacher for asking her a question about the history quiz we took yesterday that she hadn’t taken, it was a sub no less which made it a lot worse. She didn’t know the situation and thought she took the quiz. So Marisa got sent to the principals office, but instead of going she ran out of the room. When the principal saw her run he came right to the teacher and pulled her aside. I heard him yell at her for not reading the notes that the teacher and the principal left for her. He fired her and gave the rest of us a free hour. I spent the time looking for Marisa, I found her in the girls room, well Leah found her. The principal gave me permission to take her out of class. Her teacher was really mad, but understood the situation. This has been really hard on Leah, Marisa, and me.

At lunch today Nina, one of Marisa’s EX-friends, started asking Marisa all these questions about where she was, and Marisa just started to ball her fists and stiffened. The more questions she asked the tenser she got. I had to pull out the card deck and Marisa just ran. I stopped her before she got to the bathroom door. She just shrunk into me. I could here Leah talking as calm and quietly as she could, I swear everyone in that lunch room could hear her though. Leah and me took Marisa to the door to get some fresh air, and then Leah went up to the office to call Marisa’s psychologist, and then called her grandma. Her grandma came and got her while I got her work from the rest of her teachers so she didn’t miss anything. I think her psychologist made a mistake letting her come back to school. She really wasn’t ready. When I went back down to the lunch room everyone was staring at me, but I didn’t care. If they wanted to be mean and stare, let them. Some of my friends came over to see what was going on, I just sat there doing