Damaged Beyond Repair by Kashmira Kamat (KittyKash) (ebook reader below 3000 .txt) 📖

I drowned myself in a never-ending word of gray.

You met me on just another normal day.

Persistent that you always were, baby.

You tried to drag me towards the ray.

Tell me, how am I supposed to repay?

You gave me everything..

And this hollow inside me keeps stretching..

Because baby, in return I gave you nothing...

My angel, my love...the ray of hope I did see..

But the monster that lives, it's not you, it's me.

I could never forgive myself for the lies..

But you never spoke a word when I heard your cries..

My savior, my knight in the shining armour..

My feelings will always remain the same...

Mi amour...

While from a distance, I will always love you...

While from a distance, I will always watch you...

From a monster, you turn me into a man...

I remind myself each day as much as I can...

I pulled you into a world filled with my pain..

All you did was try to pull me back into the world full of sane...

Your love for me was the only thing that mattered...

And look, baby, look at the way I just shattered.....

Holding you close was my personal bliss...

Kissing you, my love, is what I will miss...

There is nothing besides you that I crave...

It will only be you, my baby girl, you're so brave...

I leave you in a domain of Despair...

Since I'm everything, but Damaged Beyond Repair....

I will endeavor the emotions that I lack...

That is when; I intend to get back...

I struggle to make it out of the demon's snare...

Baby, I swear...

There will be nothing for you to bear...

My apologies will never be enough...

Alana, my love, I'm so sorry..

I know you love me and so you worry...

If life treats us fair and square...

Who knows, we might meet somewhere...

Until then baby, au revoir...

Take care...

Yours forever and always.

Rowan.

Everything inside me just blacked out, I picked the red rose that was left next to the letter. I clenched it so hard that the thorns pierced into my skin. I watched the blood drip on the floor, which never got a reaction out of me. What would a little thorn of a Rose do to me anyway? Haven't I already been ripped apart? The emptiness was beginning to spread when the realization dawned. He left..

Rowan left you, Alana. Look where your love led you. You're abandoned again.

Like an operated robot, I walked out of the room and out of the apartment without being quite conscious about my actions. I left the note and the rose in his room. His words from the day before reeled in my head.

You'll never give up on me. No matter what.

Lies. Lies. Lies.

I was soaked in the heavy rain. Half way through the dorms, the horn blared in my ears but I didn't care. I collapsed on the road, a loud sob ripped through my chest.

The man scurried over to help me from the ground. Horns blared in the background. I thought I was going crazy. My patience, my energy and most of all my sanity. It's crazy how Rowan made me feel loved and then pushed me off the cliff with a smile on his face.

How could I be so stupid? How could I even think that I was enough to keep him sane. It had all been my fault.

You already have the answer to it, baby; I would spend my entire life in hell if it means that you'll be with me. I can't live without you. More like this world is a dark place without you. It's a need more than a want. I need you to show me my place every time I lose it.

My fuzzy head was flooded with the previous memory.

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.