Redeeming Love by Shikha Mishra (e book reader android txt) 📖

“But vihaan….."

“Let me recite the summary of the agreement…." I say cutting her off “The day when everyone started forcing me to marry you and me being me was adampt not to follow what they were saying, you were the one who came to me with an offer….. You offered me to be in an fictitious marriage. And there was a clause that mentioned we can end this marriage if any of us want. And now I want to end it." I end.

I was happy that soniya came to me with this offer that day. Everything got easy for me because dad was threatening me with Disha.

“B-but you still haven't fallen for me." she mumbles. I sign.

“Soniya, you should love someone better than me. You are sweet but I am not for you and the same goes to you. I am a bastard. I am asshole who very stupidly has lost his love of life and his fucking best friend. I am a very selfish person who still wants them back after doing what I shouldn't have thought of doing my whole life." I reply.

“So you don't love me, not even a bit. After 2 fucking years you still don't feel anything for me….." a sob escapes her lips “I had been loving you since our school days but….but you never took a glance at me. When Disha left I thought I had a chance, I….. I thought I could be salvation for broken vihaan, but no...that never happened. You still never glanced at me. You still had your eyes for Disha just like back then. You still treated me like a stranger. Why does it have to be Disha?Why....not me? It has always been Disha……. Why do I love you? Why?..... Why? Why did I love you? Why?" The car fills with her sobs. 

And I really pity her but am I worthy enough to console her? I am the reason for her pain.

The journey to home continues with her crying and me lost in my thoughts. I stop the car in the premises of the house where she lives. I glance at soniya to see her lost in her thoughts as tears fall from her swollen eyes like a raindrop. Without saying a word she leaves.

I zoom the car towards Disha's new house. I stop the car in front of her society and glance around.

I must say she has chosen a perfect place for her.

I stop infront of her door and ring the bell. My heart is beating in anticipation. I again ring the bell. As soon as the door opens I dart inside and take her in my arms, squeezing the life out of her.

“Vihaan what the hell are you doing?" I hear her say. Her breath heating my neck. 

“Hugging you." I mumble as I snuggle closer to her. 

I needed this. But it could have been better if she hugged me back.

“Stop. Hugging. Me. Then." Something's off about her voice. I part away from her and look her up and down.

She fucking took those pills. I am sure of it.

“Did you take that poison? I shouldn't have let you go. Where the heck is hrithik? Did he leave you alone?" I ask. I am furious.

This time I am going to take her to the hospital. 

“What does it have to do with you? Leave my home, right now." she says with a straight face. 

I don't like her emotionless face.

“It sure does concern me….my sweet wifey." I reply. If she thinks that after taking those pills she will become unbeatable then she is fucking wrong.

This pills just helps her shutting off all her emotions.

“I am not your wife." she says.

“Will you believe me after I show you the damn papers?" I say.

“Vihaan are you thinking that after knowing that you are still married to me, will make me come running to you with open arms….." she laughs “Then you are damn wrong. Even if we are still legally married doesn't change a thing. I will file for a divorce." My anger skyrockets.

“Why are you trying so hard to separate us? I know you love me." I reply. I am sure she loves me.

No one can know her better than me.

“And I have told you hundreds of times that I don't love you." My hands shoot around her body as I pull her towards me. I attach my lips to her. I tangle my hand in her hair and tug it down. My other hand finds themselves inside her tshirt.

I shove my tongue inside her mouth. I stroke her inside aggressively. I open my eyes and I start moving straight, making her do the same. Her hands which are struggling to free herself don't even budge me a little bit.

I push her on the sofa and in a lightning speed remove my shirt.

“What the fuck you are…..?" I bend down and again put my lips on her. I pull her tongue in my mouth and suck it hard. My hands stroking and caressing her body. I stroke the inner side of her tongue, making her moan. Suddenly my lips detach from her as my face turns the other way. 

She slapped me.

“WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING OF DOING?.... RAPE ME." My eyes widened at her words. I can't believe she can accuse of that.

‘Then what were you really doing a few seconds ago.' my conscience says.

Guilt seeps into me. “Fuck. I am sorry. Disha. I-I didn't know what took over me."

“Leave." she replies. Her eyes filled with tears.

I don't say anything and turn away to leave.

“Listen…." I stop and turn around at a lightning speed. My eyes filled with hope “You were right. I still love you. I tried to stop loving you this whole time but it never changed. I still love you like I loved you back then. Even if everything has changed, my love for you has remained unchanged. And I hate it. I hate myself for still loving you even after what you did to me….to us….. I pity both of us. I pity you.….. This love has really destroyed both of us." the tears slip from her eyes. My chest is heavy as if someone has put a heavy weight on it.

“Do you….." I gulp down the lump formed in my throat “do you re-regret fa-falling in lo-loving with me?"

“Yes." Instantly my sight blurs. Her answer shattered my heart in so many pieces that I doubt it would ever be redeemed.  

You are the best vihu.

I love you so much vihu.

We will have our happily ever after just like prince and Princesses.