"A Cry for Help" by Brittany M. J. Cook (latest ebook reader TXT) 📖

My life. Its hard most of the time. Sometimes it makes you laugh, other times it will make you really angry. Then there's those times when i'm with the best person in my life, my fiance. When i'm with him i feel so happy so alive. I don't know what to do, how to act, or what to say. Then when i'm away from him I feel alone, like I just want to give up on life, I mean I know nobody said it was gonna be easy, but I didn't know it was gonna be this dang hard. I look around and see that my house isn't a home, no, its just a place full of hate and lies.

My mother. She makes me lie to my father for her. She makes us all lie for her. She makes us hide the truth. I want soo bad to tell him the truth about "Them". I feel like i'm going to explode if I hold it in any longer. I want to run and hide from all the lies and secrets I hold within me, but I just can't get away from them no matter what I do, or where I run to.

I need to do something to stop it, I need the pain to end. It's killing me inside and out, but she doesn't care. she doesn't even notice how much it bothers me, neither does he. So I sit and wonder what to do.

They act like there just friends so that my dad doesn't think anything of it even tho I know he can tell something is going on. Oh no, there not just friends they are way more than that, they are really Lovers. Everybody knows it, but him, the main person that should know it. I want so bad to tell him, to just yell it out to him, but where do I begin? Would he hate me forever? I couldn't bare it if my father hated me. I don't care if they hated me, they would get what they deserved, but my dad hasn't done anything wrong to anyone to deserve such pain as this.

Why won't they go ahead and save some of the pain and tell him now? Just get it over with already. It would save all of us alot of pain. Oh but, no, she can't go down alone she has to take everyone else down with her, just to make herself feel better. She thinks everything is about her happiness. She wants both men to herself. She will do anything to get them both.

As the days go by I wonder when will the truth come out? I wonder when it will all end? I wish I could get away from it all. The lies. The secrets. I wish I could just start over new. Far away from all the lies, secrets, pain, the hurt, and the tears i'v cried.
I just want to get away and hide from all the noise within me. Its screaming at my brain to just yell it out already. I try to hold it in, but I can't for much longer. I just can't do it anymore. I'm starting to hate what my life has become of. I only want to be happy with him, start a whole new life, get out of this one. I'm stuck in a hell zone full of hate and torture. I want to stay with him, free of lies and regret, no tears, no fears. I don't think I can take it much longer.

I sit here and wonder how can I tell him? how do I begin? when do I tell him? Will he ever forgive me? I have so many questions, but I have no answers. None what so ever.


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It's all out now. He knows it all. She can't run from the truth anymore. She still trys and trys to hide it, she knows its to late, but she just won't face the truth. He left when it should have been her that had to leave, but she still won't admit to it. Any of it. I hope the worst will be over soon, but I know its no where near being over.

Her own child, her own little boy tells them the truth and says that he wants to be with his dad and not his mom. What do I, What do we do now? Where do I go from here? Do we try again or just start over?

He might come back, but she is only gonna do it again. Why doesn't she just make it easy and let him go? Leave him alone? Move on? She is the one doing all of it. Causing all the pain, miserly, and tears. Why can't he see that? He can do a whole lot better if he only tried to and everybody knows it. I know it. He should just walk away from her with his head held high, he did nothing wrong. Save himself a whole lot of pain. I know it won't be easy for him to do, but he has to try. Just let her go so that she doesn't have the chance to hurt him ever again.

She has finally gone away now. She can't hurt him, us anymore ever again. He has found some one a whole lot better some one worth being called a mother. She is everything a real mother should be. I also finally get to move in with the man I love so very much and be happy. I get, We all get to start over with out any lies, any secrets. We get to live with out anything to hide from one another.

~~~~THE END~~~~

Text: All photos came from Google.com
Publication Date: 09-01-2011

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Dedication:
To my Father. I'm sorry, I wish I could have found the words to tell you.