Royal Ceo by Seerat Kaur (best electronic book reader .txt) 📖

             I felt myself growing closer to him. My gaze didn't leave him. He was sleeping calmly. It was such a peaceful sight to see him. I couldn't speak my emotions, they were growing over time. I didn't want to keep my feelings to myself any longer. They were my strength now. But once they jumped out of my lips. It would be troublesome. He wouldn't accept anything more than a physical. 

       I bent down and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. I waited and he didn't stir. I pulled myself out of the mattress and walked out of the room. 

       Everything was changing. I couldn't resist the pull. The wind ruffled my hair as I opened the door and stepped out. I planted my feet on the grass and stared up at the sky. I felt goosebumps on my arms. I folded them, pulling them closer to my body. The weather was changing. 

      I needed to stop this, my feelings for him. He couldn't control me. I needed to get used to the fact that there was nothing in the future for me. I couldn't hurt myself with expectations. It would hurt. The pain would make me strong, but not before shattering me completely. 

      Fighting with my feelings wasn't in my nature. These days, it was normal that I mostly found myself struggling with my feelings. I'm afraid of having such scars which would never fade. 

      I felt something warm wrapped around my shoulders. I glanced to my side. He came into view, shirtless. Wao! His body! I forced my gaze away at the sky, it was trying to run through the thick dark but beautiful clouds, the moon hidden behind them, still spreading light. Nothing was spooky about the night, everything seemed beautiful. 

       "You'll catch a cold, hon." He wrapped his arms around me from behind. There was a blanket between us but I could feel his warm body, pressed against mine. 

       "It's not that cold," I muttered after a long pause. 

      My mind didn't throw a lot of thought at me when I was around him. I felt peace and calm like I hadn't felt them before. I wanted to lose in my feelings. 

      Where are we going with these? I couldn't bring myself to ask this. He kissed my cheek, "What are you thinking?" He asked. His slow voice was clearly hearable in the silence of the night. 

      I sighed. I felt myself in a difficult situation before revealing my emotions to him. I shook my head, "It's beautiful out here," I said. 

      His lips curled up in a full smile. His gaze was only on her, "Yes, the most beautiful sight I have ever seen." He muttered, his arms fastened slightly around me. 

      I inhaled a deep breath smelling the grass in the air, mixed with his cologne. I found myself getting comfortable in his hold. 

      "Let's get you in. You should rest." He said. 

      "I'm fine." I didn't want to give control to him.

      "Aerial has messaged me. She wants her sister at her side." He didn't need to say more. I nodded my head 

      He swiped my feet over the floor and turned to walk inside. He carried me easily. My gaze darted around to find a clock. It was useless as the dark was still lingering in the hall. 

       "Five thirty," He said with a smile, glancing down at me. 

       I looked into his eyes and nodded. We trooped back in our room, "I'll be in the gym. I can drop you at her place on my way to the office." He said. 

      "Hm," I nodded, looking away. 

      The more I looked at him, the more he captured me, tightened the ropes of his feelings around me. I yawned. I pulled myself out of the contemplating zone. I should sleep. 

      He placed me on the mattress as I was a porcelain doll. I closed my eyes, drifting toward the dark. I felt his lips pressing on my temple.   

   I heard his footfalls descending in the room. I didn't open my eyes. A smile appeared on my lips. My thoughts could never affect what I felt for him. 

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                     He brought one finger under my chin, raising my head until I was looking into his eyes. He kissed the top of my nose and smiled. 

      I gave him a long look. There was a mess of emotions between us. I didn't know how he was handling things. Well! I expected him to understand but he wasn't giving a single hint. Expectations would be my anticlimax. I needed to get myself together before I dropped myself in such a situation where it would be impossible to get over. 

       "I'll be out for a few days. I have some business in Paris." He said. 

       I didn't question him, just nodded my head. I would get time to gather myself. The time that I needed to rein in my feelings. I had to decide one thing. Ignore them or embrace them. But I was feeling bad. 

       My heart began to thud at the name of his going. I felt tears in the back of my eyes, "When will you come?" I asked him before I could halt myself. 

       "Two days," He said. 

       Two days! I repeated in my head. I gave him a nod. I would survive without him. Would I? I was doubting my own words. 

       "I would have taken you with me," His fingers touched my cheeks, "But you'll like to stay with your family." He said. 

       How could he make decisions on my behalf? Shouldn't he ask me? I would have liked to go with him and explore Paris. I would have talked to Eri. I would have convinced her to make a promise to accompany her next time. 

      He kissed me and pulled me into a hug. He didn't say anything. But I heard myself saying clearly, "Come soon." 

     When he pulled and glanced down at me, there was a huge grin on his face. 

     The tears I was expecting to fade in the back of my eyes, formed and dripped down my cheeks. 

    I swiped them away and returned to my room to start my day without him. It felt awkward.