Probability by Santosh Jha (bts books to read TXT) 📖

He has finished his coffee and is standing at the window, looking up at the sky. She joins him there.

‘I am sorry…’, she says, resting her hand on his shoulder.’

‘Why did you say sorry?’

‘I understand, I am causing trouble for you. I can see it.’

‘Never think of things this way. You have always been the source of my joys and even now, I am in blissful reception of the same. I understand you and also respect your choices. That is why I told you things about symbols. Believe me, I am very happy.’

She rests her head slowly on his back and gently clasps her arms around him. He holds her hands warmly, turns around and leads her to the sofa.

‘Look in my eyes; can’t you see my gratitude for you, for being my friend, being honest to me and above all, always being an amazingly beautiful woman. I am truly blessed and happy that I find you in my life. It is only natural for me to wish the continuity of this mutuality. This is a huge symbol of wellness for me. I don’t see things in terms of marriage and kids. As I said, marriage is like a coffee to me; I am not looking into the joy of the taste of this delicious coffee. I am eyeing the associated wellness. My template is the mutuality of wellness for life. My template is that I wish to grow old with you. I want to be there with you when together our time shall be up and we shall hold our hands, joyfully welcoming the end of the journey. Marriage is just a symbol for me; like the coffee.’

‘You tell me, what should I do?’

‘I know that you are just a symbol away from wellness of your own. This symbol can come to you in two different ways. First, it may come as powerful energy enough to override all your past symbols. Or it may come as something, which shall make you realize that your past symbols were not right. I understand that the troubled married life of your parents had impacted your childhood. I also understand that in the contemporary cultural milieu, marriages are no more a sure symbol of bliss and wellness. All I wish to bring to your discretion is that you need to assess things of your life from a different perspective and then decide.’

‘That is why I ask you; tell me what I should do.’

‘I only wish you to have best in life and for this to happen, I want you to have an empowered consciousness, one that decides on key issues of life-living wellness and personal excellence on the basis of objective parameters and benchmarks and not the subjective choices, shaded by cultured consciousness. And I am surely not in a hurry. I still have few decades left to die’.

‘And what should I do now?’

‘Hmmm… this question opens up the lid of the sealed vessel of probabilities,’ he says mimicking her mannerism.

‘What probabilities…?’

‘Oh God… a young woman asking about probabilities to a man, in the youthfulness of night, that too after a steamy coffee…!

‘Stop teasing me and tell me what I am asking. What you think I should do?’

‘I think, and surely your magnificently delicious coffee makes me think better; you should leave it for your innate self to perform the finality of mutuality talk.’

‘What’s that?’

‘Ask your mind to close shops and let your body do its business.’

‘What business?’

‘The artistry of instinctive instrumentality…’

‘What is the start like… how does it go…?’

‘All good enterprise of utility starts with small and innocuous investment on basics. Then it grows on and subsequent value-additions keep the growth going for ages. You start with a long overdue investment of a gentle hug and let the business grow…’

‘Are you sure this business of basics shall attain the success of mutuality?’

‘The probabilities are high.’

‘Why? Explain it.’

‘You know it better than me that human mind is the genius of worst ingenuities. As I told you before, there is nothing called realism, when it comes to practicalities of life. There may be an absolute situationalism called true realism but then, for all practical purposes, you and I live our lives based on subjective perceptions of the realism. This subjective realism always has both elements of facts as well as fictions as consciousness does not discriminate between the two. The bodies however are driven by core instincts and experts say that raw instincts are pure and basic. They usually don’t mislead you. Rather, bodies are minimalists and settle for crude and elemental utilities.

‘… make it simple for me… dumb it down…’

‘Okay. It is like; even a grain of sugar out of a spoonful is enough for your tongue to declare that it is sweet. The crude and elemental realism is sweetness. It is however, an issue of debate and subjective discretion as how much of it – the realism of sweetness – you would want in your coffee for it to be enough. The body accepts larger utility of the same realism, whereas the mind stupids around the vagaries of interpretative realisms. The body, say your tongue, is invariably a minimalist. For it, even a grain is enough. That is why I said; let your body do the business. It has the innate mechanism to find the easy and straight road to mutuality as it is the minimalist businessperson.’

‘May be, you are right but how come the body be a good businessperson? We are concerned about good business, not just any stupid business?’

‘Sure, we mean good business; rather a hugely successful business. I tell you a real story. I was leading my company’s acquisition and merger plan once and the owner of the company we were eying was hell-bent on acquiring a majority share in the merged entity. We were offering him 49 percent stake. I told him that we would accept his bid if the new sales figure after merger escalated 10-15 percent. However, if the sales went up beyond that, we would have our way and he would have to accept it. He agreed, as he was sure sales hike would be even below 10 percent. I played on the instinct, as I knew, after the merger, our combined economies of scale would make the cost down by 30 percent and if we would pass the benefit to customers, the sales would surely go up beyond 20 percent. I finally won as bodies did the trick. People love price-cuts and instinctively accept a mutuality as successful and good, if it favors their wellness. We branded the merger as one big mutuality enterprise and simultaneously branded the price-cuts as some festive-gift to our customers. Everyone loves a good marriage and a nice wedding-gift. It is a matter of bare basics of instincts. Economics of desires are often simple, crude and elemental. It is the domain of finance and profitability, which usually complicates a beautiful enterprise. Good enterprises must trust the utility and suitability of the bare basic of body economics.’

‘Hmmm… Good…! But what if the business venture fails…?’

‘Madame corporate strategist, who knows it better than you that a sincere enterprise never fails… a failure is seed-stuff for series of future successes… the learning from failures are roadmap to ultimate success and ….’

He fails to complete his sentence as her preliminary investment makes him speechless. The kiss comes first and the hug follows.

The core utility and creativity of humanity surely seems to emanate out of the raw mechanism. The brains must have been designed for acceptance and assimilation of the unprocessed body needs. The cultural clutter of the mind consciousness does not seem brain’s core competence. It is surely a necessary evil of sorts. That is probably why men and women can create and handle complicated machines brilliantly; however, they fail to handle even simple relationships. The cultural conveniences often blur the simple yet potent template of body-wellness and excellence. Bodies surely have raw and innately well-channeled pathways with brain. When bodies are on the forefront of human enterprise of wellness and excellence, life-living choices seem to have better mutuality with ambient milieus. The primary and base brain channels do respond brilliantly to body’s basic business.

The raw and basic business of humanity is connect and harmony with elements within and those in the milieus around. This artistry of core wellness is innate and embedded in the body-brain synchrony. The bodies of man and woman are designed for the enterprise of the mutuality because it is the primary business of wellness. The raw elements of body-brain of the two bodies have the instinctive mechanism to connect and assimilate with each other to enhance the wellness space. It seems, the nature’s game plan has a primordial and transcendental acceptance of the ultimate utility of the mutuality between male and female elements. The mutuality is a cosmic conspiracy to keep the universe going.

The man and woman mutuality and the raw element of core intimacy in the milieu is surely no business of words and language. All elemental and core utility have no words, only the primary sounds and raw acoustics of avowals. The music and dance have little utilities of words and language. The progression of the enterprises of music and dance is a conscious renunciation of the external and an acceptance of the journeys within. Intimacy is a brilliant mix of the best of both music and dance. Surely, it is ultimate artistry to renounce the cultural clutters of the consciousness, when deep in the intimacy music. The ingenuities of man or woman mind positioning needs to be renounced in the progression of intimacy as the music renounces words in its progression.

He understands and accepts the utility of musicality in the symphony of intimacy. Like a maestro, who draws his musical instrument in soft embrace of his being and then unleashes the artistry of his hands on the instrument to create musical brilliance; he accepts her being in complete and perfect wholeness. He plays the musical notes on her body and she imbibes the sincerity and wellness of the musical touches. The woman knows the business of touches and body-intent best. She is the magician of intangibilities.

The music begins and in its progression, the external doors between the man and the woman are gradually being closed. Success has only singular probability – the optionlessness of the inevitability. When all other doors are closed, the optionlessness starts to build its pathway of inevitability. The door of mutuality is about to open as music of intimacy ascends the ultimate notes.

She has already stopped thinking. It is usually threatening for a woman to surrender to her senses and lose connect with the ingenuities of her cultural mind consciousness. Since ages, there is a mind-training for women to keep her cultural mind consciousness upfront to deal with loads of intent-issues. However, once the woman dares to drop her guard and surrenders to the potential of her brilliantly empowered body basics; she eventually invites the marvel and magic to perform their ragas (melodies) of life.

He lets his body render the melodic notes of his intent and innocence on the instrument he clasps around his being. She gradually lets her body absorb his innocence. The bodies begin to arrive at the pinnacle of communication. He starts the notes and she takes it from him and then adds her own charisma to the rhythm. The dualism of distinctiveness of bodies starts melting and mutuality is slowly but definitively taking over the space of consciousnesses of both beings. After a while, the maestro surrenders and the instrument takes his consciousness. She finally takes over and begins to have her notes played on him. The music elevates to a completely novel level of perfection. The wellness of consciousnesses has attained the singularity of purpose and it stands at the door of the ultimate mutuality.

The dawn of mutuality opens up a completely new horizon of potentials. She is beginning to accept him and his being is there in mutuality-mode to be taken in. The