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I mean, look at Carter, heās a sophomore but he couldnāt handle our relationship and now Kyle can barely handle our friendship. Maybe I just need to stay away from guys period just until I have my mind made up of what I want. What am I talking about!? Iām a sophomore in high school, no high school girl think about this kind of stuff until sheās out of high school and seriously thinking of getting married and settling down! God, Iām going crazy. I might as well just follow my gut and my gut saysā¦Iām hungry. I rolled out of bed then made my way downstairs to get breakfast and start my boring weekend.
I stepped down each step lazily and used all my focus to keep from stumbling and rolling down the stairs; then again that wouldnāt be so bad, everyone would get what they want. I began to stretch and yawn as I stepped the bottom step and turned the corner towards the kitchen. Before I could even begin to think over which breakfast to have or which cereal would be the best I heard my name. I looked and standing in the doorway was Mark. I stared at him in confusion and shock then asked, āWhat are you doing here, Mark?ā
āWell, I asked Kitty where you lived. I see that Iāve been a bit of a jerk to you,ā I starred him giving him my ābit of a jerk?ā stare, āOkay, okay a big jerk face who deserves to get his butt whopped from here to....Canada.ā
I laughed, okay that sounds better. āBut you have to know I have the best intention in mind. I just donāt like seeing you in so much pain and in such misery thatā¦it looks like just breathing kills you,ā he said.
Glad to see someone notices that I feel guilty. āWell, you know, guilt is the best punishment for the guilty,ā I said sighing and making sure not to make eye contact.
Mike had the insane ability to just read people by just looking in the eyes and right now Iād rather keep my feelings and thoughts to myself. āArien, please look at me. I know you donāt like me āreadingā you as you and everyone likes to put it,ā well thereās nothing else that fits it so perfectly, ābut I need to make sure youāre okay before I say anything else. Iād rather you be of sound mind and feelings before I let another word slip out.ā
I closed my eyes and looked up at him hoping I hid it well enough that maybe I have a chance heāll see just the bitter sweet lie that I keep putting on my face. He sighed, āJust like I feared. Youāre not of sound mind or anything which means we have to do this in private and walking.ā
I laughed, āWalking? Do you see what time it is?ā
āYea, itās practically noon,ā he said starring at our ancient clock hanging on the wall.
āWhat,ā I looked back at the cock in shock, āDamn I need to get up sooner.ā
Mike laughed then said, āHow about you get dressed then you and I can go for a walk and talk.ā
I looked down at myself, forgetting that I had just woken up. I had on my spaghetti strap white tank top and my plaid green and white shorts. Better than what I usually wear to bed. I nodded then headed back upstairs to get dressed and readyfor our āTalk Walkā.
āSo, before I talk about what I really wanna talk about we need to talk about the car accident,ā Mike said.
āWow, talk was used a lot in that sentence, āI said, trying to break the tension that seemed to cloud us.
Since the months and weeks have passed so have the seasons we slipped out of summer, slid into fall, and now weāve falling into winter, cold bitter winter, perfect season for how my life is going; cold, bitter, lonely, dying. And of course switching seasons means switching styles of clothing. Everyone went from flip flops, shorts, and sleeve-less shirts to snow boots, heavy pants, and long sleeved shirts. Mike had on his usual jeans, his favorite Bleach anime shirt, and his long jacket that goes all the way down to the back of his heels. He also has on his usual skater shoes that seem to break down every single day. He also had on his new woolen beanie.
I had on my new jean skirt, my new black wool leggings, my black fur snow boots, and my favorite wool jacket that luckily has a hoodie. I also had on my beanie but mine isnāt woolen like mister fancy pantsā but mine still good. āHa, yea what can I say I love word, ā Mike joked.
I smiled at him for joking back and not making me feel like such a pathetic loser with my lame attempts to break tension and then said, āOkay so I guess you should start it since you know what exactly you wanna know.ā
āRight, um, okay soā¦whatā¦happened?ā Mike asked.
The question that I couldnāt answer exactlyā¦the question that Iād feared since it happened. āUmā¦I guess I got distracted, we were listening to the radio singing, getting ready for karaoke. Terri was singing off pitch on purpose to throw me off and make me mad, āI let out a chuckle at the memory and then sighed from what came next, āand then they hit us. They said we came out of nowhere and they couldnāt stop in time. They hit us from Jacieās side, passenger side, and sent us spinning and glass showering us. We stopped after a few seconds or so and as soon as we didā¦I remember feelingsā¦happy. Happy that it was over and we could just laugh about it the rest of the way. Thenā¦the other driver came,ā a tear slipped out as it remember the rest.
I saw Jacieās body continue to shake and tremble uncontrollably it seemed. I began to slowly crawled to her, for some reason unable to stand or do anything else. I felt my arm sting and my head ache, I could feel tears falling down and hitting the cuts that were on my face, their pain masked by my arm and heart. I finally made it to Jacie and starred down at her. Her faceā¦it wasā¦completely destroyed. I could barely recognize her. Oh god, donāt be Jacie. āJacie,ā I asked my voice shaky from pain and fear.
āArien,ā she said her voice shaky as well and tears coming out of what I guess to be her eyes, āIs Terri okay?ā
I began to sob as I spoke, āNoā¦sheās dead.ā
āOh god,ā she sobbed.
Her body kept shaking and trembling and I could see the color leave her visual undestroyed skin. āArien, I canāt breathe, I canātā¦I canātā¦,ā Jacie gasped.
āJacie, donāt you DARE die on me! Weāre gonna be okay! Weāre gonna go to the karaoke place and sing and laughā¦.please just donāt leave me,ā I sobbed.
I could see Jacieās life slowly slip and I could since the end coming. I picked up her mangled body and held it close to mine. āJacie, donāt leave me! Jacie,ā I screamed.
I could feel her last breath leave her body and feel her body go limp. āNo! Jacie, no,ā I continued screaming and sobbing.
Why? Why!? My two best friendsā¦deadā¦and only me to blame; I stared down at Jacie then at the people now coming to surround us. āJacie, pleaseā¦.come backā¦please,ā I whispered as I snuggled my face into her neck and continued to sob.
āWow,ā Mike said as we turned the corner onto the next street, Madison Blvd.
āYeaā¦the police told me later that the driver that hit us last was drunkā¦he survived and fled from the scene, not wanting to face the mistake he made,ā I said.
āDid the police charge you,ā he asked.
I nodded solemnly, āYep, my parents had to pay a hefty fine and even then I had to spend a few days doing community service, which wasnāt a big deal; I do have one punishment and itās for life.ā
āWhatās that,ā he asked.
āKnowing I could have saved them, they could be still alive here with us if it werenāt for me,ā I said.
Mike shook his head and stopped walking completely. āArien, you need to stop blaming yourself for this, no matter who was driving, you guess probably still would have been in a car accident. He was going towards you guys and thereās nothing you couldāve done.ā
I sighed, why couldnāt I just accept it? Heās right, no matter what the drivers would have still gone in their path, they still would have hit usā¦the only difference would be a different person would live...whoever was driving. I looked at him and nodded, not wanting to press the matter any further than must. āAre you good?ā He asked.
I looked him straight in the eye and nodded, this time not a complete lie. He smiled and pulled me in for a hug, I wouldnāt and couldnāt deny him a hug, and I needed one from what had happened and what was happening. I could feel him smile and began to pull back so I could look up at him. He had a smile Iāve seen whenever Iāve been sad around him, the big brother smile that cheered me up and made me feel safe. āWell now I will move on to the subject I want to discuss with you,ā he said as he repositioned himself and me so now we walked side by side, one of his arms around my shoulders and the other stuffed in his jacket pocket.
āOkay what is it youād like to discuss,ā I asked.
āYou and Kyle and Carter,ā he said.
I sighed, āOkay get on with it then.ā
āSo, I know you and Carter broke up already but I also know Kyleās got the hots for yaā and I know youāve got the hots for himā¦but I also know heās dating someone. Iāve got to know are you his mistress or something?ā
I laughed, āNo, Mike Iām not his mistress or anything, weāre just friends and yea I like him and yea he may like me but he has a girlfriend and thatās a fact so until something happens there then nothing can happen between him and me.ā
He smiled and said, āOkay, good because hereās my next question. I know youāve liked me since seventh grade and Iāve kind of liked you since eighth,ā oh huge difference their sparky, āsoā¦howās about you and Iā¦give it a try?ā
I looked at him, āIf you are trying to ask me out please donāt say, āgive it a try.ā Come on, youāre asking a girl out not talking yourself into doing a sport.ā
He laughed, āOkay then. Arien, will you please go out with me?ā
I smiled, āOkay thatās better.ā
āThatās your answer, āthatās better,ā thatās not what I wanna hear. Itās not like your shopping and telling a girl what looks better on her than what sheās already wearing. Give me a straight answer, āhe laughed.
I sighed and starred down at the ground. āI donāt know Mike I mean, Iāve kind of think I should date someone a bit more mature.ā
āOh come on Iām mature,ā he said.
I laughed, āUmā¦can you let me think on it?ā
āYeaā¦.I guess,ā he said sighing.
I smiled and touched his arm and after a few seconds we went back to walking and randomly talking adventuring off into unknown topics.
After our walk, Mike walked me home and he went back home to go do something, he didnāt really tell me. We were walking for the whole day pretty much so I went home and just settled in to do what I normally do on the weekendsā¦play video games. I walked into my study room, pulled out my games, and began to the long process of picking something to play for the rest of the day. I starred between Assassinās Creed II and Dragon Age: Origins. Both were good, both were funā¦but I felt more like a sneaky assassinating killing than a sword fight killing. I pulled out
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