2 years in a room by Charaf sghir, charaf sghir, charaf sghir, charaf sghir (notion reading list .txt) 📖

What’s your favorite food? What’s your favorite clothes? What’s you’re favorite places? imagine being so sad that all you’re favorite things become with no meaning , when you don’t want to eat your favorite food , wear and visit you’re most lovely clothes and places . When everything have no meaning for you at all but what if people around you have no meaning too? when you don’t want to go out because you don’t want to see anyone or hear anything all you want to see is dark it’s all about more and more dark ,sometimes you don’t what time it is , it is 8AM or 8PM is it Monday or Sunday ? I know what is like to think about killing yourself to end it all , from the moment you thought about it that’s mean you already did it mentally which is worst when you alive physically but dead mentally I’ve been through all this but there is always a bit of light in the dark maybe you can’t see it but I am pretty sure you will believe me and trust me because I saw it , I saw a light it was far away from me and I knew on my way to that light I will get down and get broken again and fail many times to reach it but I believed that one day ill reach it and feel it and live in the light and see meaning of life , family friends , god, favorite things and most important Love .

I used to love life, when it was good to me but we all know life is unfair. On my way to the light I failed so many times and every time I failed I go back to a darkest place. I used to go out at 1am to avoid meeting people I didn’t want to meet anyone walking at night thinking about how sad I was and listening to sad songs while walking you can’t stop thinking about your room sometimes you comeback from your late night walk to get in the dark and cry again and sometimes you don’t even go out refusing to leave the darkest room because on it you feel like it’s your world your safe world which can hold all tears, sadness, pain and depression. every depressed person on the planet have tried to go out with friends wishing for a happy evening, me as well I tried but every time I failed sometimes I refuse and sometimes I go but all I see is dark, when every friend is enjoying the hangout but all you thinking about is you’re room because you can’t wait to see the dark again and cry again. The family tries to help by trying to makes you feel good and make you feel like everything is good and lovely. For a depressed person nothing make since not even family, me as well I didn’t care about my family how can I? When I am not even caring about myself, you live everyday like it’s the same day the only thing that change is numbers of days. Watching your memories on your phone and how good you were, and how happy you were. for me I was jealous of my old self , getting a notification on your phone saying flashback from 2 years ago you saying that’s not me anymore but deep down it was you can’t say it’s not me because it’s you and that’s a fact I did the same as well . One day I asked myself what you want in life. What’s the purpose? I wanted the answer but I knew I will not find it in the fucked up room , deep down I wanted be something but all I was being is a fucked up guy who closes everything and keep crying around in the room . Its hard living this kind of life when you’re depressed and over thinking about every single thing, STOP it can kill YOU and that’s a fact. I failed to reach to the light many times but I kept pushing I know it’s hard I’ve been on it but all I can say is that at the end I reached it and that’s why am writing this to help every single one of you because if there is no one for you, you got yourself, don’t let yourself down get up for the old days for the old you which is you now just without smile and with a tear. I pushed myself from bed and went out I forced myself to talk to everyone and feel free to live. First surround yourself by positive friend and get rid of bad ones : go out with them ,talk to them even if you’re in your room , play games , go out whenever you can , tell them if you feel a bit sad again , and the most important is DON’T POST YOUR SAD LIFE ON SOCIAL MEDIA . Second remove all the negative things from your life like sad songs and sad pages also sad memories keep trying until you remember the good only, when your with family enjoy it talk to them tell them if anything is wrong trust me they will help a lot, bring on good memories they will revive the old you .Third read books and get inspired by successful people, find a good role model, do sports, dance in your room. I’ve been in my room 2 years sad and crying and I won nothing I reached nothing all I did is hurting myself and gained a skinny body step by step I beat the depressed me by the thing I told you about , in chapter one I talked why my friend Fodel helped me a lot and why his like a brother to me he forced me to go out until I started liking , he didn’t get bored of my sadness he kept it positive for me , he called me every night to check on me and how’s everything going , Khadija did as well she helped a lot by talking to me , my family motivated me to get out of it and it worked . Its hard living without a goal but God showed me mines.

My letter to you is believe again live again and the most important Love again. I wrote this to help you and to make you feel good and to promise that there is light in the dark you just have to reach it. My grandma this is for you I knew you watching and am pretty sure I’ll make you proud of your son and I promise ill take care of myself and my family and eve thing you told me about rest in peace angel . I want to thank god for everything family friends for making me ready to live and love again

LIFE AM READY.

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Publication Date: 03-18-2020

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