Author's e-books - Self-harm. Page - 1
"Only I can describe what is going on, not you, not anyone. Although I still love you. This love will never last, I wont ever last. You try to keep me here, stable, and happy, I'm sorry that I'm letting you down."
Chapter five is published! Please tell me what you think.
"Sami! Sam, don't do it! Sami, please!" I have never resented the distance separating us more than in this moment as I try to reach her through the webcam. "SAMI, COME BACK HERE NOW," I shriek, crying hysterically.
When the black-haired girl walks out of her bathroom and back into my sight, her look says it all; I know instantly it happened again. It's never hurt quite this much, though. This time, there's the heart-wrenching pain of knowing that I was right here, unable to do anything. And she did it on purpose. She knew it would hurt me.
She looks at me, expressionless. "I'm sorry," Sam whispers, closing the laptop as the tears stream down my face.
The words echo through my mind relentlessly.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
*TRIGGER WARNING*
Charlie is a cutter. She self-harms. When Her parents find out they send her to a recovery home, which is a school with dorms, Which have Doctors and Nurses crawling around, with sharp tongues and steel eyes with clip boards ready to write down every cut, suicide attempt, and pound lost. Charlie used to be normal She didn't used to cut. But then Her best friend Owen killed himself and She went down hill. Charlie Meets Clara at the school first. A starving Anorexic girl, who just wants a family of her own to raise. She doesn't care if she starves, but she hates it when her friends try to do the same thing. She's Charlie's roommate. Next she meets Ryder. It wasn't his piercing eyes that caught hers' but his small waist and his sticking out ribs. They soon bond over their mutual love of taking pictures. Ryder is Anorexic, cuts, and is suicidal. He's smart, quick, and protective, but a loner at the same time. She then meets Ayelie, A girl who is cynical, sarcastic, thinks her situation is hilarious, and wants anything but to recover. Charlie then meets her friends Daniel, Alen, and Ava. Charlie soon comes to find out she has the means to be Anorexic if she just cuts out the junk food. And when she does and drops weight, she craves to be skinny. Just when she thinks things can't get any worse, Owen walks through the front doors of the school straight from the grave. Three months of crying, of cutting, of wishing she was dead, all for nothing, because Owen is still alive. And she's pissed. Soon her Child hood friend Moves back into her old town. Caden and Charlie hit it off again, when Charlie heads home for a vacation. While she's away Her Dad cheats on her Mom and they split up. When Charlie and Caden are hanging out Caden makes a mistake, and Charlie see's his scars. So not only does Charlie head back to the school broken hearted about her family, She heads back to school with a new Crazy kid, (Ck) to meet her crazy Family. Owen and Caden don't get along. Caden's Dad and Charlie's Mom get married and Pregnant with twins. So now Charlie has two choices. Get better so she can teach her younger siblings to not hate themselves, or continue to starve, and stay in the school until she withers away into nothing. Light as a feather.
"Only I can describe what is going on, not you, not anyone. Although I still love you. This love will never last, I wont ever last. You try to keep me here, stable, and happy, I'm sorry that I'm letting you down."
Chapter five is published! Please tell me what you think.
"Sami! Sam, don't do it! Sami, please!" I have never resented the distance separating us more than in this moment as I try to reach her through the webcam. "SAMI, COME BACK HERE NOW," I shriek, crying hysterically.
When the black-haired girl walks out of her bathroom and back into my sight, her look says it all; I know instantly it happened again. It's never hurt quite this much, though. This time, there's the heart-wrenching pain of knowing that I was right here, unable to do anything. And she did it on purpose. She knew it would hurt me.
She looks at me, expressionless. "I'm sorry," Sam whispers, closing the laptop as the tears stream down my face.
The words echo through my mind relentlessly.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
*TRIGGER WARNING*
Charlie is a cutter. She self-harms. When Her parents find out they send her to a recovery home, which is a school with dorms, Which have Doctors and Nurses crawling around, with sharp tongues and steel eyes with clip boards ready to write down every cut, suicide attempt, and pound lost. Charlie used to be normal She didn't used to cut. But then Her best friend Owen killed himself and She went down hill. Charlie Meets Clara at the school first. A starving Anorexic girl, who just wants a family of her own to raise. She doesn't care if she starves, but she hates it when her friends try to do the same thing. She's Charlie's roommate. Next she meets Ryder. It wasn't his piercing eyes that caught hers' but his small waist and his sticking out ribs. They soon bond over their mutual love of taking pictures. Ryder is Anorexic, cuts, and is suicidal. He's smart, quick, and protective, but a loner at the same time. She then meets Ayelie, A girl who is cynical, sarcastic, thinks her situation is hilarious, and wants anything but to recover. Charlie then meets her friends Daniel, Alen, and Ava. Charlie soon comes to find out she has the means to be Anorexic if she just cuts out the junk food. And when she does and drops weight, she craves to be skinny. Just when she thinks things can't get any worse, Owen walks through the front doors of the school straight from the grave. Three months of crying, of cutting, of wishing she was dead, all for nothing, because Owen is still alive. And she's pissed. Soon her Child hood friend Moves back into her old town. Caden and Charlie hit it off again, when Charlie heads home for a vacation. While she's away Her Dad cheats on her Mom and they split up. When Charlie and Caden are hanging out Caden makes a mistake, and Charlie see's his scars. So not only does Charlie head back to the school broken hearted about her family, She heads back to school with a new Crazy kid, (Ck) to meet her crazy Family. Owen and Caden don't get along. Caden's Dad and Charlie's Mom get married and Pregnant with twins. So now Charlie has two choices. Get better so she can teach her younger siblings to not hate themselves, or continue to starve, and stay in the school until she withers away into nothing. Light as a feather.