I Choose You by Kemi Adejumo (mobile ebook reader TXT) 📖

Christian's pov

I was so relieved when Jessica told me to go after Evelyn.   I hope that means she approves of her.  Jessica has never been in approval of all the girls I have dated.  She always had something against them.  For some reason,  her speculations always turns out true.She always know what is best for me, even more than me. Plus , she is my best friend and I would do anything to make her happy.

I couldn't find Evelyn.  She was already out of sight before I could catch up with her.  I searched everywhere for her.  I later found her at my old playground.  I mean what is with this girls and running to playgrounds.  She was sitting on a bench, unaware of my presence.

"Hey" I called making her look up.  She had tears in her eyes and her whole face was red from crying too much.  She quickly wiped her tears and tried to act like she was not affected. 

"Hi... what are you doing here? " she asked.   I didn't reply,  I just sat down beside her on the bench.

We both didn't say anything for few minutes before I broke the silence.

"I am sorry Evie" I uttered

"Sorry for what? " she asked

"Everything " I sighed with my head low. 
"Everything?  What part of everything are you sorry for Uhn?" She asked sobbing "Is it the part where you ghosted me or blocked me or took my virginity and left me stranded?  Is it the part where you left my heart broken,  I waited and waited for you Christian but to no avail. Do you think it was easy going to my bed at night crying my eyes out thinking what went wrong?" I just stared at her tearful eyes and my heart squeezed.  I hate seeing her crying. "Five years Christian....five years I waited and finally I got the opportunity to see you,  only for you to ignore me like I am some trash.  I hate you Christian Kingston.  I hate you" she bawled out and then started hitting me.  I immediately held her hands and pulled her into a bone crushing hug.  She cried and cried for so long that I lost track of time.  

She finally stopped crying and we both stayed in silence .

"Evelyn? "

"Yeah? "

"I am serious when I say that I am sorry.  I didn't mean to ghost you.  I lost your contact and I tried looking for you but it was always a dead end. " I confessed while staring into her eyes. "I know I could have looked harder.  I am saying the truth when I say that I really did love you. You are the first girl I have ever felt love and desires for.  I am sorry for hurting you all this years and I am begging you to forgive me." I completed in one breath. I stared at her waiting for a reaction.

"Please say something Evelyn " I said.

"You really did love me? " She asked laying emphasis on "did".

"Is that all you heard? " I chuckled making her laugh.

"OK fine,  I will forgive you if you stop calling me Evelyn.  It doesn't seem right coming from you"  She demanded.

"OK Evelyn.... I mean Evie" I teased while she just rolled her eyes.

"So... you are... with that girl now?" she asked.

"Who? Jess?... No it's not what you think at all. That is Jessica,  remember my best friend that I always talk to you about? " I replied  
"Oh yeah... You could not stop talking about her"

"Yeah....she is that amazing " I replied. 
"So she is just the best friend and not the girl friend? " she asked

"Yes.... I won't lie,  Jessica is the most important person in my life.... But it is not like what you think.  I love her so much but as a best friend. " I answered.

"Are you sure it is not something more?" She stared at me seeking for confirmation. 
"Yeah" I nodded " And I know Jess doesn't see me that way either "

"OK... if you say so "she replied unconvinced.

we both stayed in silence relishing old memories.

"Hey you remember back at camp, when we wanted to prank   Mr kavinski but we ended up getting trapped in the cabin alone all night? " She asked excited.

"Yeah.. and then we ended up confessing to each other about our feelings " I continued

"And then we made love" she completed smiling.

"Yeah... " I nodded while smiling at  the thought of the memory. "I am really sorry Evie...i shouldn't have done that.. we were  young and unstable... " I said but she quickly interrupted cupping my face into her hands  while looking into my eyes.

"No... don't say that Christian. I don't regret anything about that night.  It was an amazing night " She said  without regrets. 

"It was an amazing night for me too but.... we were young and unprepared...you could have gotten  pregnant " I mumbled

"Well I didn't "

"Yes... because I pulled out " I flirted making her scrunch her nose.

"Eww... You are such a pervert " she laughed while slightly hitting me.

She wrapped her arms around me and I let her.  It feels familiar and warm. I longed for this warmth and I miss it.

"Christian... do I still have a chance to your heart? " she asked.  I have been waiting for that question and sincerely, I still don't know.  I still have feelings for Evelyn but I don't know if it's as strong as before.After Evelyn,  I have been in other heartbreaking relationships.  

Jess. she is my safe zone,  my comfort place through all that pain.

I am willing to give what Evelyn and I have a chance though and probably give my heart a chance to love again.

"Yes" I replied and she just smiled and closed her eyes.

Shortly,  I heard her soft snores.  I watched her closely and the sight of her sleeping face steered something in my heart.

I didn't know when I also fell asleep, both of us in eachothers arms. 

Hey guys,  i am back again.  Who do you guys think have more connection? Christian and Evelyn or Christian and Jessica?.....